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Yuki

Yuki

Member
Hello everyone, I'm a new member, i'm 19, a PMO addict. I'm not good at English, if you find mistakes, please ignore.

So I'm addicted to masturbation (M) and orgasm (O) when i only 5 years old, I don't lie, let's me explain, my d*ck has length and tight foreskin, when i took a shower, water from shower hit the foreskin, It made me "feel good", then O. I did this disgusting thing again and again, soon I quickly learned how to M and O. When I was 12, my friend give me link Porn (P). Of course I knew P, M and O in first P vid.

I spend my childhood with despised by adults and friends. The intuition always told me something wrong, but i didn't thing PMO ruined my life, "it just my character, don't worry" i thought.

When 15, I accidental knew nofap group in Facebook, reading the harmful of fap, i ejaculated "WHAT THE HELL I DOING WITH MY LIFE". I have regretted what i did, I must do something to exit this marsh, I must quit PMO, using different method. The urge, flatline, always annoy me in my dream, when i wake, push me back "day 1", but I never discouraged, 10th, 100th, 1000th failure ? Nevermind, rebuild 1001st. Now, i have fight against PMO for 4 years, i will soon defeated, but who care, freedom ahead, keep fighting!

14 years PMO addict, throwing away my childhood, develop, relation, future, i earn a list of debuff:
- Small forebrain, loss of aesthetics
- No logic (1+1=3)
- No relation
- Self-deprecating
- Poor concentration
- Low will
- Slow response
- Easily forget
- Flatline
- Urge
- moody
- Etc
No matter what debuff I have, stay strong...

Thank you for reading this shjt 🙏, i will improve my English.

Have a nice day.
 
K1998

K1998

Member
Yuki said:
Hello everyone, I'm a new member, i'm 19, a PMO addict. I'm not good at English, if you find mistakes, please ignore.

So I'm addicted to masturbation (M) and orgasm (O) when i only 5 years old, I don't lie, let's me explain, my d*ck has length and tight foreskin, when i took a shower, water from shower hit the foreskin, It made me "feel good", then O. I did this disgusting thing again and again, soon I quickly learned how to M and O. When I was 12, my friend give me link Porn (P). Of course I knew P, M and O in first P vid.

I spend my childhood with despised by adults and friends. The intuition always told me something wrong, but i didn't thing PMO ruined my life, "it just my character, don't worry" i thought.

When 15, I accidental knew nofap group in Facebook, reading the harmful of fap, i ejaculated "WHAT THE HELL I DOING WITH MY LIFE". I have regretted what i did, I must do something to exit this marsh, I must quit PMO, using different method. The urge, flatline, always annoy me in my dream, when i wake, push me back "day 1", but I never discouraged, 10th, 100th, 1000th failure ? Nevermind, rebuild 1001st. Now, i have fight against PMO for 4 years, i will soon defeated, but who care, freedom ahead, keep fighting!

14 years PMO addict, throwing away my childhood, develop, relation, future, i earn a list of debuff:
- Small forebrain, loss of aesthetics
- No logic (1+1=3)
- No relation
- Self-deprecating
- Poor concentration
- Low will
- Slow response
- Easily forget
- Flatline
- Urge
- moody
- Etc
No matter what debuff I have, stay strong...

Thank you for reading this shjt 🙏, i will improve my English.

Have a nice day.
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Be strong brother you will achieve success one day.
I wish you best of luck.
 
Yuki

Yuki

Member
Bawanda said:
I understand how have you been through. I had similar experience but since 10th year of my age. Keep fighting warrior. You are not alone
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Thanks a lot, I sympathize with you, it will very hard, stay strong brother.
 
Yuki

Yuki

Member
04/12/2022, 2:19 A.M
Day 1
Today I'm PMO by wetdream and urge, then i turn on P... now feeling weak, disappointed myself. this incident reminded me of my critical point: Willpower is very low after waking up and the urge surround me.

Another hand I'm complete part of todo list: do homework, 20 min do exercise, clean up my room, take cool shower, wash dishes, clean my bedroom, read book. Not using phone about 4 hours.

Things I not complete: meditation, recite the sutra, water the tree (because heavy rain today).

Now I go to sleep, give phone to mother, avoid relapse tomorrow morning.

God follow you, keep strong.
 
Yuki

Yuki

Member
04/12/2022, 12:46 PM
Day 2
Alright, woke up at 9:30 A.M, little urge but luckily no phone near me, the streak still continues...

As Consequences of PMO, I was tired and want to sleep more.

Had breakfast, did exercises 20 min, sunbathe 1 min. That all I did in this morning. Seem more active than yesterday (only woke up and played game).

I will more active to have enjoyable weekend.

God follow you, keep strong.
 
Yuki

Yuki

Member
05/12/2022, 00:58 A.M
Update
With self-discipline, I had enjoyable weekend, thing I rarely have in my life. Now i'm feeling satisfied, happy,...

More active than morning: go to supermarket (thing i rarely did before), not using phone >6 hrs, do homework, meditation, recite the sutra, water trees... And the biggest archive: noPMO today.

Only thing i don't complete: go to bed early, I will improve soon.

God follow you, keep strong.
 
Yuki

Yuki

Member
06/12/2022, 02:13 A.M
Day 3
After hard-working day, now i'm tired, and pleased with my effort today.

Another success: noPMO today.

With experienced (it's a shame), tomorrow the urge will annoy me more and longer than today. I must prepare for another big battle.

Good night, have a nice dream.

God follow you, keep strong.
 
Yuki

Yuki

Member
07/12/2022, 10:05 A.M
Day 4, 5
Yesterday I feel tired, not focused on anything and went to bed early. Today feeling tired, too. I have plans to tighten discipline, may it make me better...

Yessterday, with well-prepared, the urge annoyed not much, I managed to extinguish it: just left my room and went out for a while.

Anyway, congratulate for another 5-days streak. Another hand I must not full of myself then lost in the cycle of PMO.

God follow you, keep strong.
 
Yuki

Yuki

Member
09/12/2022, 00:44 A.M
Day 6
Another day ending with happy, sad, tired.

Happy, although a heavy-attack urge after took a nap, luckily I could extinguish it; I can feel the brain slowly recovery, not much but help a lot in remember, conversation, improve confident,...

Sad, I think I'm in flatline, so the mood often bad; I regret that I refused a beautiful and diversity world, all of my relative, the girlfriends liked me, opportunity to learn, conversation,... Just locked the room, saw P, M then O day by day...

Now I see my bigger-and-bigger issue, I'm rebuilding all from the ruin. I tighten discipline: delete all games, social media, youtube. No entertainment, no finding girlfriend, only work and learn, it's very tired but the first time after 7 months, I can enjoy the feeling of living properly.

I can't express my think into words well and only use google translate so the post too bad 😂. But if you read and enjoy it, I'm very happy, thankful and appreciative, have a nice day. ♥️

God follow you, keep strong.

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Galatians51

Galatians51

Active Member
keep it up, it gets better, sounds like you're making great choices and though you feel your past mistakes you will feel totally different as you keep moving forward
 
Yuki

Yuki

Member
13/12/2022, 02:14 A.M
Day 1
Sorry about no diary in 3 days, I had a little project, It required me to concentrate to had good point.

So as you see, I relapsed, it my fault and i don't blame to anyone, anything.

Let's find out why I relapsed.
First, I was complacent "Ok nothing can stop me, 10 days easy".
Next, the girls in group, they so cute and s*xy, I want to explode @@.
Last I'm not used to pressure, now after the pressure of the project, I just want to relax, and my dude brain wants more. Ha, You can guess want he want.
=> With all the above reasons led to yesterday's unexpected event. What a shame !

The warrior must not be crushed by defeat, he learns from that failure. So what can we learn form that relapse ?
1. Not counting days => not complacent.
2. After the pressure, you will very tired, this mean the 10-meter-wave urge will visit when you alone or after wake up. Chances are you'll listen to it. So the lesson is avoid alone and always keep your phone away.
3. When tired, we can use healthy food to push dopamine (I recommend yogurt, orange).
4. I can't read or work on the phone for long. If i cross the line, my eyes are tired -> will low down -> relapsed. I dont know why, just know it's a disadvantage. :((
5. Always discipline.
6. Go to bed on time (3:20 A.M lol)
7. Research articles on PMO are well worth reading, but should be read when you are in crowded places, or when your willpower is high (some words in research can triggered you, be careful) .

So that is the lessons I earn. If you have your experience or lesson, leave comment below. All are appreciated. ♥️

I can't express my think into words well and only use google translate so the post too bad 😂. But if you read and enjoy it, I'm very happy, thankful and appreciative, have a nice day. ♥️
God follow you, keep strong.​
 
Yuki

Yuki

Member
Galatians51 said:
keep it up, it gets better, sounds like you're making great choices and though you feel your past mistakes you will feel totally different as you keep moving forward
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Thank you for your motivation, as we see, Nofap always the best choice, It likes light illuminates life♥️ and I think I though in the past because of my conscience and flatline. With the flatline, I will have plan against it soon.🔥 Have a great day brother. ♥️​
 
Yuki

Yuki

Member
14/12/2022, 10:36 A.M
The next day
I no PMO yesterday and hope today no, too.

I keep discipline by repair for the final test and no subjective.

20-min exercise immediately after finishing today's diary.

God follow you, keep strong.
 
Yuki

Yuki

Member
15/12/2022, 11:53 A.M
The next day
I was looking for motivational videos and accidentally found a s*xy-girl video, thanks to this vid now I am in "danger" situation.

Let's make a to-do list to crush this b*stard:
- Drink lemonade.
- Do exercise.
- Shutdown my phone in 3 hours.
- Read books.
- Cold shower.

to-do list will started immediately after I finish the diary.

God follow you, keep strong.​
 
jackinabox

jackinabox

Member
Yuki said:
15/12/2022, 11:53 A.M
The next day
I was looking for motivational videos and accidentally found a s*xy-girl video, thanks to this vid now I am in "danger" situation.

Let's make a to-do list to crush this b*stard:
- Drink lemonade.
- Do exercise.
- Shutdown my phone in 3 hours.
- Read books.
- Cold shower.

to-do list will started immediately after I finish the diary.

God follow you, keep strong.​
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You've got this man, keep going!
 
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