Believe in the Process

Hunter_

Hunter_

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I want to leave this addiction for more than a year now. I have been tracking my rebooting process and i am not consistent and relapse Every week atleast once. But I won't stop trying untill i make myself pornfree.

I believe the first step for the recovery is accepting the addiction.Now i have accepted my addiction by posting this. I am more relieved that here no one will judge me for having this worthless addiction.

Like some peoples in the forum i am also going to follow these things till May end.
1) updating my journal everyday about my success.
2) reading others experience on overcoming this addiction.
 
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Hunter_

Hunter_

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It's Day 1
No urges, but also there is no motivation to do anything productive. Just passed the whole time binge watching a series.

After being hit by this addiction, i am caring less about being productive and focusing more on passing time with some worthless activities. Hoping i will break this cycle and be back to real me.
 
Phineas 808

Phineas 808

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Welcome, Hunter! This is a great place to find that healing.

The lack of motivation and caring less about productivity is all about the dopamine receptors being damaged from these behaviors. Give it time, as you said, 'Believe the Process', and your brain will heal itself.

You got this.
 
Hunter_

Hunter_

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Day 2
No urges.
Today went really well, i started my meditation routine again and have done some task which I have been procrastinating form last week.


Phineas 808 said:
Welcome, Hunter! This is a great place to find that healing.

The lack of motivation and caring less about productivity is all about the dopamine receptors being damaged from these behaviors. Give it time, as you said, 'Believe the Process', and your brain will heal itself.

You got this.
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Hey Phineas,
Yes my reward system is recovering. i enjoying music more than before,also i am feeling the sense of satisfaction after completion of tasks.

But after every relapse i go to this mindset that i can't control this addiction and i need to surrender to this. This make me depressing which is directly affecting my career.

The only super power i had was my discipline but now I can see it is destroying into pieces after every relapses. Even after all this there is a part of me telling i can come out of this and can achieve great success in my career.

I believe I can do this🥲.
 
Hunter_

Hunter_

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Day 4

No urges -> No P.

Yesterday I happened to read this Thread 'Finally, I'm doing this…' by @Ezel , WOW! It was awesome. I will recommend it if you haven't read this yet. This Thread was about the experience of his previous rebooting attempt, how he relapsed, what he is doing to avoid it and also about his current rebooting journey.

After reading stories and having some experience myself i realised that porn is something which I have to quit forever but it is also equally important to able to deal with the shame/depression after every relapse to move forward in rebooting again.
 
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Ezel

Ezel

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Hunter_ said:
Day 4

No urges -> No P.

Yesterday I happened to read this Thread 'Finally, I'm doing this…' by @Ezel , WOW! It was awesome. I will recommend it if you haven't read this yet. This Thread was about the experience of his previous rebooting attempt, how he relapsed, what he is doing to avoid it and also about his current rebooting journey.

After reading stories and having some experience myself i realised that porn is something which I have to quit forever but it is also equally important to able to deal with the shame/depression after every relapse to move forward in rebooting again.
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I'm glad it helped partner, my advice is to never go back to watch that filth ever again, it's not worth it at all my man. I know what I said is too idealistic, slip ups happen around the road, but the important thing to remember is there's this awesome community that will keep encouraging you no matter what. You don't have to fight this battle alone. My journey wouldn't be possible without this forum, I'm so lucky i found it.
Onwards my friend 🙂. Keep pushing.
 
Galatians51

Galatians51

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Hunter_ said:
Day 5 😌

Had an urge to watch P but I overcame by asking myself, whether I want spoil my life for a few moments of happiness which worth nothing but to give free shame and depression after watching.
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great job man! I find when I take a moment to reflect before just giving into my urges it helps me stay clean

and you're right - the momentary pleasure is definitely not worth the shame and depression that will follow
 
Hunter_

Hunter_

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Day 7

NO P - Praying to the god i should stay in this track life long. After started writing journal here, i feel more confident and have more strength to face the urges and also defeating it.

Let do this guys🙌
 
Ezel

Ezel

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Glad it didn't turn out ugly for you hunter. YouTube can be really full of landmines sometimes, just be mindful and don't fall for any traps. Isaac netero will be really proud of you hunter.
You're going to make it, I'm going to make it, we all gonna make it bruh 😜.
 
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Hunter_

Hunter_

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Day 9

Went to DJ night yesterday, slept like a baby the whole day, Feel relaxed and no urges to P.

Ezel said:
Glad it didn't turn out ugly for you hunter. YouTube can be really full of landmines sometimes, just be mindful and don't fall for any traps. Isaac netero will be really proud of you hunter.
You're going to make it, I'm going to make it, we all gonna make it bruh 😜.
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Yes YouTube is always the main culprit for my relapses, i should be careful when using it, Btw thanks for encouraging 🙂.
 
Hunter_

Hunter_

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Day 10 😀

Had a wet-dream yesterday night, got urges to P since then, and the urges increased after seeing few good looking girls in my campus, but I am determined not to watch P in anycase by repeating simply NO to the thoughts.

Always trying to remember the below line in my subconscious mind...
Momentary pleasure definitely not worth the shame and depression that will follow.
 
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