The Road Less Travelled

Shodan

Shodan

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Much much much appreciated my bro! Last time I walked this high road thinking I was over the hill but this time my guard has remained up and firmly UP! I’m happy to have come this far and everyday from here is further than I’ve ever been, hope fully it’s the same for you. I can see you’re at 510+ days which is amazing! Can you see it? Can you see the finish line?! It’s within sight for us both and GODSPEED for it!

Let’s finish it!
 
Blondie

Blondie

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Shodan said:
I’m happy to have come this far and everyday from here is further than I’ve ever been
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THIS! This is what I love about counting and knowing in general where you're at, because the feeling you get knowing you're beyond anything you've ever done before is contagious and builds momentum. :cool:

Shodan said:
Can you see it? Can you see the finish line?! It’s within sight for us both and GODSPEED for it!
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Yes I can. I'll see you there.

Let's remember our lessons and keep on trucking.

Best
 
Shodan

Shodan

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It’s crazy isn’t it! You get to this stage and realise something like “aah, so this is what it feels like”. I’m amazingly inspired going forward. Remember our lessons YES! Thou must never forget lest we start from scratch which I will NEVER and I do mean NEVER go through again!

Let’s get it!
 
Shodan

Shodan

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Blondie said:
How's it feel, @Shodan, being PAST two years clean? You're in new territory. :cool:

Thanks for inspiring.

Love,
Blondie
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Hey @Blondie, 2 years and 2 weeks today and it feels amazing. If I’m honest, I’m happy to sit where I currently am within myself and enjoy, rather bask, in this unchartered sense of freedom. I’m not greatly concerned about rewiring just yet. When the time comes the time comes but it isn’t a priority. It’s crazy when I think that in all the years I’ve been alive (38) this is the most liberated I’ve been my entire adult life and certainly since I was 14 years old. I’ve sort of reached a point where p.o.r.never is a distant memory. I’ll be vigilant my whole life about never falling back down that shit-hole I crawled out of (like wow, I was actually there once!) but no more or less vigilant than I am about never shooting heroin or smoking crack (things I’ve never done btw). The dangers are everywhere but so is my awareness, OUR AWARENESS. This is the stage where our experience in the toxic world and our efforts to escape it will ensure our safety, survival and our ability to thrive in the long term. Imagine, there are millions around the globe who, unlike us, are COMPLETELY UNAWARE. I’m glad I’ve made it this far and I’m calmly-excited about the future. Your are where you are supposed to be my friend, on your walk to freedom! VIVE LA LIBERTÉ! 🫡

Love,
Shodan
 
Blondie

Blondie

Respected Member
Shodan said:
Hey @Blondie, 2 years and 2 weeks today and it feels amazing.
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Dude, I'm so fucking happy for you. To get to that new horizon, whether that be 3 days, 90 days, or 2 years is exhilarating. Compared to the days of looking at porn, it's a high that porn can never compare with.
Shodan said:
If I’m honest, I’m happy to sit where I currently am within myself and enjoy, rather bask, in this unchartered sense of freedom.
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Please, bask in it! :cool:
Shodan said:
It’s crazy when I think that in all the years I’ve been alive (38) this is the most liberated I’ve been my entire adult life and certainly since I was 14 years old.
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Yes, I get this. To count all the days and all the years can be a humbling experience, but here we are, never giving up and experiencing freedom like never before.
Shodan said:
I’ve sort of reached a point where p.o.r.never is a distant memory. I’ll be vigilant my whole life about never falling back down that shit-hole I crawled out of (like wow, I was actually there once!) but no more or less vigilant than I am about never shooting heroin or smoking crack (things I’ve never done btw). The dangers are everywhere but so is my awareness, OUR AWARENESS. This is the stage where our experience in the toxic world and our efforts to escape it will ensure our safety, survival and our ability to thrive in the long term
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Yes. At the stage, it's about learning more how to deal with the world and its stresses than about "fighting" porn per se. I definitely get what you mean here. The whole thing about being vigilant your whole life rings true for me too. I used to think that seemed "too much work" to always "be on your guard" but now it seems easy compared to crawling out of the pit that is porn.
Shodan said:
Imagine, there are millions around the globe who, unlike us, are COMPLETELY UNAWARE. I’m glad I’ve made it this far and I’m calmly-excited about the future. Your are where you are supposed to be my friend, on your walk to freedom! VIVE LA LIBERTÉ! 🫡
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Yes, this is a crazy thing to think about. There are millions out there, and they have no idea. Pat on the back for us.

Thanks for the love my man.

Keep killing it and enjoy your freedom everyday.
 
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Shodan

Shodan

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800 days. EIGHT-HUNDRED DAYS! Well, WOW! I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again I AM NOT CELEBRATING. Only coming this far was not the goal, the goal was and firmly is to stay free and clear of the open sewer we call P-O-R-N. Even though my guard stays up I don’t live with this sense of impending danger because there is none. Yes, sex is everywhere because it sells but I’m not interested in buying. I want to HAVE IT, i am no longer interested in watching it or watching other people have it. As time goes on I sort of realise more and more just how disconnected from reality P made me. Like, how did I ever become so enamoured with pixelated-p*ssy that I lost all interest in the real thing? I even reached the point where I’d lost interest in straight-s*x and was drawn to darker material. How? Furthermore, why? While I could still kick myself until next Sunday for all the time I wasted, as I said, I now realise how lost I was. My mind was fucked with a capitol F, but I have since regained myself and my senses. My sense of self-worth. I’ve since learned to cherish the only body I will ever have. I’ve learned that while my mind is fragile I am currently the strongest thinker I have ever been. I am increasingly grateful to have reached this point and I will enjoy this moment, this day. However, I am already looking ahead and focused on one-thousand days. The reason I’ve set my mind to this trajectory is because if I have something to focus on, something to level-up to then my head will stay down and I will remain focused on transforming myself further. At no point do I want to become so comfortable that I forget why I started, at least not for the foreseeable future. There will come a day when I can put all of this out of my mind and just go for it in life but for now the healing path continues. Growth is all I am after and I am increasingly appreciative for the gift of life. Real life. A thing porn had denied me for far too long. Recovery is not merely about sex or having a healthy response to it. It’s about reclaiming the will to live life to the fullest and my days grow ever brighter because of this notion.

Godspeed

Best wishes

Shodan
 
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