Day 4/15
Hi guys.
I´m doing fine. These days I´m sick, which means i have a good opportunitie to chill at my house, do some tasks I wanted to and resting from work.
Yesterday I was chilling on my phone and I was watching youtube the whole afternoon and evening.... that´s exactly what I want to change. I donñt feel proud of that, especially because I know I should change my habits with social media and I´ve been saying that for a long time.
I´m thinking a lot these days about how scary can be that I have been trying to quit porn for so many years, and how times just passes by while a lot of bad things I want to change in my life remain the same. I had this thought also from reading in forums stories of people stuggling for years to quit.
Very negative, I know. But it made me think that everything will remain the same unless I change something, that thing just won´t change by themselves, and that I need to be active in bringing a positive change to my life. Also that this change won´t be automatic, or easy, or confortable, and that I will experience pain while making it. But the reward will be great, I don´t want to stick in the same unhealthy habits forever, I don´t want to see how my life is drained by P or social media. I need to take myself more seriously and make the changes I wanna see in my life, because nothing else will do them for me.
For now I unnistalled instagram from my phone, and I will only watch youtube on my laptop.
I think the only social media I will keep is wathsapp and messenger, because they are usefull to use with my friends.
Also, I will try to engage more in other activities:
-Climbing (min twice a week!)
-reading (on my spare time, when I would go to youtube)
-social life/friends.
eating more healthy (simply stop buying junk food for now, I already eat quite healthy appart from that)
That´s it for now, I will keep things simple, I don´t want to overload myself. In the future I will try to start a new musical project, but I don´t think i have time for that now.
Also, these weeks I will focus on working and studying for my english proficency test. I have it in trhee weeks, and I will study 2hs a day, excep for sundays, that I will use to rest from studying. I think this will help me to have some structure in my life, which I´be been lacking.
And as I said before, If I see myself enganging in binging behaviours with food or social media, or If I feel I´m stressed and tired and feeling uneasy, I will stop what I´m doinf and breath for a min. I will also rest if I need to, and call my girlfirend/family/friends, if I need to.
And that´s my plan to have more positive things in my life! I think is simple enough, i will make an effort to commit with it.
Regarthing sexual thought and fantaises, sometimes I still have them, but I´m able to look at them as Addiction thoughts, and let them go. I´m not engagging with fantasies so much now that I think about it, which is super positive.
That´s it for now, I´m willing to go trhough the struggle and make those good changes happen!!
Cheers
Hi guys.
I´m doing fine. These days I´m sick, which means i have a good opportunitie to chill at my house, do some tasks I wanted to and resting from work.
Yesterday I was chilling on my phone and I was watching youtube the whole afternoon and evening.... that´s exactly what I want to change. I donñt feel proud of that, especially because I know I should change my habits with social media and I´ve been saying that for a long time.
I´m thinking a lot these days about how scary can be that I have been trying to quit porn for so many years, and how times just passes by while a lot of bad things I want to change in my life remain the same. I had this thought also from reading in forums stories of people stuggling for years to quit.
Very negative, I know. But it made me think that everything will remain the same unless I change something, that thing just won´t change by themselves, and that I need to be active in bringing a positive change to my life. Also that this change won´t be automatic, or easy, or confortable, and that I will experience pain while making it. But the reward will be great, I don´t want to stick in the same unhealthy habits forever, I don´t want to see how my life is drained by P or social media. I need to take myself more seriously and make the changes I wanna see in my life, because nothing else will do them for me.
For now I unnistalled instagram from my phone, and I will only watch youtube on my laptop.
I think the only social media I will keep is wathsapp and messenger, because they are usefull to use with my friends.
Also, I will try to engage more in other activities:
-Climbing (min twice a week!)
-reading (on my spare time, when I would go to youtube)
-social life/friends.
eating more healthy (simply stop buying junk food for now, I already eat quite healthy appart from that)
That´s it for now, I will keep things simple, I don´t want to overload myself. In the future I will try to start a new musical project, but I don´t think i have time for that now.
Also, these weeks I will focus on working and studying for my english proficency test. I have it in trhee weeks, and I will study 2hs a day, excep for sundays, that I will use to rest from studying. I think this will help me to have some structure in my life, which I´be been lacking.
And as I said before, If I see myself enganging in binging behaviours with food or social media, or If I feel I´m stressed and tired and feeling uneasy, I will stop what I´m doinf and breath for a min. I will also rest if I need to, and call my girlfirend/family/friends, if I need to.
And that´s my plan to have more positive things in my life! I think is simple enough, i will make an effort to commit with it.
Regarthing sexual thought and fantaises, sometimes I still have them, but I´m able to look at them as Addiction thoughts, and let them go. I´m not engagging with fantasies so much now that I think about it, which is super positive.
That´s it for now, I´m willing to go trhough the struggle and make those good changes happen!!
Cheers