This is great @logicprox
. That's the beauty of this method, just stick to the course, and it does get better. There will be moments when it comes back with a vengeance, but the strength of these moments become lesser and lesser and fewer in between, until you wake up one day wondering why the hell did you ever need this crap in the first place.
Absolutely, definitely been seeing this happen. Even with what I posted yesterday, it's not really that the inclination to use didn't arise at all. It's that it popped up but so weakly that I just shrugged it off effortlessly. That's not to say that I have won the war yet. i know the harder moments will still come.
I have had no porn lapses in this super busy time at work (which isn't fully over yet, just through the absolute worst of it). But that doesn't mean all is well. I haven't had time to talk about it and i knew I would get through the period alright, but there are warning shots that have started to fire.
I think when you get to this stage in a "streak", it's not likely to go from absolutely crushing it to relapse suddenly (though this is my first time here so my supposition could be wrong). I think what happens is you start to get less rigorous about certain things, whether due to overconfidence or life stress or whatever else, and it starts to gently, almost imperceptibly reignite the parts of your brain that are still addicted. You sow the seeds of a relapse days or weeks before it happens.
I do think that those seeds started to be sowed during this work period. I posted a while back about getting fantasy under control. It's because I think fantasy was one of those seeds. I improved on it, but didn't completely cap it. I made some excuses due to being stressed and having trouble falling asleep. This also led to MO more than I should have the last couple of weeks (though less so since that post). As I said in another post, mostly kept doing my habits, but the key word is mostly. It was 100% without fail before.
All that to say, I have work to do to get back on track. Which is fine because I'm going to do it. This week is still going to be a little crazy for work, and I'm very tired from the last couple of weeks, but here is what I am committing to to finish out this week:
1. No fantasy at night
2. No MO
3. Other than this morning (flew home late so I'm just a little off time and exhausted) doing my habits 100% like I designed them.
I'll report on these through Sunday to keep myself accountable, then it's time for step 2.