fedthefuckup
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My name is Nathan, and I'm fed the fuck up. Despite plenty of opportunities, I'm 21 and have never had penetrative sex. Despite knowing for at least a year that my ED is in all likelihood induced by artificial sexual stimulation, I've been unable to fully kick my pornography and sexting compulsion, and am now confident that tonight is the rock bottom I needed to finally move beyond my addiction.
Had a girl over, third date, made her dinner, things got sexual after a good 5 minutes of ignoring some movie. Dispite our immense chemistry and mutual attraction, and the 15mg of cialis in my system, I could feel that my dick was not going to work like it should. I was still able to make her cum without my dick in the picture, but could feel the tension and her confusion when I told her 'we're going to have to focus on you' tonight. After explaining my situation to her, she said she understood but would have to think about things and promptly left. I think it's likely I just blew a budding relationship with someone I really got along with, but feel empowered knowing that this is the catalyst for me to make the change necessary.
While I found quitting fapping to videos challanging, I was able to kick the habbit a couple months after I first read YBOP and realized what was wrong with me. And yet, for the past six months I've still been unable to quit sexting girls I've met online, touching myself while chatting and searching sites with pictures of girls for new sexting partners, and engaging in a fetish that I know is unnatural and not a part of my real life self as my primary method of sexual expression. While I can feel some signs of leaving my flatline (morning wood is occaisonal now as opposed to completely absent), I know I still have a long ways to go. Tonight is my resolution to go hard mode for a while, and to cut off and never return to my secret kink, sexting habit, any form of artificial sexual stimulation, and video games while I'm at it. Any advice or tales of similar success stories is appreciated, and I'm proud of everybody on this forum for striving to become better, more complete men.
Best of luck guys, and happy day one.
Had a girl over, third date, made her dinner, things got sexual after a good 5 minutes of ignoring some movie. Dispite our immense chemistry and mutual attraction, and the 15mg of cialis in my system, I could feel that my dick was not going to work like it should. I was still able to make her cum without my dick in the picture, but could feel the tension and her confusion when I told her 'we're going to have to focus on you' tonight. After explaining my situation to her, she said she understood but would have to think about things and promptly left. I think it's likely I just blew a budding relationship with someone I really got along with, but feel empowered knowing that this is the catalyst for me to make the change necessary.
While I found quitting fapping to videos challanging, I was able to kick the habbit a couple months after I first read YBOP and realized what was wrong with me. And yet, for the past six months I've still been unable to quit sexting girls I've met online, touching myself while chatting and searching sites with pictures of girls for new sexting partners, and engaging in a fetish that I know is unnatural and not a part of my real life self as my primary method of sexual expression. While I can feel some signs of leaving my flatline (morning wood is occaisonal now as opposed to completely absent), I know I still have a long ways to go. Tonight is my resolution to go hard mode for a while, and to cut off and never return to my secret kink, sexting habit, any form of artificial sexual stimulation, and video games while I'm at it. Any advice or tales of similar success stories is appreciated, and I'm proud of everybody on this forum for striving to become better, more complete men.
Best of luck guys, and happy day one.