Clouds&Dirt
Member
Nice job man, having the self control to beat "surprise attacks" is huge! Good luck with your girl
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Thanks broski! Good news!
DAY 18 & 19: It Happened! I had sex. (3 rounds)
I know this sounds and tbh even feels too good to be true. But I think I will also post this in the "PIED Success story section".
Some details about the experience
Last morning I met my girl she came over to my house and after a while we got intimate and I got hard af. BUT, when I went to put it in, I wasn't able to keep the erection. at that point, I felt very anxious and ofc I knew I wasn't gonna be able to keep the erection, so we stopped and just cuddled for a bit. we tried again in around 20 minutes. This time, I was able to maintain an erection of 60% and somehow after trying for like good 10 minutes, I could put it in. But then I ejaculated the second I slid into her. We took a break again and we got into it again and this time I was able to put it in and last for a good 7-10 minutes with 90% erection. took a break again and the last time we had sex for 10 minutes with 80-90% erection. It felt amazing!
What helped was talking to my girl about how I wanted to be pleased. It's okay to be selfish at this point bc even she is working towards your reboot. So talking to your partner about every detail helped tremendously. Usually, partners are very understanding when you whisper hah so that's a trick you can use.
I still do need to not think about the times I wasn't able to keep an erection since it only adds to my anxiety. other than that, it was successfull! I AM NEVER GOING BACK TO PORN.
Aftermath
OHH! Almost forgot to add that I experienced a positive and uplifting mood for approximately 20 minutes following ejaculation, but then experienced a crash where I felt low and depressed. It wasn't until a 2 hour nap that I felt recharged. I believe this was likely due to the rush of dopamine after 18 days of abstinence.
Have a blessed day ya'll.
I know this sounds and tbh even feels too good to be true. But I think I will also post this in the "PIED Success story section".
Some details about the experience
Last morning I met my girl she came over to my house and after a while we got intimate and I got hard af. BUT, when I went to put it in, I wasn't able to keep the erection. at that point, I felt very anxious and ofc I knew I wasn't gonna be able to keep the erection, so we stopped and just cuddled for a bit. we tried again in around 20 minutes. This time, I was able to maintain an erection of 60% and somehow after trying for like good 10 minutes, I could put it in. But then I ejaculated the second I slid into her. We took a break again and we got into it again and this time I was able to put it in and last for a good 7-10 minutes with 90% erection. took a break again and the last time we had sex for 10 minutes with 80-90% erection. It felt amazing!
What helped was talking to my girl about how I wanted to be pleased. It's okay to be selfish at this point bc even she is working towards your reboot. So talking to your partner about every detail helped tremendously. Usually, partners are very understanding when you whisper hah so that's a trick you can use.
I still do need to not think about the times I wasn't able to keep an erection since it only adds to my anxiety. other than that, it was successfull! I AM NEVER GOING BACK TO PORN.
Aftermath
OHH! Almost forgot to add that I experienced a positive and uplifting mood for approximately 20 minutes following ejaculation, but then experienced a crash where I felt low and depressed. It wasn't until a 2 hour nap that I felt recharged. I believe this was likely due to the rush of dopamine after 18 days of abstinence.
Have a blessed day ya'll.
Day 20:
damn I know I will hit 30 days with no issues. I don't really have any urges to watch porn or masturbate. I am starting to enjoy the tension that starts to build up after 3/4 days of abstinence from sex or anything related to being with a girl. I am not looking forward to having a good time with my girlfriend when I meet her next.
I also got a new job as a Junior Software Developer, so I am expecting myself to get super busy with that and learn everything I can. Anyways, I have an event to attend today with my dad and his company. But I don't got any formal cloths so Ima go grab some quickly from h&m lol. and get a cut as well.
I will still come here and be an example for people who are facing issues with quitting porn.
thats all for today!
Have a blessed day!
damn I know I will hit 30 days with no issues. I don't really have any urges to watch porn or masturbate. I am starting to enjoy the tension that starts to build up after 3/4 days of abstinence from sex or anything related to being with a girl. I am not looking forward to having a good time with my girlfriend when I meet her next.
I also got a new job as a Junior Software Developer, so I am expecting myself to get super busy with that and learn everything I can. Anyways, I have an event to attend today with my dad and his company. But I don't got any formal cloths so Ima go grab some quickly from h&m lol. and get a cut as well.
I will still come here and be an example for people who are facing issues with quitting porn.
thats all for today!
Have a blessed day!
Day 26:
One thing I have noticed is that after you MO first, you get the surge in dopamine and your brain asks for another round of MO. or ask for MO again the next day. It's weird. But I guess you have to learn that once is enough and not continue it.
Anyways, today is a chill gloomy day. keeping gym pretty consistent recently. Having trouble falling asleep lately maybe its bc of my pre-workout. since I workout in the evening around 7 pm. but soon ima switch it to Morning since my work starts on Monday.
Have a blessed day!
One thing I have noticed is that after you MO first, you get the surge in dopamine and your brain asks for another round of MO. or ask for MO again the next day. It's weird. But I guess you have to learn that once is enough and not continue it.
Anyways, today is a chill gloomy day. keeping gym pretty consistent recently. Having trouble falling asleep lately maybe its bc of my pre-workout. since I workout in the evening around 7 pm. but soon ima switch it to Morning since my work starts on Monday.
Have a blessed day!
Hi!
I´ve been reading a bit your posts,
Congrats on your quick recovery, first of all! Is great to have a supportive and understanding partner, and it seems like you were able to recover very quickly of your ED, so that´s great!
Also, I´m sorry to hear about your relapse. Today I relapsed after 53days, and it feels awful. But hey, it doesn´t take away all the progress you´ve made so far, and it can help you to see what went wrong and what can you change.
I´m guessing that MO lead to Porn, since those have been associated a lot for many years. Anyway, I´m talking from experience from my own relapses in the past, and could be different for you.
Good luck on the next days, I think you got this!!
I´ve been reading a bit your posts,
Congrats on your quick recovery, first of all! Is great to have a supportive and understanding partner, and it seems like you were able to recover very quickly of your ED, so that´s great!
Also, I´m sorry to hear about your relapse. Today I relapsed after 53days, and it feels awful. But hey, it doesn´t take away all the progress you´ve made so far, and it can help you to see what went wrong and what can you change.
I´m guessing that MO lead to Porn, since those have been associated a lot for many years. Anyway, I´m talking from experience from my own relapses in the past, and could be different for you.
Good luck on the next days, I think you got this!!
Thank you man!
yeah, you're absolutely correct that MO had led me to watch porn. if that one day I restricted myself form MO, then I wouldn't watch P. Ima keep this in mind moving forward tho.
Day 1 (Reset):
Today I am going to go and get my hardware from the office to start my work. I am hoping that work will once again keep me busy and that my mind returns to how I felt on day 25 without PMO. I can actually tell that I was feeling much better physically and mentally during 25 days of abstinence.
Today I am going to go and get my hardware from the office to start my work. I am hoping that work will once again keep me busy and that my mind returns to how I felt on day 25 without PMO. I can actually tell that I was feeling much better physically and mentally during 25 days of abstinence.
Hey guys!
Sheesh what? Has it been 3 months? No. Over 3 months since I’ve posted here. Wow I mean I’m taken aback from just reading my own thread and sort of my mini journey of taking my life in a positive direction.
so, I don’t really know how many of you who were part of my journey or who used to read my threads daily remember me, but it looks like I stopped posting on here after Day 20 ish. Around Day 15, I figured that my PIED was gone and it was going good with my girlfriend. (It’s still pretty good now) I get good errection everytime I have sex. No problem at all.
But what has changed? I’m back to watching porn and consuming content that I shouldn’t be. i think since April 15th, I’ve started to watch porn and PMO every night before bed. Part of this could be due to my sex drive becoming super high due to me working out 5 days a week and eating clean diets. My sex drive is through the roof but it isn’t the same with my girlfriend so I can’t force her or anyone for sex. So I felt kind of trapped and this yielded me towards porn again.
Today is May 10th, I have a full time job as a developer, I have a pretty decent routine going for the past 3 months ever since I got this job. I go to the gym everyday morning 6:30am , do cold showers at the end of a regular shower for 1-2 minutes and do 10-minutes of meditation everyday. I also read for 30min it’s a day.
ALL THIS feels super easy to do compared to quitting PORN again. So I’m back here trying to restart this (not counting actual sex as a relapse). Because I still remeber how great I felt when I hit 24 days of abstinence. Tbh a great part of my success for 24 days of abstinence was these forms and me consistently journaling my journey, talking and helping people.
I will get back here tomorrow! Goodnight y’all.
Sheesh what? Has it been 3 months? No. Over 3 months since I’ve posted here. Wow I mean I’m taken aback from just reading my own thread and sort of my mini journey of taking my life in a positive direction.
so, I don’t really know how many of you who were part of my journey or who used to read my threads daily remember me, but it looks like I stopped posting on here after Day 20 ish. Around Day 15, I figured that my PIED was gone and it was going good with my girlfriend. (It’s still pretty good now) I get good errection everytime I have sex. No problem at all.
But what has changed? I’m back to watching porn and consuming content that I shouldn’t be. i think since April 15th, I’ve started to watch porn and PMO every night before bed. Part of this could be due to my sex drive becoming super high due to me working out 5 days a week and eating clean diets. My sex drive is through the roof but it isn’t the same with my girlfriend so I can’t force her or anyone for sex. So I felt kind of trapped and this yielded me towards porn again.
Today is May 10th, I have a full time job as a developer, I have a pretty decent routine going for the past 3 months ever since I got this job. I go to the gym everyday morning 6:30am , do cold showers at the end of a regular shower for 1-2 minutes and do 10-minutes of meditation everyday. I also read for 30min it’s a day.
ALL THIS feels super easy to do compared to quitting PORN again. So I’m back here trying to restart this (not counting actual sex as a relapse). Because I still remeber how great I felt when I hit 24 days of abstinence. Tbh a great part of my success for 24 days of abstinence was these forms and me consistently journaling my journey, talking and helping people.
I will get back here tomorrow! Goodnight y’all.
cookiemonster
Active Member
Just read your journal, seems like you were making great progress in very little time so you can look forward to that again!
SmokenMirrors
Well-Known Member
I love your optimism man, keep on being an inspiration!
Thanks everyone for being so supportive. This is a really positive space.
DAY 1 / 30
I have been addicted to porn for a very long time. For around 10 years now. Last year I thought I had a breakthrough when I started using this forum and keeping myself accountable. I think I went to about 20 days without porn or MO. It cured my PIED and I had a good time with my girlfriend. But tbh, since then I have been back at it and I am now watching porn atleast 1 time a day (Mostly at night). I let loose of the idea of no porn or PMO after my PIED was cured. but I was wrong this is not a one time fix kinda thing. its a forever thing. I have to learn to be conscious and not let my mind control me.
This is going to be like a daily tracker/journal until I can again go without reporting any setbacks. I also need to be more active here.
DAY 1 / 30
I have been addicted to porn for a very long time. For around 10 years now. Last year I thought I had a breakthrough when I started using this forum and keeping myself accountable. I think I went to about 20 days without porn or MO. It cured my PIED and I had a good time with my girlfriend. But tbh, since then I have been back at it and I am now watching porn atleast 1 time a day (Mostly at night). I let loose of the idea of no porn or PMO after my PIED was cured. but I was wrong this is not a one time fix kinda thing. its a forever thing. I have to learn to be conscious and not let my mind control me.
This is going to be like a daily tracker/journal until I can again go without reporting any setbacks. I also need to be more active here.
last night I slept like a baby mainly because I was sore from a hike and I took a tylenol. I was out. Today is a new day wont let cravings effect me. Self-control is main goal. Have a nice day everyone!Thank you!
Thank you man! Appreciate it