15 years flatline, depression, anxiety is defeated!

arcana

Member
It's my time to write this story. Although I am not 100% cured yet, but I am definitely happy and feel good and see this reality as it really is.
I am 27 years old, addicted to porn at the age of 12-13 years. This addiction gradually captured me that I was used to living in it, anxiety and depression and a small lifeless penis were my norm. Severe social anxiety. And only when I tried to have sex at the age of 23, I realized that something was wrong with me. He didn't get up, his head was full of thoughts and fantasies from the scenes. At that moment I was destroyed. After that, a girl left me after 3 months. I was lying and crying and didn't know what to do. I got on the Internet and read about porn addiction.
Since that moment, July 2019 (I was 23 years old) I stopped watching porn. But he continued to masturbate and wait for everything to recover. In total depression, anxiety, social anxiety and a flat line, I spent all three years until 2022. I did a 3-month hard regime, then I didn't see the benefits, again I masturbated without porn. Then I did 6 a monthly hard regime, but almost 0 changes. Very little. And only a year ago, in February 2022, I started a hard regime that changed me a lot. After about half a year, I began to feel life below the belt, as the penis slowly comes to life and becomes big. Yes, I have completely given up alcohol since 2019 too.

At the moment, although I have small flat lines, they are rare and weak. I have a constant morning erection for 3 months and a great mood. The girls seem fantastically beautiful. Although sometimes the emissions put me in a little stupor, but it passes quickly. This is a great victory for me, a person, if not the biggest, then one of the most difficult cases. I couldn't even get an erection on porn. And for many years he masturbated with a sluggish penis. I thought I was incurable. Because in the first 3 years, I saw a little progress. But the hard regime changed everything. For 3-4 years I lay and cried and thought about suicide. But this forum and books helped me to see the light at the end of the tunnel and self-belief. So that you understand to what degree I was dependent, I could not go further to the store and ask something at the bus stop. Severe depression and social anxiety paralyzed me. Panic attacks. Who would have thought that porn addiction is to blame for everything?
Now I easily flirt with girls, I feel energy, attention, how they look at me and get a lot of compliments. My attitude in the family is improving, I used to sit and be silent all the time because I was just depressed and anxious, I couldn't say a single sentence. But I walked slowly and confidently step by step and now I see the brightest and best changes. My dick has become big and sensitive.
Guys, believe in rebooting and never watch porn. Good luck to everyone! Write! I will answer all the questions.
I'm Russian, so I used a translator, sorry.

I didn't know this life without addiction. I've always been anxious, depressed. And even such a brain recovers, slowly and surely. I already thought that I would have to wait 10 years or even all eternity ... I lay and cried without energy, without strength, without friends, without a girlfriend ... just emptiness and a little hope…
 
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I am a straight guy , even after seeing a real women naked , i am not getting aroused . But in my mind i want to have s*x with her.... Have you faced this situation? ( I have watched porn for almost 10+ years like you and masterbated everyday once/twice/thrice). How much time do you think it will take to recover from this situation?
I am already on day 86 with NO PMO and masterbated once without watching porn . I am soon going to get married and worried about my future :(
 

arcana

Member
Yes, I have. Switch to the hard mode and nature itself will rebuild your brain in the initial settings of the system. When you feel the attraction and lack of symptoms of addiction, go into reconfiguration and sex.

It took me 3 years without porn and 1 year of hard mode. So that my brain starts to come into balance. Everyone has different brains. Depends on many factors
 
Yes, I have. Switch to the hard mode and nature itself will rebuild your brain in the initial settings of the system. When you feel the attraction and lack of symptoms of addiction, go into reconfiguration and sex.

It took me 3 years without porn and 1 year of hard mode. So that my brain starts to come into balance. Everyone has different brains. Depends on many factors
Thank you very much for the response bro and by the congratulations on your success ! Your story is almost my story . I can feel what you have gone through and i am currently facing almost similar problems. One day I will write my own success story like you :)
 
Oh man. What a story. I can relate with many many things. I am 26 years old and I did PMO (porn, masturbation, orgasm) from age 13-22. By end of March I will finish 39 months hardmode. No relapse. No conscious ejaculation, so no masturbation.

"I could not go further to the store and ask something at the bus stop. Severe depression and social anxiety paralyzed me. Panic attacks. Who would have thought that porn addiction is to blame for everything? I used to sit and be silent all the time because I was just depressed and anxious, I couldn't say a single sentence."

I can relate so much. I still have this problems.

July 2019 - February 2023 - This are 44 months. You wrote that you masturbated during your process.

1. How was the frequency ?

2. Did you have sex during these 44 months ?

"Now I easily flirt with girls, I feel energy, attention, how they look at me and get a lot of compliments. My attitude in the family is improving. But I walked slowly and confidently step by step and now I see the brightest and best changes. My dick has become big and sensitive."

3. At which month would you say you felt like this ?

4. What for symptoms do you have nowadays ?

5. What did you do during this 44 months ? Did you work or were you unemployed ?

6. What has helped you during these 44 months ?

7. Can you give me an advise ?

You may already read it but anyways... Check my latest 36 months post. :

My 36 months post

Congrats again man.

Thanks and greetings

Experiment1996
 
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arcana

Member
Yes, I masturbated for the first 3 years with a frequency of once a month, doing small hard modes. But I didn't notice much progress, as I fantasized while masturbating and reinforced these neural pathways. Since February 2022, I have switched to a hard mode (without porn, masturbation and fantasies) and for the last 3 months I have seen amazing changes, these are not just jumps of a flat line, as it was before. This is a clear recovery.
I went to work in any condition, by force, looked like an antisocial worm, I gave up alcohol and all kinds of drugs, I did sports (horizontal bars), I followed a sleep regime.
Now I sometimes experience light flat lines that are practically not felt. The penis is still big and sensitive)
 

arcana

Member
From the age of 15, I just started to feel all the symptoms and was in a constant flat line and numb genitals, I just didn't understand what was wrong with me. At 12-13, he started masturbating immediately to porn.

I will give this advice: the greatest changes can occur in the last 2-3 months of the reboot, so I believe in you! Keep pushing on!

I just came up and met a very beautiful girl, I told her: I liked you!
It's so simple, even though she answered: I'm sorry!
But I'm not desperate, I feel strong and confident, well, no, no) I'm proud that I didn't piss off and came up and got acquainted, although I wouldn't have come up before and then reproached myself! Like a loser! I'm not afraid of rejection!
 
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Red Moon

Member
From the age of 15, I just started to feel all the symptoms and was in a constant flat line and numb genitals, I just didn't understand what was wrong with me. At 12-13, he started masturbating immediately to porn.

I will give this advice: the greatest changes can occur in the last 2-3 months of the reboot, so I believe in you! Keep pushing on!

I just came up and met a very beautiful girl, I told her: I liked you!
It's so simple, even though she answered: I'm sorry!
But I'm not desperate, I feel strong and confident, well, no, no) I'm proud that I didn't piss off and came up and got acquainted, although I wouldn't have come up before and then reproached myself! Like a loser! I'm not afraid of rejection!
Congratulations for your recovery. Long reboot posts are always welcomed.

1 - You no longer have genital numbness ?

2 - Do you have a normal, functional libido ( sexual drive ) ?

3 - Did you have frequent urination issues during the FLATLINE ?

4 - Do you have the ability to feel pleasure with small activities ?

Cheers.
 
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arcana

Member
1. There is no numbness, it decreased gradually. Coming and going.
2. In general, yes, but it seems to me that orgasms can still cause small flatlines, barely noticeable.
3. Urination has always been normal.
4. Yes, my mind clears up every month, my reactions to stress decrease, I enjoy small things, such as: communication, looking at women, music is pleasant, movies are interesting, everyday affairs are easier. More energy in general. Motivation.
Although I repeat, I am not 100% cured. There are small symptoms on the background, but they are so insignificant that they blur if you do not pay attention to them.
 
1. How was your frequency during your PMO time ?

2. Did you do "edging" during your PMO time ?

3. Did you escalate in fetishes ? At which age did you escalate in fetishes ?

4. Did you watch other categories than heterosexual ? At which age did you start watching other categories than heterosexual ?

5. Have you taken any medication or drugs since July 2019 ?

6. Was your social anxiety and depression worse during PMO time or when you were in the flatline ?

7. Does the world have colours again? I hope you understand this question.
 

LizisMick

New Member
It's inspiring to hear how you've experienced positive changes in your life since quitting porn and committing to a hard regime. It's amazing to see how you've regained your confidence, improved your relationships, and noticed physical changes as well. Your perseverance and determination are commendable.
 

Giri

Member
Yes, I have. Switch to the hard mode and nature itself will rebuild your brain in the initial settings of the system. When you feel the attraction and lack of symptoms of addiction, go into reconfiguration and sex.

It took me 3 years without porn and 1 year of hard mode. So that my brain starts to come into balance. Everyone has different brains. Depends on many factors
Hardmode means?? How u practised??
 

Relentless Observer

Active Member
It's my time to write this story. Although I am not 100% cured yet, but I am definitely happy and feel good and see this reality as it really is.
I am 27 years old, addicted to porn at the age of 12-13 years. This addiction gradually captured me that I was used to living in it, anxiety and depression and a small lifeless penis were my norm. Severe social anxiety. And only when I tried to have sex at the age of 23, I realized that something was wrong with me. He didn't get up, his head was full of thoughts and fantasies from the scenes. At that moment I was destroyed. After that, a girl left me after 3 months. I was lying and crying and didn't know what to do. I got on the Internet and read about porn addiction.
Since that moment, July 2019 (I was 23 years old) I stopped watching porn. But he continued to masturbate and wait for everything to recover. In total depression, anxiety, social anxiety and a flat line, I spent all three years until 2022. I did a 3-month hard regime, then I didn't see the benefits, again I masturbated without porn. Then I did 6 a monthly hard regime, but almost 0 changes. Very little. And only a year ago, in February 2022, I started a hard regime that changed me a lot. After about half a year, I began to feel life below the belt, as the penis slowly comes to life and becomes big. Yes, I have completely given up alcohol since 2019 too.

At the moment, although I have small flat lines, they are rare and weak. I have a constant morning erection for 3 months and a great mood. The girls seem fantastically beautiful. Although sometimes the emissions put me in a little stupor, but it passes quickly. This is a great victory for me, a person, if not the biggest, then one of the most difficult cases. I couldn't even get an erection on porn. And for many years he masturbated with a sluggish penis. I thought I was incurable. Because in the first 3 years, I saw a little progress. But the hard regime changed everything. For 3-4 years I lay and cried and thought about suicide. But this forum and books helped me to see the light at the end of the tunnel and self-belief. So that you understand to what degree I was dependent, I could not go further to the store and ask something at the bus stop. Severe depression and social anxiety paralyzed me. Panic attacks. Who would have thought that porn addiction is to blame for everything?
Now I easily flirt with girls, I feel energy, attention, how they look at me and get a lot of compliments. My attitude in the family is improving, I used to sit and be silent all the time because I was just depressed and anxious, I couldn't say a single sentence. But I walked slowly and confidently step by step and now I see the brightest and best changes. My dick has become big and sensitive.
Guys, believe in rebooting and never watch porn. Good luck to everyone! Write! I will answer all the questions.
I'm Russian, so I used a translator, sorry.

I didn't know this life without addiction. I've always been anxious, depressed. And even such a brain recovers, slowly and surely. I already thought that I would have to wait 10 years or even all eternity ... I lay and cried without energy, without strength, without friends, without a girlfriend ... just emptiness and a little hope…
Thank you for the inspiring story. I struggled the last 6 years with little progress -- in that time i M'ed frequently and with fantasy with weak erections.
I am in a hard mode, currently about 4 months in and I hope this is the path. I shall not P ever again and I will not M or O until I am frequently getting strong erections and MW.
Thank you for the inspiration.
 
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