Depression, anxiety, Flatline/Anhedonia

Scorpio1990

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As the months gone by my symptoms have been up and down. My depression has gotten really bad and I have become suicidal. My anxiety has been crippling and I’m feeling like I can’t function normal. I feel like I wanna throw up and pass out. Like I’m dizzy. I have been getting help by the right resources and been doing ketamine treatment but the only time I get relief is during the treatment. It’s crazy PMO after effects have ruined my life literally. I’m sorry for constantly ranting but I’m just so frustrated how much this ruined me not knowing I was going to become another victim to it. I never had these issues until I stopped.
 

Daybyday1988

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sorry to hear about it man. how long have you been experiencing these problems? also, what was your history of use like before you quit in terms of frequency of PMO, duration of your addiction, and the material you escalated to?
 

Scorpio1990

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sorry to hear about it man. how long have you been experiencing these problems? also, what was your history of use like before you quit in terms of frequency of PMO, duration of your addiction, and the material you escalated to?
Thanks for being supportive brother, I started around 19, I did it through my 20s and it got out of hand during Covid specially when ex gfs would send me videos of themselves or we make vids. I can’t remember how much a day but at least once or twice a day. This shit is a living hell.
 

Daybyday1988

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of course man that what we are here for, to be supportive. how old are you now? did you escalate to different, more intense material?

i was in the same boat man, im 13 years in and only started having victory fairly recently.
 

Daybyday1988

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Ahh yes I did the trans, gay and eventually getting serviced by a few gays. So pretty bad escalation.

I'm almost 90 days clean from PMO and had a long streak before that. The benefits are more mental, the porn flashbacks are startibg to fade and I can feel some type of libido coming back. Some morning wood returning but still not too functional sexually, failed the last time I tried.

For me, I know it will take at least a year or two to get back to being somewhat normal given my length if time addicted and the escalation into weird material. I got married a year ago, and even though that is kind of tough, she kniws I'm recovering and I use cialis to get hard every now and then for sex.
 

Scorpio1990

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Ahh yes I did the trans, gay and eventually getting serviced by a few gays. So pretty bad escalation.

I'm almost 90 days clean from PMO and had a long streak before that. The benefits are more mental, the porn flashbacks are startibg to fade and I can feel some type of libido coming back. Some morning wood returning but still not too functional sexually, failed the last time I tried.

For me, I know it will take at least a year or two to get back to being somewhat normal given my length if time addicted and the escalation into weird material. I got married a year ago, and even though that is kind of tough, she kniws I'm recovering and I use cialis to get hard every now and then for sex.
I’m happy for you brother, I’m glad your wife has been supportive. I actually have been having it rough. My ex and I had a weekend trip and it was feeling like crap before it. On our way back home I had a panic attack driving but luckily I pulled to the side of the freeway. Today I went to ER because I been suicidal since all this has been hell. Idk if this is from PMO anymore. But why did all this happened after I stopped. My ex gf finally saw me at my worst. She confessed she’s not leaving me behind because she still loves me. I love her too but I wish my mental was normal to go on with my life. My anxiety, depression ,and flatline have been hell. It’s crazy how people suffer from this shit.
 

Daybyday1988

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Thanks man, being on the road to recovery is nice.

How long have you been suffering from the depression and anxiety? I believe in Gabe Deems case, he had small durations of emotional difficulty as in days or weeks and it got progressively better with time. how long youve been struggling with these symptoms?
 

Scorpio1990

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Thanks man, being on the road to recovery is nice.

How long have you been suffering from the depression and anxiety? I believe in Gabe Deems case, he had small durations of emotional difficulty as in days or weeks and it got progressively better with time. how long youve been struggling with these symptoms?
Yeah, he’s definitely lucky. I been struggling with this since May, it’s just gotten worse. It was like an overnight switch. It’s been hell since then. The flatline/anhedonia has also amplified my anxiety I can’t normal stuff. It’s crazy that people don’t take these withdrawals serious and think it’s an underlying issue. I gone through caffeine withdrawals and those were bad but I recovered.
 

Daybyday1988

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oh no man, that sounds dreadful. i wish i knew how to fix the anxiety and anhedonia for you. All i can say is that im here for you if you want to talk
 

Scorpio1990

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oh no man, that sounds dreadful. i wish i knew how to fix the anxiety and anhedonia for you. All i can say is that im here for you if you want to talk
Thank you brother, it’s been nightmare on elm street and it hasn’t gotten better. My gf or ex gf saw me at my lowest Sunday and I never thought I would come to this point. When I had my panic attack kinda hoping I was to pass out or just die there because the shame and embarrassment. Through out these months she never thought my withdrawals were serious and just thought my feelings for her changed but she saw how bad I am. It’s crazy how this can ruin and change peoples lives. We’re all so innocent not knowing the damage we do until we fall victims of addiction.
 

Daybyday1988

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Thank you brother, it’s been nightmare on elm street and it hasn’t gotten better. My gf or ex gf saw me at my lowest Sunday and I never thought I would come to this point. When I had my panic attack kinda hoping I was to pass out or just die there because the shame and embarrassment. Through out these months she never thought my withdrawals were serious and just thought my feelings for her changed but she saw how bad I am. It’s crazy how this can ruin and change peoples lives. We’re all so innocent not knowing the damage we do until we fall victims of addiction.
yeah man it really is awful how it can cause this for so many people and ruin so many relationships. but hopefully you are only going through a dark period and are going to be coming out of the other side of the tunnel soon
 
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