Reboot

mach

Member
So this is new to me. I always thought I could go at it alone to fix my problems but over the last 9 years with constant setbacks I just can't do it alone. I'm almost 14 days into my reboot and its been a struggle. No stumbles but definitely a struggle. I need to make this work. My porn habit was interfering with my relationship causing trust issues. I can't go back to the way I was before. If anyone has any helpful tips or pointers I would love to hear them.
 

mach

Member
This week I am out traveling for work and the struggle is real. I have removed all of my old go to apps to help with mindlessly reverting to my bad habits. Now it will have to be a deliberate action. I have been meditating and staying busy to keep my mind clear but being alone away from home there isn't much else to do. Still keeping strong though.
 

strongfuture89

Active Member
Being alone is a difficult moment but you´ll be very proud if you can conquer it. You can use free time to:
- send a message to partner/family/friends
- meditation and light exercise (planking or pushups work like a charm)
- learn a new language or read a book (there are very good books in the public domain that you can download on your phone)
- help other people on this forum
- go on google maps and find the most interesting place in the area you are, do some research on it and go visit it by foot
 

mach

Member
15 days into reboot. Heading back home tomorrow where the temptation isn't as strong. Only need to make it one more night. Going to keep taking it one day at a time and count that as success.
 

mach

Member
I have been grouchy and angry today. Struggling with maintaining a calm demeanor and not snapping at anything and everything. I feel like I have been struggling for a couple of weeks now and the strain is really getting to me. I have said things I should not have and hurt my families feelings. Hopefully I can figure out some way to deal with this. I have a Dr. Appt in a couple of weeks maybe I can figure out if there is something deeper that I am struggling with and can address to help.
 

mach

Member
20 days in. Downloaded the Atomic Habits audio book and have been listening to it on my way from work. Its a bit depressing knowing that I will have to conatantly be on guard against PMO. I feel like one slip up and I will be back to being embarrassed and trying to hide it. One way or another I need to change from the guy trying to quit porn to the guy who doesn't use porn.
 

mach

Member
21 days in. 3 weeks down and a lifetime to go. I am running late for work today. I dont know what happened. One of those mornings where I dont even remember my alarm clock going off. I am stressing about getting to work an hour late and stress is one of my porn cues. So here I am back to Journaling and reading through threads to keep me motivated and striving the kick this bad habit.
 

mach

Member
27 days in. I have had my sketchy moments but I think it is safe to say I'm getting on the other side. I'm traveling again this week but the temptation isn't as great as it has been. I know this is mostly due to my wife who has been so supportive. The reboot has definitely worked though. I just need to stay vigilant on keeping any temptations away. I'm sure if I let my guard down just a bit I will be back where I started and I just can't do that again. Keeping up the good fight. Thanks for the support!
 

mach

Member
35 days in. I have been feeling more tense and stressed lately. Life is very structured and hard to find a free moment to decompress. I would like to take each moment as it comes without being affected by my bad moods. For the last month I have realized all these problems I have been covering with porn and bad habits. This reboot has gotten harder not because I am struggling so much with porn anymore but with everything I was using porn to cover. Now its all about not regressing and fixing the issues one at a time.
 

mach

Member
Today was a rough one. I felt the temptation but don't want to break my streak. Still going strong but I need to get my mind right. Feel like I am slipping.
 
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