I've been very busy with helping with renovations. On the astronomically small offchance I get an urge, I simply think "This is not what I need or want right now." and it becomes easy to swat them away day by day. I do worry that overexhaustion and my persisting sleep routine issues (it's gotten better, less backslides and I still get 8+hrs a night) will compromise me.
Another player has entered the game as well. I'm en route to figuring out if this girl is dating and girlfriend material. In any case, it's got me thinking about the role of sex and intimacy in my life. I know those are not the same per se, but the prospect or frequency of sex has me anticipating relapse. The brain has all these connections that may inevitably activate and could make rebooting harder. I don't know how to go about it, but I do intend to figure it out the coming weeks. I know that there's married men on this forum, or simply men in a committed relationship. I will scout for mentions of rebooting while dating/partnered up and learn without having to make mistakes. If anyone reading this has advice on how to handle rebooting in this situation (prospecting, dating, relationship) feel free to post it in my journal here, or sending it to me privately, I'm very interested.
Truckin' on.
