TealCactus
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I think this is my third day with no porn this week? I’m feeling really good. Staying busy at work, even if it’s not work-related (I.e., playing a game or watching youtube), definitely can help me stay away from porn.
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I watched porn just once this week on Friday. It was a disappointing setback but I want to keep my head and not quit. I have so many exciting things going on in life (mostly trying to advance my career), and I don’t have the time or energy to put up with this porn addiction. I want it to be done for the rest of my life. Not even considering the awful mental and physical side effects, porn is just a plain ole waste of time
TealCactus
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Relapsed again today at work and told my wife shortly after. I really need to be careful from like 9-11 am, that’s when I relapse like 90% of the time.
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Ayo, I had a clean day yesterday and I’m feeling really good today too. I haven’t scheduled my next therapy appointment yet tho. Idk why, it just feels tiring sometimes but I know I need to go. I love my therapist, and it definitely helps a lot
I feel you dude. I'm the same way, in my case not with therapy, but generally with doing things that are good for me but require some kind of "activation energy."
Maybe you could plan to reward yourself somehow after each session. Like, treating yourself to something good to eat, or setting aside a little money for your RC hobby.
TealCactus
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I’m starting a new reward system today. I’m clearing my spending account, (I have a main checking account for bills and necessities), and I’m going to give myself $5 everyday i dont want porn. On days that I do, I have to give $20 to my wife for her to spend on whatever. I have lots of things I’m saving up for so I think this will be some good tangible motivation to stay clean.
I’ve been down to once-twice a week lately, but when I do watch it’s usually long binge sessions at work, and I just don’t want it in my life at all. I’m recommitting to posting here once a day, going for a walk once a day during the morning, when I usually relapse. I say I’m going to post here more almost every time I post, so clearly I have issues with following through. That’s how I am in real life too, so I’m hoping that eventually I will follow through, and begin to practice that more in my life too.
I’ve been down to once-twice a week lately, but when I do watch it’s usually long binge sessions at work, and I just don’t want it in my life at all. I’m recommitting to posting here once a day, going for a walk once a day during the morning, when I usually relapse. I say I’m going to post here more almost every time I post, so clearly I have issues with following through. That’s how I am in real life too, so I’m hoping that eventually I will follow through, and begin to practice that more in my life too.
TealCactus
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Had a good day today! I went for a morning walk that helped I think, and I also got good sleep.
TealCactus
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Relapsed today and didnt tell my wife. Idk why. I’m kinda struggling with our relationship this week, neither of us really hang out ever anymore or get along. I have therapy tomorrow though and then it’s a chill weekend so that’s always good, we tend to feel closer after a weekend together, we’re just so busy and tired on weekdays.
I wonder if there are any little rituals you guys could have during the week to bring you closer a little bit? I get the impression you care a lot about your wife, so I bet it's more you vs the problem (your busy life, addiction, other stresses) than you vs her. Maybe there's some little things you guys could do that could soften that tension even when you're busy.
