Hi everyone. After failing on multiple occasions to go ācold turkeyā on porn and repeatedly falling into bad habits, I have decided to take some further accountability by joining a likeminded community.
Porn has been a presence in my life for almost two decades now, having first accessed it online as a young teenager. In that time, it has effectively remained a constant, causing me great shame as I have often retreated from sexual intimacy with partners while secretly watching porn or, in years gone by, even paying for cam girls. Iāve also found over the years that I have fallen into cycles that have eventually seen me engage with increasingly misogynistic types of porn that Iād be mortified to own up to viewing in the cold light of day.
Having promised myself only a couple of days ago to try and stop for good this year, this morning I found myself alone in our room while my partner was elsewhere in the house andā¦wellā¦the cycle began anew.
Iām not sure how often I will post here or keep track in real time of my battle, but I hope that posting this here will serve as a marker to be laid down and move forwards towards a more positive future.
All my best to you all and happy new year.
Michael.
Porn has been a presence in my life for almost two decades now, having first accessed it online as a young teenager. In that time, it has effectively remained a constant, causing me great shame as I have often retreated from sexual intimacy with partners while secretly watching porn or, in years gone by, even paying for cam girls. Iāve also found over the years that I have fallen into cycles that have eventually seen me engage with increasingly misogynistic types of porn that Iād be mortified to own up to viewing in the cold light of day.
Having promised myself only a couple of days ago to try and stop for good this year, this morning I found myself alone in our room while my partner was elsewhere in the house andā¦wellā¦the cycle began anew.
Iām not sure how often I will post here or keep track in real time of my battle, but I hope that posting this here will serve as a marker to be laid down and move forwards towards a more positive future.
All my best to you all and happy new year.
Michael.