Over and out


Day 133

today I realized I have reached the target I set for myself months ago . It’s a 133 days since I started this journey and I have a few things to get off my chest .
1. When I started this journey I was at a point where I didn’t think it was possible by any means to be free from pornography and PMO, I was 15 years deep into this addiction
2. I had began to notice the very signs of PEID and even though I had one or two instances in the past where my penis didn’t come up , I assumed it was probably one of those days and it wasn’t up until November last year that I failed 3 times back to back to back and it shook me to the core .
3. this journey has been hard at times , I’ve fought through some unbearable days , days where my Brian craved at unbearable levels and I managed to come through even with the presence of things that were sooo triggering on the internet, I did this with pure willpower because I was determined to not destroy my relationship with someone whom I met in November and loved very much
4. In this journey so far I masturbated 3 times without the consumption of porn the first was when I was having phone sex with significant other , the other two times by myself when my libido was insanely high and didn’t have my significant other near me and I also didn’t want to cheat on her. The last two times I also did without consuming or looking at porn , just my hormones and erect penis asking for sex .
5. I went into the gym , exercised a lot and my body became healthy , I didn’t have PEID from the 2nd month but had some anxiety issues with eventually went away . I am at point where I don’t even think about pornography, it doesn’t even matter what I see on the internet no matter how provocative. It almost like my Brian has totally shut it out .

6. I am healthy , my mind is healthy , my penis is healthy. Today I am closing this thread and hoping someone can see this and know that they can fight through this addiction, notwithstanding our journeys are different and might take you a longer time but I can say I am now okay and have zero intentions of going back , sometimes I can’t even believe I was hooked into this stuff in the first place . I may lurk around from time to time but I may not have the energy nor consistency to update this thread so I have decided this might be my last . On that note , Gentlemen ! I take a bow


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Congratulations on your full recovery from a 15 year addiction. I myself have been an addict for around the same amount of time as you and I am closing in on 120 days free from PMO as well. For me i know it is going to take me a long time because i escalated into some pretty extreme genres and my brain wont recover from that crap as fast. Thank you for sharing your success story bro. It helps me and all of us to hear that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Thanks for your contributions and God's speed!