Sovokh
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Hello, I’m new here and looking around I saw one of the first things was to make a journal, which also operates as a introduction, I suppose.
Online I go by Sovokh, or Sov, and despite the foreign username I’m very much American, haha. I love to read and play video games, mainly Destiny 2, and I’m a hyperactive introvert, if that makes sense. I’ve probably been exposed to porn before starting highschool, and as I continued it got steadily more…intense, I guess is the word for it. I mainly do it as a stress reliever and for pleasure, and now that I’m 19, nearing the end of my first semester at college in the hopes of becoming a nurse, I’m becoming more and more aware just how dangerous it could be for someone with ADHD and mild ASD to become addicted to masturbation. I’m well aware how dangerous addiction is to individuals with ADHD, and I’ve firmly avoided drugs, smoking, and alcohol whenever the opportunity presented itself to me. Classes so far has been pretty stressful, and I know that it’ll only get worse as I continue to work towards that goal. So I want to be able to control my body and be able to relax when I take breaks, not to have a urge in the middle of something important. And, I guess this is being greedy, but I want to be able to appreciate the story in the NSFW comics that I read -should it have one, I am aware that many are made purely for pleasure- without having an urge to masturbate. As I spend more time here I’ll ultimately know what the answer is for me, be it finding a middle ground or ultimately having to give up reading comics that may end up being a trigger for me, but as I’m still young I hope for a compromise. I know that it will become a problem the longer I ignore it, hell, it’s probably already a problem, but I want to choose when I want to read NSFW comics, not have my body choose for me.
Day 2: I had an urge while working on schoolwork, but I was firm on finishing the coursework and doing work around the house.
Online I go by Sovokh, or Sov, and despite the foreign username I’m very much American, haha. I love to read and play video games, mainly Destiny 2, and I’m a hyperactive introvert, if that makes sense. I’ve probably been exposed to porn before starting highschool, and as I continued it got steadily more…intense, I guess is the word for it. I mainly do it as a stress reliever and for pleasure, and now that I’m 19, nearing the end of my first semester at college in the hopes of becoming a nurse, I’m becoming more and more aware just how dangerous it could be for someone with ADHD and mild ASD to become addicted to masturbation. I’m well aware how dangerous addiction is to individuals with ADHD, and I’ve firmly avoided drugs, smoking, and alcohol whenever the opportunity presented itself to me. Classes so far has been pretty stressful, and I know that it’ll only get worse as I continue to work towards that goal. So I want to be able to control my body and be able to relax when I take breaks, not to have a urge in the middle of something important. And, I guess this is being greedy, but I want to be able to appreciate the story in the NSFW comics that I read -should it have one, I am aware that many are made purely for pleasure- without having an urge to masturbate. As I spend more time here I’ll ultimately know what the answer is for me, be it finding a middle ground or ultimately having to give up reading comics that may end up being a trigger for me, but as I’m still young I hope for a compromise. I know that it will become a problem the longer I ignore it, hell, it’s probably already a problem, but I want to choose when I want to read NSFW comics, not have my body choose for me.
Day 2: I had an urge while working on schoolwork, but I was firm on finishing the coursework and doing work around the house.
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