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I’ll get to the point here . For the past 30 years of my life I was into heterosexual porn, one day I came across transexual porn and never looked back . I been dealing with this for 7 years now and it comes and goes. At this point I been sleeping with trans women lately And cis women don’t do it for me anymore .

Is this my true nature which is trans women? Or did porn just literally fuck me up even more ? I’m confused with my sexuality and I’m so rock bottom now . Thanks guys !
 
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I can understand where you're coming from. I am gay but straight/trans porn turns me on way more than gay porn does. It's quite confusing but the opposite to what you're experiencing.
 
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Style12 said:
I’ll get to the point here . For the past 30 years of my life I was into heterosexual porn, one day I came across transexual porn and never looked back . I been dealing with this for 7 years now and it comes and goes. At this point I been sleeping with trans women lately And normal women don’t do it for me anymore .

Is this my true nature which is trans women? Or did porn just literally fuck me up even more ? I’m confused with my sexuality and I’m so rock bottom now . Thanks guys !
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@Style12 Your question is all too familiar. Porn is like any other drug. The addict, including myself at the peak of my use, needed different porn to "get off." Heterosexual pornography wasn't doing it for me, so I started watching some weird stuff. When that wasn't enough, I started acting out, cruising Craigslist to meet up with men to have sexual favors done. Yes, porn has messed up your brain. The chemical neurons that have been developing are now canyons in your brain and will take some time to rewire themselves back to their normal state.
 
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KetchupDrool said:
@Style12 Your question is all too familiar. Porn is like any other drug. The addict, including myself at the peak of my use, needed different porn to "get off." Heterosexual pornography wasn't doing it for me, so I started watching some weird stuff. When that wasn't enough, I started acting out, cruising Craigslist to meet up with men to have sexual favors done. Yes, porn has messed up your brain. The chemical neurons that have been developing are now canyons in your brain and will take some time to rewire themselves back to their normal state.
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Hey Ketchup how’s it going ? I’m not doing the greatest to be honest , I keep on going back to apps to meet up with transexuals but I can’t get out of this dark hole . Sometimes I ask myself maybe I’m not accepting myself for all this ? Is this really my sexuality ? But in the end I just feel like I’m numbing myself and forgot what real life women are all about. Some beautiful women I no longer find attractive anymore and it sad . Can you pass on any advice ? How did you climb out of this addiction ?? Thanks for your help man
 
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Style12 said:
Hey Ketchup how’s it going ? I’m not doing the greatest to be honest , I keep on going back to apps to meet up with transexuals but I can’t get out of this dark hole . Sometimes I ask myself maybe I’m not accepting myself for all this ? Is this really my sexuality ? But in the end I just feel like I’m numbing myself and forgot what real life women are all about. Some beautiful women I no longer find attractive anymore and it sad . Can you pass on any advice ? How did you climb out of this addiction ?? Thanks for your help man
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Why don't you leave the forum for now, throw yourself into your theory completely, and see if you are content with the results? Being stuck in between two chairs can't be comfortable.
 
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Style12 said:
I’ll get to the point here . For the past 30 years of my life I was into heterosexual porn, one day I came across transexual porn and never looked back . I been dealing with this for 7 years now and it comes and goes. At this point I been sleeping with trans women lately And normal women don’t do it for me anymore .

Is this my true nature which is trans women? Or did porn just literally fuck me up even more ? I’m confused with my sexuality and I’m so rock bottom now . Thanks guys !
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This is super famililar to me as well, not sure if youre already taking a break from the forum or not but just thought i'd toss in my 2 cents. Im a straight woman but from porn was wired to sexualize women, or basically anything not simply "straight." I started PMOing to lesbian, gay, etc and have found it a very difficult journey to stop being aroused and triggered by pornographic women even though i have no interest in having sex with them in real life. So because youre already being physical with trans people it could be your sexuality! Or it could be porn wiring. For me, i thought maybe i could be lesbian since i seemed to be a lot more turned on by women in porn than the men. However, after some time of sobriety my brain started to rewire again and I realized I was straight and just being influenced by what I was consuming and in particular MOing to. Chemically when we O we bond to what we're seeing. So either way, i think the only way to find out for sure is to continue living your life but without any porn or substitutes. I hope this helps!
 
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