Day 0
I’m sad to report a relapse but I know it is an important thing to do to get back on track.
Before getting into what caused the relapse, I wanted to share a few positives. Since joining the forum earlier in the year, I’ve had a few of my best months ever in terms of confidence, motivation and relationships. It has helped me tremendously being in this group. I feel like I’m on the right trajectory and will eventually have this addiction behind me.
Now for the relapse. These aren’t excuses but I do feel like it is important to share what put me in a low and vulnerable state to learn from it. I just got back from a vacation celebrating my 30th birthday. It was a great time but I consumed a lot of junk food and alcohol and did not get the best sleep. There were also multiple triggers that I should have handled better like having my guard up around attractive women. I cracked the door just a little and the itch started and I started thinking illogically.
next time, I need to journal more and collect my thoughts.
I need to limit my alcohol consumption the next time I drink and not stray too far from my diet.
This one stings but I have to pick myself up and keep moving forward.