Doing things differently this time

[Qwertyxyz]

Exhausted, a challenging time at work but it will pass. Can’t wait to get home. Had an issue at work as a drill leader, more than anxiety I think it was a type trauma response, dealing with a lot of that lately.

 

[Qwertyxyz]

Home in a few days. It’s tough going at the moment, Autism has many challenges, work is complex right now.

 

[Qwertyxyz]

I may take some stress leave. Things have been challenging lately and my brain needs a few tweaks.

 

[Qwertyxyz]

Great to have a break from work, in recovery mode right now but will get active done. Need to get my zip back

 

[Qwertyxyz]

I think I’m going to take some leave and try to sort some things out. There is a lot going on right now and I need some time to process things.

 

[Qwertyxyz]

Feeling reflective today, more self aware. I have lost a lot of my rhythm with things lately. In a better place, heading out of town soon to clear my head.

 

[Qwertyxyz]

I feel like I was coping with porn use for a while but now it’s taking a toll. That’s what makes me an addict, I can use normally for a bit but eventually my mental health gets affected and I get a bit depressed and feel powerless to control things. I hope I get it this time.

 

[Qwertyxyz]

Porn can make me loose so much hope. I can do a lot of mitigating stuff that helps a bit but it always ends up deeply affecting me in a negative way, more anxious, depressed, a sense of powerlessness, isolation, loss of opportunity, loss of trust.

 

[Percival]

Porn can make me loose so much hope. I can do a lot of mitigating stuff that helps a bit but it always ends up deeply affecting me in a negative way, more anxious, depressed, a sense of powerlessness, isolation, loss of opportunity, loss of trust.

It does, it really does. It feels fun in the moment, and (sometimes) even like it's not so bad. But it always leads to more, and that always leads to hopelessness. Which is why what we are doing here is so freeing. Keep at it!

 

[Qwertyxyz]

Had a few days up and acted out this morning. But feeling much better about giving in another good try. When I get a sense of what porn does to my anxiety and mental health I get focused again.

 

[Qwertyxyz]

Seeing a lawyer on Wednesday, that’s a first. I’m very stressed and want to use this as a time to stay focused and not act out.

Have read about IFS therapy and am benefitting by seeing myself as having different parts, like I’m talking directly to the part of me that is distressed and craves, it helps a lot.