16 years of porn addiction and difficult penis injury

[Winnerwhoabstains]

Keep trying.

just a thought - you are able to orgasm when you watch porn? So not feeling anything with a real girl is likely do to the p.

by the way how did the injury happen? Like what went wrong?

Post more consistently, it should help

 

[PeterPoland]

Keep trying.

just a thought - you are able to orgasm when you watch porn? So not feeling anything with a real girl is likely do to the p.

by the way how did the injury happen? Like what went wrong?

Post more consistently, it should help

I used water penis pump bathmate few years ago and since then I got an injury. I felt a lot of pain and also appearance of penis has changed.
Glans looks different. I guess broken vessels were damaged or sth like that. I visited many doctors and spend a lot of cash in vain. They were not able to help or said some stupid things like I have this problem since I was born, lol.. One doctor actually suggested me not to think about it and pain will magically disappear... Yeah, right.. Anyways, by miracle I found a good doctor who thanks to ESWT shockwave therapy helped me with my pain! Finally! Because i felt like 1000 needles every single day. Of course it wasn't cheap..

Currently I'm thinking about doing some another ESWT or platelet-rich plasma. Any of you can say sth about platelet-rich plasma? Doctor said it could help me with sensation and make my penis feels like, a new one... regeneration. What do you guys think about platelet-rich plasma?

All in All, i don't know what is the main cause. Injury or porn. I've got injury since 2018 (then I used this pump..) before this I only had one sexual experience back in 2016 and I remember I lost erection and couldn't able to perform.
How to say this... I don't know if my lack of sensation are caused by destroyed nerves due to penis pump or a lot of pornography.
Maybe both... Who knows...

As for today - everything was okay. I did 12 km on foot with my friend and we had a lot of laugh despite cold temperature.

Also another question about penis appearance.. I don't know if I can share pictures
How do you think can laser treatment fix this or do you have any other ideas in order to bring back the old normal appearance?
Can laser actually treat this or opposite - can make it even worse and damage nerves totally and so on and so forth.. ?
Foreskin also look swollen, different than before... (before 2018) when I got a stupid idea and used penis pump Bathmate.

 

[Winnerwhoabstains]

DEFINETLY do not share pictures of your penis lol. Even though most guys are straight it could be triggering, maybe remind people of porn.

Hmmm - well, luckily I am pretty confident the sensation problem is due to the porn, since you had it before and you are still able to "get it up" to porn. ALSO - since 1,000s of us on the forum, myself included have the same sensation issue and we did not get penis injuries.

Still a bummer about the pain and appearance, but imo being able to actually function/ have sex is more important. Good the shock thing helped.

Hey, I don't know anything about it but I'd try the platelet thing why not.

Are bathmate injuries common? Did you do something wrong? Were you using it a long time? I have heard of bathmate before but never an injury like this so I am curious about it. I did a small amount of PE in the past, but very gently so I am curious about how the injury occured/ what went wrong specifically if you don't mind.

Keep abstaining from porn and putting in the work!

 

[PeterPoland]

DEFINETLY do not share pictures of your penis lol. Even though most guys are straight it could be triggering, maybe remind people of porn.

Hmmm - well, luckily I am pretty confident the sensation problem is due to the porn, since you had it before and you are still able to "get it up" to porn. ALSO - since 1,000s of us on the forum, myself included have the same sensation issue and we did not get penis injuries.

Still a bummer about the pain and appearance, but imo being able to actually function/ have sex is more important. Good the shock thing helped.

Hey, I don't know anything about it but I'd try the platelet thing why not.

Are bathmate injuries common? Did you do something wrong? Were you using it a long time? I have heard of bathmate before but never an injury like this so I am curious about it. I did a small amount of PE in the past, but very gently so I am curious about how the injury occured/ what went wrong specifically if you don't mind.

Keep abstaining from porn and putting in the work!

I used bathmate few Times and it was ok. But once I used it for too long or with too much pressure and I felt pain and after it penis glans changed appearance, something got damaged.... Yes I am happy I feel less pain, because literally I felt this pain every single day itching, tingling and it was unbearable. Shockwaves helped me.
I uploaded pictures here But someone deleted it haha sorry I did not know the rules here. So I will describe: red bruises, cracking, swollen foreskin, looks like damaged small vessels under skin. All in all it doesnt look like normal glans, at all..
I regret a lot buying Bathmate. I watched too much porn.. that is why I bought.. I felt not big enough. Being honest - I steel feel not big enough and whenever I am getting intimate With girls I have this in my head that girl may laugh..
Tell me about PE . Did you make any progress? I did it for some time, but nothing has changed and I gave it up.


Today day 2 ! I did not watch porn. I did 5 km on foot in the rain - it is like meditation for me. Spend some time Netflix and playing game (but not too long). In general I like to listen English via movies or Computer games. I studied English, but I want to be even better at this so I am constantly watching without subtitles etc trying to improve.

Last question: What to tell girl if you cant finish due to delayed ejaculation ? Last time it happened and I was in shock. I am afraid now not of not having an erection, but having no orgasm. This is my worry

 

[Law]

Hey man, just stumbled upon your journal. Touching story, I'm sorry that you had to experience the damage of the penis pump, that sucks.
It's also a shame because I feel like guys actually care more about their own dick size than girls. I'm not an expert with my very limited experience, but I feel like girls look for so many other stuffs first.

It's good to have projects and objectives man. Getting an even better English can only benefit you in this world

I share some similarities with you, as the last time I was intimate with a girl, I did not feel a thing either. I was getting more pleasure taking care of her, than when she tried to take care of me. And I had no accident on my dick in my life. So I really blame the porn for this, and also for your similar situation. We need to plug the brain back into the real thing, and stop sending it unrealistically huge spikes of pleasure molecules through porn.

Hang in there brother, see you next time!

 

[Winnerwhoabstains]

I used bathmate few Times and it was ok. But once I used it for too long or with too much pressure and I felt pain and after it penis glans changed appearance, something got damaged.... Yes I am happy I feel less pain, because literally I felt this pain every single day itching, tingling and it was unbearable. Shockwaves helped me.
I uploaded pictures here But someone deleted it haha sorry I did not know the rules here. So I will describe: red bruises, cracking, swollen foreskin, looks like damaged small vessels under skin. All in all it doesnt look like normal glans, at all..
I regret a lot buying Bathmate. I watched too much porn.. that is why I bought.. I felt not big enough. Being honest - I steel feel not big enough and whenever I am getting intimate With girls I have this in my head that girl may laugh..
Tell me about PE . Did you make any progress? I did it for some time, but nothing has changed and I gave it up.


Today day 2 ! I did not watch porn. I did 5 km on foot in the rain - it is like meditation for me. Spend some time Netflix and playing game (but not too long). In general I like to listen English via movies or Computer games. I studied English, but I want to be even better at this so I am constantly watching without subtitles etc trying to improve.

Last question: What to tell girl if you cant finish due to delayed ejaculation ? Last time it happened and I was in shock. I am afraid now not of not having an erection, but having no orgasm. This is my worry

Yeah a bit, but mostly probably it was EQ ( like maximizing myself naturally) then an actual change.

What does definetly work is pc exercises, that is great for rebooting, helps with erections and regaining functiion as well ,Iand 0 injury risk. I do those now

 

[PeterPoland]

Day 3 - no porn, did some exercises abs, legs, bicep. Played adventure game on a xbox, read a nice book Africa Solo. Man Who cycled all the way from Cairo to Africa - amazing . Inspired by someone above I did Little PE in order to improve EQ . 50 jelqs.. But does it really work? Anyways I noticed I can have erection on my own, but not as strong as while watching porn ofc.. and my penis is not as big as while watching porn.

One question.. this is important. I bought a device where you insert small equipment on a glans and it vibrates. My question is: does it bring sensation to penis or its opposite ? Might make it worse or may create ejaculation with a woman more impossible than ever ??
I will not share links just Type in google: Penis glans vibrator and check for images.. much appreciated for help

Best regards!

 

[Winnerwhoabstains]

Day 3 - no porn, did some exercises abs, legs, bicep. Played adventure game on a xbox, read a nice book Africa Solo. Man Who cycled all the way from Cairo to Africa - amazing . Inspired by someone above I did Little PE in order to improve EQ . 50 jelqs.. But does it really work? Anyways I noticed I can have erection on my own, but not as strong as while watching porn ofc.. and my penis is not as big as while watching porn.

One question.. this is important. I bought a device where you insert small equipment on a glans and it vibrates. My question is: does it bring sensation to penis or its opposite ? Might make it worse or may create ejaculation with a woman more impossible than ever ??
I will not share links just Type in google: Penis glans vibrator and check for images.. much appreciated for help

Best regards!

Yes worse! Are you crazy man! You are trying to get over porn addiction, getting freaking a male vibrater is escalating it and of course would desensitize and is NOT rebooting, that is a form of masturbating for sure.

Man what are you thinking - no more weird toys and gadgets, the gedget caused you problems in the first place. Throw that thing out immediately. Do a proper reboot and let doctors handle the injury.

 

[PeterPoland]

Yes worse! Are you crazy man! You are trying to get over porn addiction, getting freaking a male vibrater is escalating it and of course would desensitize and is NOT rebooting, that is a form of masturbating for sure.

Man what are you thinking - no more weird toys and gadgets, the gedget caused you problems in the first place. Throw that thing out immediately. Do a proper reboot and let doctors handle the injury.

Yes. I already removed it. Thanks.
We broke up with my girlfriend so I need to be aware and not allow sad emotions direct me towards watching porn or drink alcohol. It is stupid Quick fix. I am about to visit swimming pool and sauna later.
I am saying this before the end of the day. Day 4 without porn!

 

[Simon2]

Regarding sensitivity: I really think your penis needs a break. Sensitivity WILL come back after a while. What will it feel like if you don't stimulate it for 2 weeks? 2 months? 6 months? Only one way to find out... I was amazed...

So, stop PMO. Just do it. Eliminate it as an option for a set time period. Don't think about it. Pretend you are far away from the internet. It is possible - I did it and it really works. I just decided not to let any action leading toward porn take place. No image searches at all, no borderline material, no touching myself to any pictures or videos. Period. After 30 years of addiction I've finally managed to break the cycle.

I think there is a good chance your penis will start to feel normal if you give it a break for a while. Only one way to find out for sure! ... But ... It's worth it!

 

[Winnerwhoabstains]

Yes. I already removed it. Thanks.
We broke up with my girlfriend so I need to be aware and not allow sad emotions direct me towards watching porn or drink alcohol. It is stupid Quick fix. I am about to visit swimming pool and sauna later.
I am saying this before the end of the day. Day 4 without porn!

Great job! YES this is perfect, this is what to do on the reboot, swimming and suana. Very healthy, good for the body and blood flow.

That will help to heal your brain, relax you and if anything will help your injury it is healthy things like that - sauna and swimming are both amazing - keep it up!

 

[PeterPoland]

Great job! YES this is perfect, this is what to do on the reboot, swimming and suana. Very healthy, good for the body and blood flow.

That will help to heal your brain, relax you and if anything will help your injury it is healthy things like that - sauna and swimming are both amazing - keep it i did

Great job! YES this is perfect, this is what to do on the reboot, swimming and suana. Very healthy, good for the body and blood flow.

That will help to heal your brain, relax you and if anything will help your injury it is healthy things like that - sauna and swimming are both amazing - keep it up!

Day 5 without porn. Yesterday drank some alcohol But I was upset about braking up with my girlfriend. I hope it doesnt make my reboot worse. I did not drink for 20 days at all.
Did some cardio today 10km on foot Forest etc. Walking.

 

[Winnerwhoabstains]

Day 5 without porn. Yesterday drank some alcohol But I was upset about braking up with my girlfriend. I hope it doesnt make my reboot worse. I did not drink for 20 days at all.
Did some cardio today 10km on foot Forest etc. Walking.

Great!!!! I mean alcohol is not the healthiest thing I imagine but if PMO is your addiction and alcohol is not it is a lot better than pmo. Just beware, some people when they drink too much it lowers their defenses against PMO

 

[Law]

5 days streak is good man, keep it up!
Maybe try to plan something fun and exciting for the weekend? To have something to look forward to, and not just let your mind "wander aimlessly in the present". I know that can be a trigger, at least for me.

 

[PeterPoland]

5 days streak is good man, keep it up!
Maybe try to plan something fun and exciting for the weekend? To have something to look forward to, and not just let your mind "wander aimlessly in the present". I know that can be a trigger, at least for me.

Yes, you are right. Yesterday I played snooker with friend, but overall is hard. I cant eat, feel stomachache, nausea, great sadness due to this break up..
Today day 6 without porn - avoiding alcohol, too because like somebody else said it can trigger you and destroy your free will. I am about to visit swimming pool again or exercise, read book, some healthy forms of time spending

 

[PeterPoland]

6 days and 2 hours since I PMOed. Just went out from swimming pool. Later I am about to go to the church and confession, because like I mentioned above I hurted a girl and this guilt is going to destroy me..
I need some spiritual additional power. We didnt belong to each other, but it was me Who acted wrong towards her.. I am too sensitive overall cant eat etc. Have you ever had situation where 50% of partner was upseting you and the rest was something you love and Miss? This is my case..
From time to time I scroll Instagram ladies, but not obsessively. Better to look from time to time on clothed girl than watching porn. If I had to quit instagram porn all triggers that would be too much. So step by step: I am avoding porn as a first. I am feeling quite good with this streak, but like I said earlier I tried many Times and couldnt make more than 2 weeks. We'll see.. I believe in myself and I am very thankful some of you believe in me, too

 

[PeterPoland]

8 days 6 hours without porn despite the fact I saw something for 10 seconds 2 minutes ago and quicky switched it off (pictures). Lately feel bad emotional problems due to breaking up with girlfriend or maybe flatline has just started. All in all, I am keep fighting !!

 

[PeterPoland]

9 days 6 hours without porn. Feeling better today . I had some porn Dreams.. One I watched before.. is my mind missing porn?

 

[Simon2]

Yes, your mind is missing porn! Or more accurately the dopamine rush it gives you.
Over time it will get used to getting its high from something else and needing a lot less stimulation to feel good

More Power to you Peter!

 

[PeterPoland]

Yes, your mind is missing porn! Or more accurately the dopamine rush it gives you.
Over time it will get used to getting its high from something else and needing a lot less stimulation to feel good

More Power to you Peter!

Is it wrong if I do some JELQ's (not too much 30) and little massage of the penis or should I don't touch at all... ?
For example with lube, from bottom of the penis to the top with two fingers... There is a website where one older man 50years old Matt Cock promises to help with Erections.
What if saying "unused disappears" ?