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Alexey

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wet dream this night

I felt stressed because of a new job which turned out quite challenging for me. As a result yesterday I fantasized and viewed the pictures of naked women ('semi relapsed').
The good news is that I stayed dry for 23 days this time and could possibly do more without this obviously stupid and unnecessary stepback.

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Androg

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Not a big deal. All new jobs are stressful. Don't let it throw you off your stride. 💪
 

Alexey

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I have to confess I'm still in the grip of the addiction. Though I didn't masturbate for a long time, I allowed myself to view porn pictures and recently I allowed videos.
I know that's not the way to go. I am again becoming less motivated, passive, and easily bored.
 

Alexey

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At first cut screen time as before. Regular walks/sleep, regular journalizing.
I suppose that may work for a moderately short distance.

Then I should think more about root cause, challenge my global motivation
 

Androg

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At first cut screen time as before. Regular walks/sleep, regular journalizing.
I suppose that may work for a moderately short distance.

Then I should think more about root cause, challenge my global motivation
Deep inner work is actually more productive if you get your brain back in balance with the exercise, and so forth first.

So you are not wasting time when you spend time getting more centered before you undertake deeper work.
 

Alexey

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24 hours no video, no pics.

Limited screen time in the morning, also added one hour gap in the midday. Feel a little bit dull, yet I knew I have to be prepared to it.
Being accustomed to being entertained frequently is the precursor to the addiction. It doesn't necessarily lead to it, yet undoubtedly makes it rather possible. So no computer gaming also.
 

Alexey

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One astronomical day without porn -- no videos and no pics. Refraining from games either (oh well, I played sudoku on my old cell phone waiting at a restaurant for about 5 mins).

However porn recovery is not only about abstinence, but it is also essentially about replacing or reconnecting. We should replace delusional connections with the real-world ones. For me personally, it seems, social reconnection is especially important. While relating to real people may not be so easy and may be stressful, globally we have no other choice and should learn to do it again. Just being with other people around without a smartphone, observing them seems helpful. And, of course, your feedback and support are important for me.


Considering my new job I barely made it through probation (it was a big luck actually) and still feel a bit unconfident which also likely adds up to the problem. Yet might eventually pass.

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Androg

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Congrats on making it through, however it happened. Stay strong and give it your best.
 

Androg

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Sorry to hear about the illness. Do you think it's withdrawal? Something else?
 

Alexey

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5 days no p videos, p pictures, no gaming

Controlling thoughts is still hard however, especially providing that I go to work on subway every day

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