One day is a time.
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MOd last evening, on my porch, no P, just a relaxed, feeling total pleasure myself, a very different MO. My longest streak in months. Day 0, or Day 1, guarded against chaser.
Alexey
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8 days dry.
After two days of bad sleep and passiveness in the daytime, comparatively good sleep today at last.
Limit screen time in the morning and at midday. Went for a walk.
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For me every O is fraught with continuation, fantasizing and tending to P. Last relapse was exactly like that. So I know I should raise awareness for about three days after a wet dream.
But other guys report that MO without fantasy is fine, and even helps to release tension.
One day is a Time
After two days of bad sleep and passiveness in the daytime, comparatively good sleep today at last.
Limit screen time in the morning and at midday. Went for a walk.
@NYC
For me every O is fraught with continuation, fantasizing and tending to P. Last relapse was exactly like that. So I know I should raise awareness for about three days after a wet dream.
But other guys report that MO without fantasy is fine, and even helps to release tension.
One day is a Time
Alexey
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10 clean days
Had a deep sleep for the last two days. Possibly that’s also because of vitamins.
Had a good run today. The results are not as good as they were a couple of months ago, but again are eventually getting better.
The next aim is 20 clean days.
To stay clean I need not only eradicate P, but also not fantasize for long. I. e. interrupt fantasizing after a while.
And, as always, limit screen time, be with other people around.
One day is a Time
Had a deep sleep for the last two days. Possibly that’s also because of vitamins.
Had a good run today. The results are not as good as they were a couple of months ago, but again are eventually getting better.
The next aim is 20 clean days.
To stay clean I need not only eradicate P, but also not fantasize for long. I. e. interrupt fantasizing after a while.
And, as always, limit screen time, be with other people around.
One day is a Time
Alexey
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14 dry days.
Not bad. However, I should be especially aware because I’m near the edge where pollution habitually takes me. And I even had a very sexualized dream recently, but strangely without consequence.
Good sleep is essential. Possibly under-sleep is admitted even. So it will not take me long to fall asleep and I will not habitually fantasize.
And the same things as worked in the past: limit screen time, go for a walk, be with other people around.
And finally remember as always: One day is a Time
Not bad. However, I should be especially aware because I’m near the edge where pollution habitually takes me. And I even had a very sexualized dream recently, but strangely without consequence.
Good sleep is essential. Possibly under-sleep is admitted even. So it will not take me long to fall asleep and I will not habitually fantasize.
And the same things as worked in the past: limit screen time, go for a walk, be with other people around.
And finally remember as always: One day is a Time
Alexey
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15 dry days
Feel a little bit dull. Don’t know where to take myself from one side, from another I don't want to stretch myself also.
Likely that’s because I became accustomed to cheap dopamine. So that is the uneasy rewire (unwire) process.
Went for a walk today, studied some IT material. Plan to devote some effort to my current job also (it’s remote now).
One day is a Time
Feel a little bit dull. Don’t know where to take myself from one side, from another I don't want to stretch myself also.
Likely that’s because I became accustomed to cheap dopamine. So that is the uneasy rewire (unwire) process.
Went for a walk today, studied some IT material. Plan to devote some effort to my current job also (it’s remote now).
One day is a Time
Alexey
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20 days no PMO. I’ve made it!
No P, no wet dreams still. That's a pretty long stretch for me.
The next aim is 25 days without P and, essentially, emissions.
Sleep is better.
On the job, I find myself more decisive, less timid, more resistant in some ways, and a number of folks tend to agree with me in those moments. More ‘impeccable with my word’?
Mild urges still present.
No P, no wet dreams still. That's a pretty long stretch for me.
The next aim is 25 days without P and, essentially, emissions.
Sleep is better.
On the job, I find myself more decisive, less timid, more resistant in some ways, and a number of folks tend to agree with me in those moments. More ‘impeccable with my word’?
Mild urges still present.
NYC
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You got it! Next day is around the corner, then the next corner, you are turning them every minute! You are finding your true self, proud. Keep it up!
Alexey
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25 days no PMO
Conquered another bar. Next one is 30 days.
Had stress on the job during the last days, yet it seems I’m more resistible now. Also not so strict about screen limitations (but I should possibly).
Better sleep possibly plays a role, since I’m habitually fantasizing while trying to fall asleep. And, in turn, vitamins help sleep.
One day is a Time
Conquered another bar. Next one is 30 days.
Had stress on the job during the last days, yet it seems I’m more resistible now. Also not so strict about screen limitations (but I should possibly).
Better sleep possibly plays a role, since I’m habitually fantasizing while trying to fall asleep. And, in turn, vitamins help sleep.
One day is a Time
Alexey
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On the second clean day after 2 PMOs. Now experiencing bad sequences: bad sleep (about 2-3 hours this night), weak focus, irritability, moody face in the mirror.
Why did I relapse ? Became not strict on my own rules: less screen limitations, less journaling. Thought that now I am resistible enough and so could view a little bit without harm. Thought that I deprive myself of the big pleasure with vague reason.
My goal now is to pull 3 days without O – i.e. today and tomorrow.
One day is a Time
Why did I relapse ? Became not strict on my own rules: less screen limitations, less journaling. Thought that now I am resistible enough and so could view a little bit without harm. Thought that I deprive myself of the big pleasure with vague reason.
My goal now is to pull 3 days without O – i.e. today and tomorrow.
One day is a Time
You are not alone, Alexey. I also fell into PMO many times, and every time it was not easy and not given to be able to heal from it and get again some sexual performances. Just consider this: you are not alone.Again, PMO
Alexey
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Once again I’m on my first clean day. Slipping off a track, it’s not so easy to get back.
@marco_60 Thank you and yes, it’s important. In my ordinary life, it is unlikely that I can tell someone about the problem. And even when I was, it's unlikely someone could appreciate it as a problem.
Had a good parkrun today. 3PMOs didn’t affect my performance substantially this time (unlike before).
I've had bad sleep these last few days.
Trying to get something from an undesirable thing, I can say that I assured myself one more time, that I’m really in control of my life. It is me, not some circumstances that can make it better or worse.
One day is a Time
@marco_60 Thank you and yes, it’s important. In my ordinary life, it is unlikely that I can tell someone about the problem. And even when I was, it's unlikely someone could appreciate it as a problem.
Had a good parkrun today. 3PMOs didn’t affect my performance substantially this time (unlike before).
I've had bad sleep these last few days.
Trying to get something from an undesirable thing, I can say that I assured myself one more time, that I’m really in control of my life. It is me, not some circumstances that can make it better or worse.
One day is a Time
Alexey
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Second day no PMO.
Bad sleep still.
Arrange long stretches without digital devices. Besides planned gaps, if I have the option not to use the phone for some time – I don’t use it. Seems after that, I feel more balanced, however, the dullness is also present. But that is the brain issue, and it is a predictable and unavoidable price to pay after relapse, part of the price, to be more concrete.
My goal now is 3 days without PMO
Bad sleep still.
Arrange long stretches without digital devices. Besides planned gaps, if I have the option not to use the phone for some time – I don’t use it. Seems after that, I feel more balanced, however, the dullness is also present. But that is the brain issue, and it is a predictable and unavoidable price to pay after relapse, part of the price, to be more concrete.
My goal now is 3 days without PMO