I am huge fan of hard mode by the way. Full card carrying secretary of the supporters club. So I am in awe of those who go down this route. Good for you. Hope you know what you’re letting yourself in for.
My reference to mindful masturbation is that this is, so say the expert therapists, the only way to masturbate without doing some form of harm to your brain. So if one masturbates to porn or fantasy then you’re creating neural pathways which stop your brain from functioning properly. By “mindful” it is meant to be purely for one’s own pleasure Literally enjoying the sensation alone. It’s ok, I can’t do it either!