ImBroken
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Hey Fam:
So…..friends, colleagues and some family have approached me over the past week asking “is everything ok?” “You don’t seem yourself?” “Is everything ok?” - I value my professionalism and my “game face” - but apparently I am not doing a good job and wearing my heart on my sleeve. I’ve been reassuring everyone that I am ok - which at some level - I guess I am. I am not usually the person who wears his heart on a sleeve...but I hate “lying” to people that I love and respect…THINGS ARE NOT OK - but I am just too embarrassed to discuss it at this point (outside of a trusted friend and a therapist…and all of you). I just don’t know what to say??? Trouble in Paradise? Working through some stuff? Brian’s in recovery from jerking off 25 times a week to porn and cam guys and erotic fantasy games? I knew absolutely ZERO about porn/sex addiction before this event…or I was in denial.
Any advice or phraseology that you all have used. I know that people are asking out of love and caring - I’m just not ready to have ANY discussions at this point…at the risk of sounding naive - I just want it all to go away - I don’t want to face it - I get sick to my stomach when I think of it - and I truly believed I was a stronger man who could get through “something” like this…well, I am not - and I am in a place right now where I don’t want to derail his recovery. Jesus, 90 days has never felt so LONG.
Would appreciate any advice that SOs can offer.
Mike
So…..friends, colleagues and some family have approached me over the past week asking “is everything ok?” “You don’t seem yourself?” “Is everything ok?” - I value my professionalism and my “game face” - but apparently I am not doing a good job and wearing my heart on my sleeve. I’ve been reassuring everyone that I am ok - which at some level - I guess I am. I am not usually the person who wears his heart on a sleeve...but I hate “lying” to people that I love and respect…THINGS ARE NOT OK - but I am just too embarrassed to discuss it at this point (outside of a trusted friend and a therapist…and all of you). I just don’t know what to say??? Trouble in Paradise? Working through some stuff? Brian’s in recovery from jerking off 25 times a week to porn and cam guys and erotic fantasy games? I knew absolutely ZERO about porn/sex addiction before this event…or I was in denial.
Any advice or phraseology that you all have used. I know that people are asking out of love and caring - I’m just not ready to have ANY discussions at this point…at the risk of sounding naive - I just want it all to go away - I don’t want to face it - I get sick to my stomach when I think of it - and I truly believed I was a stronger man who could get through “something” like this…well, I am not - and I am in a place right now where I don’t want to derail his recovery. Jesus, 90 days has never felt so LONG.
Would appreciate any advice that SOs can offer.
Mike