the_mountain_goat
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Good luck with the new job Trisquel, may it bring you stability, a rhythm for your life, and some satisfaction! 
You are right, I hope so too! Thanks!Good luck with the new job Trisquel, may it bring you stability, a rhythm for your life, and some satisfaction!![]()
Thank you! I will need it!Echoing the well wishes -- good luck with your new job man! That can be both an exciting and a stressful time. Wishing you strength.![]()
Thanks! I hope you are right, I´m already very tired, hahaGood luck with the new jobI'm sure you won't die!!!
Good for you, man! Could be a good thing reducing phone usage. It is ridiculous if you think about it how we all came to thinking that we have to online all the time. Nice that you have that positive attitude going onDay 5/15
Hello there.
Just reporting, I'm trying to post more often to keep track of this fight and don't forget that I'm an addict in recovery.
Nothing interesting today sexually.
My work is actually fine and I will make it through the week.
Still a little bit sad, but I'm trying to taking it slowly, instead of falling in the same depressive and binging behaviour as always.
For now I'm just listening to music and I will go to the climbing gym to take my weekly class.
I'm considering to limit my phone usage. It doesn't feel healthy, I could read more instead, or pay attention to other things than my screen.
That's all for today,
Cheers, and best whishes
Thanks for your words! @iwanderGood for you, man! Could be a good thing reducing phone usage. It is ridiculous if you think about it how we all came to thinking that we have to online all the time. Nice that you have that positive attitude going on
You and me both bud -- you're not alone. I've been struggling with a lot of the same triggers this week.Just relapsed today.
I feel very disappointed with myself.
I think a lot of working, not taking rest, unhealthy eating and compulsive social media use (both of them P substitudes) lead to this relapse.
I just feel disappointed, I hope to do better next time.
Thank you! Is very encouraging to hear those words.You and me both bud -- you're not alone. I've been struggling with a lot of the same triggers this week.
Hope you can stay positive man, you've got a lot on your plate and you've been doing very admirably.
All of those are common triggers, so you're not the first to trip over them.What will you change going forward?
I am able to look at my phone for hours without joy or actuall interest, just craving novelty, and I can eat a lot without feeling good about it, not knowing very well why I do that.
This mostly happens when I´m feeling depressed, tired, or when I experience some negative feelings (triggers for these behaviours).
My brain then craves these dopamine rushes, and jumps to my phone, or to food. Is not the social media or the junk food what I really want, is the dopamine rush itself, because I think it will make me feel better. I can then enter into this mode of "fuck it, I´m gonna do it, even if I know it is gonna hurt me, it just feels good".
But in the end it doesn´t, and it is just painful.
Those dopamine-rush urges and those behaviours lead me to P, since P is just another way of getting those rushes.
All of this made me realize that I cannot let P go without also letting go these behaviours, since they are all part of the same thing!
Hey, good to know you feel better and staying positive on making progress. Maybe you'll make a break from social media (at least on the phone), if they affect you or trigger you and put you into depression mode. They always seem important and instant (kinda like PMO urges), but they usually not.This mostly happens when I´m feeling depressed, tired, or when I experience some negative feelings (triggers for these behaviours).
My brain then craves these dopamine rushes, and jumps to my phone, or to food. Is not the social media or the junk food what I really want, is the dopamine rush itself, because I think it will make me feel better