Haven't written anything in a while but still have been lurking around the forum. I've been completely PMO free for 14 days now. Trying to not really count days, but 2 weeks is kind of a nice milestone.
Moving my computer out of my room has actually been a huge help. I find myself getting urges noticably less frequently, and I think it's because the "trigger" of my computer being there when I'm lying in my bed is gone.
I've also been reading Your Brain on Porn and have gotten some motivation by reading some "scary" stuff in there. It mentions there was a small study done on 3 guys with sexual dysfunctions. Quitting porn fixed 2 out of 3 of the guys. The third guy wasn't fixed because... he was unable to stop watching porn.
Theres another one that goes something like this: A study was done on 35 guys with sexual dysfunctions, and they were basically told to stop watching porn. In 19(!) of the guys, their problems regressed. 3 of the guys saw improvements, though at a slower pace than the 19. What happened to the other 13? Well... they were unable to stop watching porn.
This really opened my eyes to the reality that I could end up being one of those guys who can't stop watching, and therefore never will reap the benefits of quitting porn. Scary stuff.
I also think I may be experiencing a flatline? Idk, but when I wake up I have no morning wood and my meat has been feeling "lazy." It makes me want to M just to make sure everything is alright down there, but I've read enough stories to know that's a TERRIBLE idea. I think this means I'm healing, which is awesome!
Anyways, I've been doing really well in other areas of my life. Been breaking some of my own records in the gym, making progress on a business I'm starting soon, and finally landed a job after 2 months of applying/interviewing.
Clouds - Big dreams
Dirt - Hard work