Hey,
I have been in the claws of porn and masturbation for 9 years now.
I began consuming porn at a young age of 12 years, and now at 21 years, I'm still deeply rooted in this destructive habit.
I've been out of touch with my mind, heart, and soul. I have tried on a few occasions to swim out of this ''ocean'', but every time I do, I lose the war against myself and sink back even deeper than I have ever been.
I know I'm still young, but looking back at the 9 years I've had myself deep in the mud, I have lost a lot to porn consumption and masturbation. There are times when I feel extremely useless, and as a guy, knowing I waste what defines me as a man, I look at the world and feel alone, having thoughts about ending life at times.
A feeling of withdrawing myself from everyone who cares about my well-being, and just being alone, because I have failed myself, God and no one would be proud of what I have become.
But I believe there is a way back, there's a path back to restore myself, to redeem myself. It won't be easy walking down the road of recovery all by myself. There will be temptations to quit, and urges to draw me back to the dark side, but I believe I will pull through, keeping my faith in Jesus above, and having people to share with every day.
I hope this won't a failure because this feels like my final roll of the dice to redemption if I fail now, what will be the point of moving forward with hopes of having a good future as a high-value man?
If anyone sees this, this is a cry for help, we can walk together through these dark times, help a brother out, help a broken soul out.
I have been in the claws of porn and masturbation for 9 years now.
I began consuming porn at a young age of 12 years, and now at 21 years, I'm still deeply rooted in this destructive habit.
I've been out of touch with my mind, heart, and soul. I have tried on a few occasions to swim out of this ''ocean'', but every time I do, I lose the war against myself and sink back even deeper than I have ever been.
I know I'm still young, but looking back at the 9 years I've had myself deep in the mud, I have lost a lot to porn consumption and masturbation. There are times when I feel extremely useless, and as a guy, knowing I waste what defines me as a man, I look at the world and feel alone, having thoughts about ending life at times.
A feeling of withdrawing myself from everyone who cares about my well-being, and just being alone, because I have failed myself, God and no one would be proud of what I have become.
But I believe there is a way back, there's a path back to restore myself, to redeem myself. It won't be easy walking down the road of recovery all by myself. There will be temptations to quit, and urges to draw me back to the dark side, but I believe I will pull through, keeping my faith in Jesus above, and having people to share with every day.
I hope this won't a failure because this feels like my final roll of the dice to redemption if I fail now, what will be the point of moving forward with hopes of having a good future as a high-value man?
If anyone sees this, this is a cry for help, we can walk together through these dark times, help a brother out, help a broken soul out.