So I am a 49-year-old porn addict who has been dealing with this addiction for most of my adult life. I am married and I have 4 boys, 2 are now adults by age only. My porn use was hidden from everyone for years and I did have periods of quitting for a while when the shame got unbearable and when I realized I had a problem. Then in 2017, I lost my job of 20 years as a project manager and even though I didn't look at porn at work after I found out what porn does to your life it was definitely a factor. When I lost my job it sent me into a downward spiral where I pulled away from my family and went deep into my addiction. Fast forward about 4 years and my drug of choice is hookup sites. One day I was in the living room while my wife was 5 feet away looking at these sites with probably 50 tabs open, my wife asked me to go pick up the pizza so I thought I closed everything up and left. While I was gone my sweet wife innocently grabbed my laptop to show my 19-year-old son something and there it was all of those tabs still open just sitting there. So not only did my wife's whole world blow up, but my son was there to witness it. When my wife questioned me I explained that I wasn't physically hooking up with other women I was using the sites like porn. I thought I was on maybe 20 or 30 of these sites, my wife found my profile on over 100 websites. So after a lot of work, we are still married and getting closer daily. I went through a 16-week program that was great and I am still involved with it but I need more community. I don't have really any friends that I could trust with this and I work at home so I don't even get a lot of adult conversation. My wife told me about Reboot Nation so I decided to check it out and so far it looks like a great place.
My journey towards a great life
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Welcome and thank you for sharing.
You can use this site for 2 excellent purposes:
1. Read other people's posts and find understanding and solutions about yourself and your challenges.
2. Write your journals to better understand yourself and reinforce your plans and actions.
I personally felt the habit of journalling helped me tremendously to look at my challenges in new light and reinforced healthier habits like gratitude and recognizing happiness in my life.
All addictions are a form of escapism. We escape because we either cannot or are unwilling to deal with our challenges head on.
But that's because our methods of dealing are either too harsh or too impractical.
Journalling helps to moderate world view and promote healther methods.
It's been nothing but good things for me ever since I started journalling here.
Wishing you the best
Welcome and thank you for sharing.
You can use this site for 2 excellent purposes:
1. Read other people's posts and find understanding and solutions about yourself and your challenges.
2. Write your journals to better understand yourself and reinforce your plans and actions.
I personally felt the habit of journalling helped me tremendously to look at my challenges in new light and reinforced healthier habits like gratitude and recognizing happiness in my life.
All addictions are a form of escapism. We escape because we either cannot or are unwilling to deal with our challenges head on.
But that's because our methods of dealing are either too harsh or too impractical.
Journalling helps to moderate world view and promote healther methods.
It's been nothing but good things for me ever since I started journalling here.
Wishing you the best