darkghost709
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I had a traumatic childhood because my dad was a drunk and my mom as an overprotective and manipulative woman which made me very clingy to her because I was afraid of my dad.
Also I was bullied so I thought I would never get a girlfriend so I became even more isolated, so I ended up being trapped by the internet and that's where I found hentai as an 11 year old kid. I thought it was harmless because they were drawings. The thing is most of the characters that appeared in the drawings were kids just like me banging adult women which felt thrilling at the time. The biggest issue with it is that most of those comics were incest-themed.
I kept masturbating exclusively to that for years, I even masturbated thinking about my mom because the incest forums messed me even more so I ended up fetishizing my trauma too.
I deleted all my porn pictures, I'm doing nofap, I'm trying to forgive my mom for her short comings and all but I still can only get aroused only if I think a woman is related to me or something, like I don't need to think about my mom to get off, I could focus on a attractive woman and picture as my mom, but if I don't do that I cannot get hard
What can I do?
Also I was bullied so I thought I would never get a girlfriend so I became even more isolated, so I ended up being trapped by the internet and that's where I found hentai as an 11 year old kid. I thought it was harmless because they were drawings. The thing is most of the characters that appeared in the drawings were kids just like me banging adult women which felt thrilling at the time. The biggest issue with it is that most of those comics were incest-themed.
I kept masturbating exclusively to that for years, I even masturbated thinking about my mom because the incest forums messed me even more so I ended up fetishizing my trauma too.
I deleted all my porn pictures, I'm doing nofap, I'm trying to forgive my mom for her short comings and all but I still can only get aroused only if I think a woman is related to me or something, like I don't need to think about my mom to get off, I could focus on a attractive woman and picture as my mom, but if I don't do that I cannot get hard
What can I do?