Road to recovery
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Supreme0147
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What makes you broke the 81 days?
K1998
Member
One day i saw a random video on youtube and after that i started searching about the girl in that video she is an onlyfans model and rest is history.
I started thinking too much about that girl novelty hit me hard and i couldn't resist myself watching her. Eventually i reached to porn.
So that's the whole story.
Supreme0147
Member
Oh this really happened to me yesterday. I saw the girl on YouTube. Normally once I see girls I just quit but this time I was looking then I had to come to my senses that I know the outcome of looking this girl. So I ran off quickly.
K1998
Member
But i couldn't resist. I fell into that trap, we all are surrounded by triggers.
Yuki
Member
You're right, social media triggered us easily, turn off Youtube, Facebook, social media,... Only turn on when you really necessary, you can ask your parents, friend awake you when go too far.
Of course clear all your history, use app block P.
Keep strong, have a nice day.
K1998
Member
I relapsed today.
I kept looking for porn substitutes and at night ended up watching P (PMOed). One more thing i keep counting days and that gave me some amount of stress. Porn substitutes are my biggest problem now i am going to decrease my screen time. I relapsed 18 times in 20 months of my reboot not making a significant amount of progress, i want to do better than last year atleast. I am starting my reboot again.
Tomorrow will be day 1.
I kept looking for porn substitutes and at night ended up watching P (PMOed). One more thing i keep counting days and that gave me some amount of stress. Porn substitutes are my biggest problem now i am going to decrease my screen time. I relapsed 18 times in 20 months of my reboot not making a significant amount of progress, i want to do better than last year atleast. I am starting my reboot again.
Tomorrow will be day 1.
K1998
Member
Supreme0147
Member
Stop counting the days, just forget about anything sex now then focus on your life, getting money, eating good exercising good and working on your body. Just forget anything about sex and healing. You will surely heal but know it's going to be more than a year of relapse. When you focus on healing and you're not seeing it, it makes you depressed and fall victim again. So forget the who thing about sex and women now. Then quit social media totally it will help. The is the platform I'm on now the rest are deleted till I have my life back.
Supreme0147
Member
For me I'm giving myself two years of no social media and focus on myself for the two years. I'm even ready to go 5 years if that is what will bring the change I want. You should know that no one will save you from this and GOD won't pity you to help you stop this because you are suffering. On this page I have seen 50s and 60s grow up with this addiction from their childhood and suffering to stop it now. I rather stop now than living with till them.
Supreme0147
Member
Please 
don't fall again. Just changed your mindset and fight what is making you feel depressed if it's healing just know you to stop thinking about healing but it surely come in a long time.
don't fall again. Just changed your mindset and fight what is making you feel depressed if it's healing just know you to stop thinking about healing but it surely come in a long time.
K1998
Member
Yes i will stop counting days now. I noticed 2 things from my previous 81 days streak:-
1) I stopped consuming Artificial sexual stimulus.
2) I stopped counting days and focused on my habits.
So from now i will not focus on my streak. And stay away from screen as much as possible.
Thank you for replying, it means a lot.
K1998
Member
I am good now. The urges have decreased now.
But thanks for replying.