Blondie
Respected Member
How Black and White Thinking Will Kill Your Recovery
I've been thinking a lot recently about by continuous struggle with black and white thinking in my life and thought I'd write something about it today.
What is black and white thinking?
To put it bluntly: black and white thinking is to only see the world in either or categories, with no shades of gray in between.
For example, I've been dieting over the last year and I've lost almost 50lbs. One of the ways I've managed to do this is by never going to any extremes in my diet, and for the most part, just cutting back on my portion sizes during the day. Thus, I still eat pasta and pizza and all other kinds of "bad foods" but my portions are smaller than they were before, and that's that. Doing this, without being extreme, has helped me stay the course on my diet and kept me from going overboard when I let myself have a cheat day. However, I've notice when I've given myself a cheat day, a familiar thought pattern comes up that I'm all too familiar with in my bad porn habit over the years.
What has happened many times over the course of the year is this: I'll be having a cheat day but then find myself eating more than I had planned on, of course doing this makes me feel guilty, and then this wicked thought pops into my head, "Well... since I've alreadly "fucked up" I might as well go all the way and eat the whole damn pizza!"
This my friends is the evil of black and white thinking.
Having this thought pattern and not recognizing it has really set me back over this last year in my diet, though I have been getting better at spotting it in the moment.
Why do I do this?
Why do we do this?
I've learned over the last year to remined myself in these pressing moments, "Okay, so you've had a slice more of pizza than you've planned on, this will only set me back a week in my progress. However, if I eat the whole pizza now, that will set my back two full weeks and that is not acceptable!"
Having this dialogue in my head and forcing myself to not see my diet as either on or off, or more importantly, good dieter/bad dieter, has helped me tremendously to lose quite a few pounds and be all the happier for it.
Over the years, I have recognized this same stupid thought pattern and have noticed how it constantly screwed up my recovery. We all know how this story goes don't we?
"Well fuck... I just looked at some sexy girl in yoga pants on Instagram. I've alreadly fucked up, so I might as well go all the way!"
or
"Oh shit, I just MOed and I told myself I wasn't going to do that. I guess now I should just fuck it and PMO too!"
or
"Dammit! My streaks are getting shorter and shorter, I guess I'm a fucking loser and should just give up and "start over again" tomorrow."
or my favorite
"Well I've done it! I goggled a porn site and saw one picture. I told myself I was never going do this again, so I guess I'll have another five hour session and start over tomorrow"
Why do we do this nonsense? How can adults be so juvenile in their thinking?
It's because our minds are caught up in black and white thinking.
We must rid ourselves from such thought patterns and instantly extract them like a leech from our mental legs.
So here are some truth bombs you all can tell yourself when you've "found yourself" in a tight situation.
One porn picture does not equal five hours of porn you nitwit!
One sexy girl on Facebook does not mean you've fucked up!
Just cause you've wanked it once, doesn't make you a wanker. So stop being one dammit!
There is no such thing as a perfect recovery. So stop a giving a fuck about "shorter streaks." Anything, and I mean anything, is better than nothing!
Let us all stop this nonsense once and for all.
We are better than this - I know it.
Let us embrace the gray areas in our recovery!
I've been thinking a lot recently about by continuous struggle with black and white thinking in my life and thought I'd write something about it today.
What is black and white thinking?
To put it bluntly: black and white thinking is to only see the world in either or categories, with no shades of gray in between.
For example, I've been dieting over the last year and I've lost almost 50lbs. One of the ways I've managed to do this is by never going to any extremes in my diet, and for the most part, just cutting back on my portion sizes during the day. Thus, I still eat pasta and pizza and all other kinds of "bad foods" but my portions are smaller than they were before, and that's that. Doing this, without being extreme, has helped me stay the course on my diet and kept me from going overboard when I let myself have a cheat day. However, I've notice when I've given myself a cheat day, a familiar thought pattern comes up that I'm all too familiar with in my bad porn habit over the years.
What has happened many times over the course of the year is this: I'll be having a cheat day but then find myself eating more than I had planned on, of course doing this makes me feel guilty, and then this wicked thought pops into my head, "Well... since I've alreadly "fucked up" I might as well go all the way and eat the whole damn pizza!"
This my friends is the evil of black and white thinking.
Having this thought pattern and not recognizing it has really set me back over this last year in my diet, though I have been getting better at spotting it in the moment.
Why do I do this?
Why do we do this?
I've learned over the last year to remined myself in these pressing moments, "Okay, so you've had a slice more of pizza than you've planned on, this will only set me back a week in my progress. However, if I eat the whole pizza now, that will set my back two full weeks and that is not acceptable!"
Having this dialogue in my head and forcing myself to not see my diet as either on or off, or more importantly, good dieter/bad dieter, has helped me tremendously to lose quite a few pounds and be all the happier for it.
Over the years, I have recognized this same stupid thought pattern and have noticed how it constantly screwed up my recovery. We all know how this story goes don't we?
"Well fuck... I just looked at some sexy girl in yoga pants on Instagram. I've alreadly fucked up, so I might as well go all the way!"
or
"Oh shit, I just MOed and I told myself I wasn't going to do that. I guess now I should just fuck it and PMO too!"
or
"Dammit! My streaks are getting shorter and shorter, I guess I'm a fucking loser and should just give up and "start over again" tomorrow."
or my favorite
"Well I've done it! I goggled a porn site and saw one picture. I told myself I was never going do this again, so I guess I'll have another five hour session and start over tomorrow"
Why do we do this nonsense? How can adults be so juvenile in their thinking?
It's because our minds are caught up in black and white thinking.
We must rid ourselves from such thought patterns and instantly extract them like a leech from our mental legs.
So here are some truth bombs you all can tell yourself when you've "found yourself" in a tight situation.
One porn picture does not equal five hours of porn you nitwit!
One sexy girl on Facebook does not mean you've fucked up!
Just cause you've wanked it once, doesn't make you a wanker. So stop being one dammit!
There is no such thing as a perfect recovery. So stop a giving a fuck about "shorter streaks." Anything, and I mean anything, is better than nothing!
Let us all stop this nonsense once and for all.
We are better than this - I know it.
Let us embrace the gray areas in our recovery!