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Those words “ you’re rewiring your brain “ hit me hard and gives the motivation I need to keep going . Thanks brother
Day 23
Mixed feelings today and I’m not totally sure it’s a win but I had phone sex with an old acquaintance and while she touched herself I did same too and orgasm’d from it . Does this count as a win since porn wasn’t involved ??? I don’t know , really mixed feelings but as usual I haven’t consumed porn for 23 days and counting and I will say this , my libido in the last few days has been off the roof and while talking to this acquaintance today on the phone I was Rock hard again she showed me her body which probably drove us to the phone sex. Looking to see how the next few days pan out because I don’t crave at all at this moment
Mixed feelings today and I’m not totally sure it’s a win but I had phone sex with an old acquaintance and while she touched herself I did same too and orgasm’d from it . Does this count as a win since porn wasn’t involved ??? I don’t know , really mixed feelings but as usual I haven’t consumed porn for 23 days and counting and I will say this , my libido in the last few days has been off the roof and while talking to this acquaintance today on the phone I was Rock hard again she showed me her body which probably drove us to the phone sex. Looking to see how the next few days pan out because I don’t crave at all at this moment
Day 24
Yesterday I didn’t know if what happened counted as a win but today I’m sure it was , I MO’d with because of a real life situation I was in with someone I was incredibly attracted to in the first place and getting that hard rock by us just showing each others our bodies and the dopamine feeling just rushing through should count yes? Anyways today is another tough day , I could feel the urge to touch myself again this time with either my imagination or porn and I can say I’m feeling the withdrawal symptoms because damn I haven’t been this horny in a long long time . It’s like my brain wants me to do it and I’m incredibly horny but guess what I will not be sucker punched into porn again. I will keep pushing .
Yesterday I didn’t know if what happened counted as a win but today I’m sure it was , I MO’d with because of a real life situation I was in with someone I was incredibly attracted to in the first place and getting that hard rock by us just showing each others our bodies and the dopamine feeling just rushing through should count yes? Anyways today is another tough day , I could feel the urge to touch myself again this time with either my imagination or porn and I can say I’m feeling the withdrawal symptoms because damn I haven’t been this horny in a long long time . It’s like my brain wants me to do it and I’m incredibly horny but guess what I will not be sucker punched into porn again. I will keep pushing .
Day 25
I am so horny tonight that I’m beginning to wonder is this normal ??? I want to get my fix soo bad . I usually read a lot about the flatline but how is the reverse the case in mine ? It’s almost a week of wanting to just Fuck! My brain is doing so much to make me look at porn but I am fighting!
I am so horny tonight that I’m beginning to wonder is this normal ??? I want to get my fix soo bad . I usually read a lot about the flatline but how is the reverse the case in mine ? It’s almost a week of wanting to just Fuck! My brain is doing so much to make me look at porn but I am fighting!
Day 30
been a busy few 2 days and didn’t have time to journal in but two days ago my girlfriend was back and we got into , I was having this blockers in my head for whatever reason when we were making out and couldn’t concentrate, was worried soo much about my dick standing that I didn’t concentrate on what we were doing and I had to stop . Later on she gave me head and although I did have an erection and orgasmed from it I still felt if I tried to attempt sex maybe my dick would loose its erection so I just stayed there and enjoyed the head . I guess I was too scared to even try . I don’t know but this anxiety isn’t helping , this first time this happened to me 30days ago shook me and it’s been worrying me ever since if I’m ever gonna get back to peak performances like in the past even when I was consuming Porn and PMO’n I still had peak performances although the crave for sex the real thing was at a low level as regards the crave for porn . I need to get these blockers out of my head . Anyways today is day 30!!! I made it without consuming porn and this was my initial goal so today I’m going to be gunning for another 30! A few months ago this didn’t seem possible but I am moving away from this life in hope that everything returns to normal for me . Selah 🫡
been a busy few 2 days and didn’t have time to journal in but two days ago my girlfriend was back and we got into , I was having this blockers in my head for whatever reason when we were making out and couldn’t concentrate, was worried soo much about my dick standing that I didn’t concentrate on what we were doing and I had to stop . Later on she gave me head and although I did have an erection and orgasmed from it I still felt if I tried to attempt sex maybe my dick would loose its erection so I just stayed there and enjoyed the head . I guess I was too scared to even try . I don’t know but this anxiety isn’t helping , this first time this happened to me 30days ago shook me and it’s been worrying me ever since if I’m ever gonna get back to peak performances like in the past even when I was consuming Porn and PMO’n I still had peak performances although the crave for sex the real thing was at a low level as regards the crave for porn . I need to get these blockers out of my head . Anyways today is day 30!!! I made it without consuming porn and this was my initial goal so today I’m going to be gunning for another 30! A few months ago this didn’t seem possible but I am moving away from this life in hope that everything returns to normal for me . Selah 🫡
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Kudos on picking yourself up! That can be the hardest thing to do after you fall. But you are still young and still have time to nip this in the bud. Keep on keep in’ onHey guys ! Today is day 1 of a battle that has spanned 15 years . I’m 27 now but I started masturbation and porn addiction when I was 12 . I am today deciding to pick myself up and fight before it’s too late because I have noticed the first signs of PIED . I will try and be updating this thread on my struggles. Wish me luck
I'm getting to that spot, good luck with it and keep etrong!
I'm happy to see you did it through the urges!
I think performance anxiety can be very normal, especially if you have PIED.
I had the same with my girlfriend when we were starting (1year ago). I was very anxious and self aware, but it helped us a lot that I was honest with her and I tolde her that I was nervous and anxious and that I didn't had an erection sometimes because of that. The same with delayed ejaculation (also porn induced, btw).
She was very understanding and we were still enjoying sex a lot, it was just that penetration and/or orgasm wasn't the main goal.
Over time (very little amount of time, btw) I got over it and it went better.
Keep in mind that is normal, and that it do gets better!!
Thank you mateKudos on picking yourself up! That can be the hardest thing to do after you fall. But you are still young and still have time to nip this in the bud. Keep on keep in’ on
Always pushing ! Good luck in your journey too
Thank you for your kind words , since I started this journey somedays great , some days normal but all in all I will have to get th anxiety off and I know I will
Day 33
nothing significant to report , a few urges here and there . Just few months ago it seemed impossible that I would quit watching porn and pleasuring myself while at it . Now I feel more resolve not to use even when I see a lot of triggering images online and trust me boy are they everywhere or what??? From provocative photos , explicit videos that you don’t know they are until you click it and forced to exit it immediately. Regardless not going back to using porn for the foreseeable future . We keep fighting
nothing significant to report , a few urges here and there . Just few months ago it seemed impossible that I would quit watching porn and pleasuring myself while at it . Now I feel more resolve not to use even when I see a lot of triggering images online and trust me boy are they everywhere or what??? From provocative photos , explicit videos that you don’t know they are until you click it and forced to exit it immediately. Regardless not going back to using porn for the foreseeable future . We keep fighting
Day 35
been a good two days and I’ve been home up until today, urges to look for explicit material as always after I see some provocative pictures on instagram and twitter but here’s what I’ve realized after I see them I remind myself that I can’t let my Brain dictate what I do and I close it right immediately and move on with what I’m doing . You don’t know how much sheer power you possess when you tell your brain I AM INCHARGE not you
been a good two days and I’ve been home up until today, urges to look for explicit material as always after I see some provocative pictures on instagram and twitter but here’s what I’ve realized after I see them I remind myself that I can’t let my Brain dictate what I do and I close it right immediately and move on with what I’m doing . You don’t know how much sheer power you possess when you tell your brain I AM INCHARGE not you
Day 39
it’s been a whirlwind few days and I wasn’t able to journal in because I spent it with the people most important to me in the world , went on a vacation with my girlfriend , brother and his girlfriend in Vegas and had an awesome weekend . Me and the girlfriend didn’t get into it because she was on her monthly, but again she did give me a blowjob and it was soo good , we did some heavy petting stopping short of penetrating because of obviously her thing . Throughout this I remained hard rock even after I orgasmed which makes me think that this thing has its days , and when my mind is focused fully without the constant thinking i actually see amazing results . Back to life’s day to day todays it’s been 39 days of not Using porn and pleasuring myself PMO’n . City boys we up
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it’s been a whirlwind few days and I wasn’t able to journal in because I spent it with the people most important to me in the world , went on a vacation with my girlfriend , brother and his girlfriend in Vegas and had an awesome weekend . Me and the girlfriend didn’t get into it because she was on her monthly, but again she did give me a blowjob and it was soo good , we did some heavy petting stopping short of penetrating because of obviously her thing . Throughout this I remained hard rock even after I orgasmed which makes me think that this thing has its days , and when my mind is focused fully without the constant thinking i actually see amazing results . Back to life’s day to day todays it’s been 39 days of not Using porn and pleasuring myself PMO’n . City boys we up
!Day 43
spent yesterday with the girlfriend and we finally did the did and it was good , well at least to my own understanding, realized that overthinking situations led to the anxiety I had in the past weeks while they tried to creep in I blocked them out and it was good . The only issue I noticed is I reached orgasm way faster than I would naturally like to but after that we took a few minutes and went back at it and that lasted longer . All in all I am in a good place today and I know that the more we do this and understand each others body it can only improve. It’s been 43 days now of not using porn and I can say some days are good some days might not be but never stop believing. Porn is the enemy and now I’m shooting for 60days after that I’m shootings 90. Keep fighting
spent yesterday with the girlfriend and we finally did the did and it was good , well at least to my own understanding, realized that overthinking situations led to the anxiety I had in the past weeks while they tried to creep in I blocked them out and it was good . The only issue I noticed is I reached orgasm way faster than I would naturally like to but after that we took a few minutes and went back at it and that lasted longer . All in all I am in a good place today and I know that the more we do this and understand each others body it can only improve. It’s been 43 days now of not using porn and I can say some days are good some days might not be but never stop believing. Porn is the enemy and now I’m shooting for 60days after that I’m shootings 90. Keep fighting
Day 45
Another day to keep going . I think generally my system has adjusted as I am horny yes but it’s at intervals and not at the same levels it were weeks ago where it was all I could think about for hours and hours . I would say that this journey has made me realize somethings I didn’t pay attention to in the past . Before I rarely got horny and wanted sex but also did have sex when my partners in the past wanted to , the issue has always been it was them that wanted it and I obliged . Mainly because I was getting my fix off PMO but since I stopped I’ve started wanting sex like a normal healthy human being and I feel in a much better place today . 15days to day 60! On wards upwards
Another day to keep going . I think generally my system has adjusted as I am horny yes but it’s at intervals and not at the same levels it were weeks ago where it was all I could think about for hours and hours . I would say that this journey has made me realize somethings I didn’t pay attention to in the past . Before I rarely got horny and wanted sex but also did have sex when my partners in the past wanted to , the issue has always been it was them that wanted it and I obliged . Mainly because I was getting my fix off PMO but since I stopped I’ve started wanting sex like a normal healthy human being and I feel in a much better place today . 15days to day 60! On wards upwards