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Ezel

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18 days of NoFap and no orgasm

Had erotic night dream last night. I skived off work a little and felt tired from time to time. I think that’s reasonable because I systematically damaged my brain with the addiction. While it is possible to return to the normal brain mode rather quickly but not so quick after that. Also it is important not to over-stress myself. From my previous experience it is possible to slip even with a barely discernible stress.
On the other hand – adding goals to my life is essential for a long run. So I resumed job interview preparation and try to study every day. Have scheduled a mock interview for this Sunday.

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Ma maan 💪😎👌👍
 

GBS

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18 days is massive. Well done. Know yourself. I think you do. Your brain is very clever and will try every trick in the book. Beware. You’ve got this. Hard mode is, as it says on the tin, hard. Go @Alexey
 

Alexey

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@GBS thanks

23 days now

Have urges from time to time.

Mock interview was not so good, although the hired interviewer evaluated it as 'rather successful'. I write here about it because I believe having goals helps especially on a long distance.
 

Alexey

Member
There was night pollution today.


Before that I had a bad sleep. That led to the sexual fantasy as a result of a long-established habit. During weekend I spent a lot of uninterrupted time behind the screen, sometimes played a video game, sometimes watched sexual content (not straight porn however) -- which means that I broke a number of my own rules. I wrote before that weekend is a vulnerable place. But this void is not so easy to endure, as all of you certainly know.


As far as I know, after orgasm I have to be especially careful, since I will be more vulnerable to the addiction in near time (about 3 days according to my experience). So I have to set a sleeping schedule, limit screen time and schedule in advance being with other people around.


However, since I didn't fap and didn't watch porn I still consider that I'm on NoFap. 29 days now.


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GBS

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You’re doing so well. You understand yourself which is half the battle. Keep doing the right thing.
 

Alexey

Member
The next goal is to stay clear until December 22.
So I took another line. 33 days no PM, 3 days no orgasm.

As planned I had a phone call today with a woman I like. She wasn't really rude to me or was somehow against me. But I still feel some kind of lack of intimacy and little disappointment.

OK, that's life and our goal here is to be able to deal with it by and large.

The next goal is to stay clean till the New Year.

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Ezel

Respected Member
So I took another line. 33 days no PM, 3 days no orgasm.

As planned I had a phone call today with a woman I like. She wasn't really rude to me or was somehow against me. But I still feel some kind of lack of intimacy and little disappointment.

OK, that's life and our goal here is to be able to deal with it by and large.

The next goal is to stay clean till the New Year.

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Hey Alex, you're doing pretty good partner, I'm not a psychic, but i can tell that you can stay clean till the new year and beyond.
You got this brother, keep pushing.
 

Alexey

Member
@Ezel Thank you, partner, glad you are doing well

Had a wet dream this night. I suppose the cause was bad sleep and being in bed without sleep for a long time leads to fantasizing. I tend to agree that the seed leak (especially frequent) is also not good by itself. It is a loss of vitamins and makes one passive and less motivated. Besides that it makes one more vulnerable to the addiction.

I should work on my sleeping schedule. I've actually said and written that before but didn't make consistent effort in that direction recently. Also I should be especially careful in the near days.

0 days without orgasm, 35 days NoFap.

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Alexey

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48 days NoFap, 11 days no leak.

I've gone through the New Year which was my other target. The next target is to go to the end of January without Fap and, desirably, without orgasm.

Still have bad sleep and accompanying fantasies, which is fraught with orgasm at least and still don't make consistent effort to establish the appropriate schedule.

Great, I'm still on a streak, but gotta get together.

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Alexey

Member
Had a wet dream yesterday. So I went without one for a month, which is acceptable, I suppose.

Now I should be especially aware and attentive for today and tomorrow at least.

Ideally, there should be no leaks at all. Yet to do so I should raise my standards, give some extra effort to self-improvement, change lifestyle and, possibly, the quality of social connections.

Another news is that I went through a whole series of interviews with a big IT company. In spite of thorough preparation, the experience was new and quite stressful since almost every unsuccessful interview could easily lead to overall failure. The final result, by the way, is still not known. But at least for now it doesn't depend on me anymore.

67 days NoFap

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Alexey

Member
Two of the three last interviews turned out to be unsuccessful, but one response is positive. And that means in the near future I will receive the offer.

I was preparing for several years for that result, but got it just during my longest streak.
Is it a mere coincidence?
 
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TakeActionNow

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Two of the three last interviews turned out to be unsuccessful, but one response is positive. And that means in the near future I will receive the offer.

I was preparing for several years for that result, but got it just during my longest streak.
Is it a mere coincidence?
@Alexey , nothing is mere coincidence. You put in the time, and now you're more focused, self assured and confident. People can see and feel that.
You are also behaving that.

Stay clean and true.
The universe rewards those who put in the effort.
You got this
 

Alexey

Member
73 days NoFap, 7 days no leak

My other goal was to reach February without Fap. So I completed it.

Had a number of stresses recently -- dealing both with job interviews and with the deteriorating situation at my current job (I've been there for 8 years and parting is not going to be easy). Then I delved into some unhealthy activities -- a little bit of alcohol and video gaming. Yet it seems at last I developed some kind of resistance to porn addiction even during stress.

Let the next goal be to reach 14 February without Fap and leak. Besides the day of lovers, that day is going to be the first day of my new job. It would be good to be clear in multiple senses at that day))

Nothing is mere coincidence
@TakeActionNow
 

Blondie

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Congrats @Alexey!

This is a big day indeed. There is nothing like learning for yourself that you CAN get through stressful situations without resorting to porn. I know it makes me smile whenever I think about it. :)
 

Alexey

Member
I've set a goal to be without any leaks until today, yet just last night I had a wet dream. So I was holding out for 19 days.

Not so bad after all. It seems I know the reason: while avoiding straight Fap I still have sexual thoughts and stare at women from time to time. Sexual thoughts often come to me at night and I still have a bad sleep which makes them more possible.
Factually, bad sleep is also not a 100% excuse, yet makes things harder.

86 days NoFap
My next goal is 90 days NoFap

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Androg

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Great streak. And yeah, lustful thoughts during the day seem to make wet dreams more likely. See if you notice any chaser over the next few days.
 
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