PeterPoland
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Hello.
My name is Peter and I come from Poland. I'm 29 years old and i used to watch porn since 2007, so it's been 16 years!!!
Sorry for my English, but i hope you will understand everything. This will be pretty long post, but bear with me
I said used to, because since one day lol i don't do it and i will tell you shortly soon why.
I tried many times to quit, but sooner or later i came back to this habit.
I believe in God, but it's not about religion, it's about what it does to your brain. I have to admit I was sceptic at first that porn can make you some problems
with sexual intercourse, but it's true. As i grew up instead of spending time with my peers, finding a girlfriend I much rather spend time in front of computer screen and wanking to porn or worse edging... I have been bullied in my school, in the past - in general I had many bad problems with my peers in general during adolescence.
Mentally I felt very bad, I watched a lot of porn and started to feel "NOT ENOUGH". I found some forums claiming penis enlargement is possible: jelq, stretching and so on and so forth... I bought Bathmate penis pump and couple times was ok, but once i did something really wrong and felt huge pain.
Since then (March 2018) so nearly 5 years I feel pain - tingling, itching every day (urologists are not able to help me) and what is also worse my penis glans looks bad because some vessels were damaged. Glans doesn't look normal it's full of cracking and red spots. 3/4 of glans looks not normal and i think it's also desentisied because when I had a blowjob lately I didn't feel a thing... I even felt pain...
Ok to sum up.. I have two problems.
1) Pornography addiction since 2007 (I even remember first porn video I've seen) I spent a lot of time. I can literally write 200 pornstars right now.... It's not normal.
What is worse, my favorite genre turned out to be POV videos. It's like i'm seeing a girl and have sex with her. I got addicted especially to these kind of videos.
Nothing turn me so much as POV video when girl is doing a blowjob or she is on the top (cowgirl) etc... I think POV's videos are the most addicted. Am I right?!
2) Since few years I watched a lot of videos with Noah Church, Gabe Deem or Gary Wilson who sadly passed away, but even if i want to quit (I tried many times) and could do 2 weeks maximum!!!!, the rest, very powerful 50% still don't want me to allow it.... but YESTERDAY i decided to finally change it no matter what. I tried to quit alcohol and it's easy, but porn i just cant... impossible...
There is a saying IMPOSSIBLE.. Look at the spelling "I'M POSSIBLE". So i'm trying this right now, definitely!!! Once and for all!!!
Lately I met a girl, we liked each other and had sex and I was really surprised. I couldn't get an erection or when I finally did it quickly dissapeared.
What also bothered me wasn't erection, but a completely lack of pleasure!! I didn't feel a thing. I couldn't ejaculate at all!! We had sex for 50 minutes with fast pace, she was tired and satisfied, but I couldn't ejaculate and like I said: couldn't feel a thing! What is worse: during a blowjob instead of pleasure i felt a pain..
As for sex in the past. I have some experience and i remember few years back without this penis pump injury i still have erections problems (2016) but when I came back to house everything was ok. Unfortunately, I don't remember if i feel more, because it was many years back.
It seems to me that not only porn but this injury screwed me up, because when I want to masturbate in a gentle way, up/down (without porn) = i don't feel a thing... somehow is f#@! with foreskin or glans. I wanted to add here some pictures, but i won't do it.. maybe if someone is interested to help or know a solution = please write me a private message, I will share more specific details and of course will be veryt hankful because this injury bothers me for 5 years every single day...
IMPORTANT SENTENCE: I don't know what more screwed me up... This porn habit for 16 years and desentization or an injury with water pump Bathmate...
Maybe combination of both... It can't be like this. My life right now is real shit. I know this forum it's not about religion, but i believe in God.
I have a terrible crash (car upside down and destroyed in 90%) 100 kph per hour in February and somehow I made it without a scratch!! I destroyed a fence, 6 thuja trees and nothing happened to me.. I didn't even see a doctor. The best luck of my life or some power from above didn't allow me to die there... just not yet!
That was the most horrific time in my life and I whenever I feel bad, I always can came back to this moment and said then was much more worse!
I also got addicted to Instagram, to all of these models. It's very hard not to look at the girls if a man is made to look at them... but really i try my best to avoid.
Last sentence (forgive me for writing so much): I'm not a weird guy, who sits 100 hours in a front of computer and is isolated, doesn't like other people etc.
I'm very talkative and I enjoy traveling, sport a lot!! Sport is my whole live, I did 400 km by bicycle in one day. Swimming etc... gym.. I can do soccer tricks (fast movements with football) = keeping on the head, sole juggling, many fast tricks with legs etc) Sport was always present with my life, but unfortunately I got hooked by porn and i can't escape..
Please give me some advices how to definetely quit with this and my final question is... How do you think? What is the main cause not to feel nothing during sex: this penis injury I have due to penis pump or 16 years of porn addiction? What is more powerful? Are two things in one time possible?
All the best for all of you. Best regards from Poland. Thank you!
Peter.
I lost fight, but I haven't lost a war!
Today it's a first day. (I always said this and after one week come back to the square one) but now after this weird sex with my girlfriend I'm terrified AF of this and I want to quit it for good
Gabe quoted Gary words: "Nowadays people are training different sport" and it's exactly what it is..
ALL THE BEST to you. Thank you for reading it. BELIEVE IN YOURSELVES. "Eyes on the horizon, on the future, you'll be there soon enough" - my role model once said these words = Greg Plitt. I don't know if you are familiar with him. He passed away in a tragic way couple years ago, but he was excellent with sport, motivated a lot of people. I translated 400 videos of his to my own language Polish by adding subtitles. I recommend to watch his video - Greg Plitt Be Rememebered or Greg Plit Legacy Tribute 2022 - very powerful and motivational videos. I'm sure you will get a boost of motivation if you will find out who Greg Plitt was
Thank you!
My name is Peter and I come from Poland. I'm 29 years old and i used to watch porn since 2007, so it's been 16 years!!!
Sorry for my English, but i hope you will understand everything. This will be pretty long post, but bear with me
I said used to, because since one day lol i don't do it and i will tell you shortly soon why.
I tried many times to quit, but sooner or later i came back to this habit.
I believe in God, but it's not about religion, it's about what it does to your brain. I have to admit I was sceptic at first that porn can make you some problems
with sexual intercourse, but it's true. As i grew up instead of spending time with my peers, finding a girlfriend I much rather spend time in front of computer screen and wanking to porn or worse edging... I have been bullied in my school, in the past - in general I had many bad problems with my peers in general during adolescence.
Mentally I felt very bad, I watched a lot of porn and started to feel "NOT ENOUGH". I found some forums claiming penis enlargement is possible: jelq, stretching and so on and so forth... I bought Bathmate penis pump and couple times was ok, but once i did something really wrong and felt huge pain.
Since then (March 2018) so nearly 5 years I feel pain - tingling, itching every day (urologists are not able to help me) and what is also worse my penis glans looks bad because some vessels were damaged. Glans doesn't look normal it's full of cracking and red spots. 3/4 of glans looks not normal and i think it's also desentisied because when I had a blowjob lately I didn't feel a thing... I even felt pain...
Ok to sum up.. I have two problems.
1) Pornography addiction since 2007 (I even remember first porn video I've seen) I spent a lot of time. I can literally write 200 pornstars right now.... It's not normal.
What is worse, my favorite genre turned out to be POV videos. It's like i'm seeing a girl and have sex with her. I got addicted especially to these kind of videos.
Nothing turn me so much as POV video when girl is doing a blowjob or she is on the top (cowgirl) etc... I think POV's videos are the most addicted. Am I right?!
2) Since few years I watched a lot of videos with Noah Church, Gabe Deem or Gary Wilson who sadly passed away, but even if i want to quit (I tried many times) and could do 2 weeks maximum!!!!, the rest, very powerful 50% still don't want me to allow it.... but YESTERDAY i decided to finally change it no matter what. I tried to quit alcohol and it's easy, but porn i just cant... impossible...
There is a saying IMPOSSIBLE.. Look at the spelling "I'M POSSIBLE". So i'm trying this right now, definitely!!! Once and for all!!!
Lately I met a girl, we liked each other and had sex and I was really surprised. I couldn't get an erection or when I finally did it quickly dissapeared.
What also bothered me wasn't erection, but a completely lack of pleasure!! I didn't feel a thing. I couldn't ejaculate at all!! We had sex for 50 minutes with fast pace, she was tired and satisfied, but I couldn't ejaculate and like I said: couldn't feel a thing! What is worse: during a blowjob instead of pleasure i felt a pain..
As for sex in the past. I have some experience and i remember few years back without this penis pump injury i still have erections problems (2016) but when I came back to house everything was ok. Unfortunately, I don't remember if i feel more, because it was many years back.
It seems to me that not only porn but this injury screwed me up, because when I want to masturbate in a gentle way, up/down (without porn) = i don't feel a thing... somehow is f#@! with foreskin or glans. I wanted to add here some pictures, but i won't do it.. maybe if someone is interested to help or know a solution = please write me a private message, I will share more specific details and of course will be veryt hankful because this injury bothers me for 5 years every single day...
IMPORTANT SENTENCE: I don't know what more screwed me up... This porn habit for 16 years and desentization or an injury with water pump Bathmate...
Maybe combination of both... It can't be like this. My life right now is real shit. I know this forum it's not about religion, but i believe in God.
I have a terrible crash (car upside down and destroyed in 90%) 100 kph per hour in February and somehow I made it without a scratch!! I destroyed a fence, 6 thuja trees and nothing happened to me.. I didn't even see a doctor. The best luck of my life or some power from above didn't allow me to die there... just not yet!
That was the most horrific time in my life and I whenever I feel bad, I always can came back to this moment and said then was much more worse!
I also got addicted to Instagram, to all of these models. It's very hard not to look at the girls if a man is made to look at them... but really i try my best to avoid.
Last sentence (forgive me for writing so much): I'm not a weird guy, who sits 100 hours in a front of computer and is isolated, doesn't like other people etc.
I'm very talkative and I enjoy traveling, sport a lot!! Sport is my whole live, I did 400 km by bicycle in one day. Swimming etc... gym.. I can do soccer tricks (fast movements with football) = keeping on the head, sole juggling, many fast tricks with legs etc) Sport was always present with my life, but unfortunately I got hooked by porn and i can't escape..
Please give me some advices how to definetely quit with this and my final question is... How do you think? What is the main cause not to feel nothing during sex: this penis injury I have due to penis pump or 16 years of porn addiction? What is more powerful? Are two things in one time possible?
All the best for all of you. Best regards from Poland. Thank you!
Peter.
I lost fight, but I haven't lost a war!
Today it's a first day. (I always said this and after one week come back to the square one) but now after this weird sex with my girlfriend I'm terrified AF of this and I want to quit it for good
Gabe quoted Gary words: "Nowadays people are training different sport" and it's exactly what it is..
ALL THE BEST to you. Thank you for reading it. BELIEVE IN YOURSELVES. "Eyes on the horizon, on the future, you'll be there soon enough" - my role model once said these words = Greg Plitt. I don't know if you are familiar with him. He passed away in a tragic way couple years ago, but he was excellent with sport, motivated a lot of people. I translated 400 videos of his to my own language Polish by adding subtitles. I recommend to watch his video - Greg Plitt Be Rememebered or Greg Plit Legacy Tribute 2022 - very powerful and motivational videos. I'm sure you will get a boost of motivation if you will find out who Greg Plitt was
Thank you!
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