Zero to One -Daily journal
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chap
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battle it out @Clouds&Dirt , let us know how ur doing too! ur doing great, continue to keep urself occupied. onward!
chap
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@Clouds&Dirt , how are u doing? hope u r well 
Clouds&Dirt
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Day 1
Unfortunately, I relapsed
I felt bad about it for a bit, but
that's the past. Now, I must change something and try again
I've noticed that I'm usually the most motivated to be rid of porn in the mornings. I've also noticed that I'm most vulnerable to porn urges late at night
My new plan is to write here twice a day, once in the morning and one at night before I go to sleep. I'm hoping that bringing myself to the forums late at night will give me a boost of motivation and accountability at the time when I tend to be most vulnerable
Idk, there's something "embarrassing" (that's not the right word, but I can't think of a better one) about struggling and then writing about it, so I stopped writing. But in hindsight, writing here always boosts my motivation, so why would I stop when I need it most? This time, I won't stop writing, even when the urges get pretty strong again. I also appreciate the support from the people who checked in on me when I stopped writing, like Chap and Blondie.
Not sure if you guys are familiar with videogame terms, but this feels like a roguelike. Learning from my mistakes, getting stronger every run until I beat this
Onwards
-Clouds&Dirt
Unfortunately, I relapsed
I felt bad about it for a bit, but
that's the past. Now, I must change something and try again
I've noticed that I'm usually the most motivated to be rid of porn in the mornings. I've also noticed that I'm most vulnerable to porn urges late at night
My new plan is to write here twice a day, once in the morning and one at night before I go to sleep. I'm hoping that bringing myself to the forums late at night will give me a boost of motivation and accountability at the time when I tend to be most vulnerable
Idk, there's something "embarrassing" (that's not the right word, but I can't think of a better one) about struggling and then writing about it, so I stopped writing. But in hindsight, writing here always boosts my motivation, so why would I stop when I need it most? This time, I won't stop writing, even when the urges get pretty strong again. I also appreciate the support from the people who checked in on me when I stopped writing, like Chap and Blondie.
Not sure if you guys are familiar with videogame terms, but this feels like a roguelike. Learning from my mistakes, getting stronger every run until I beat this
Onwards
-Clouds&Dirt
chap
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thanks for being honest and vulnerable with urself and us @Clouds&Dirt, the road to recovery has many bumps along the way, so it isn’t an easy trek. i’m very proud of u and glad to hear that u already recognize potential areas of improvement and have a measure of countering it.
i’m in day 3 of no MO and it’s around this time that i have the insatiable urge to pleasure myself. seeing this post has given me the motivation and the accountability to get through the dark of today to see a brighter tomorrow. let’s get passed day one together! onwards
️ sailor!
i’m in day 3 of no MO and it’s around this time that i have the insatiable urge to pleasure myself. seeing this post has given me the motivation and the accountability to get through the dark of today to see a brighter tomorrow. let’s get passed day one together! onwards
️ sailor!Clouds&Dirt
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Day 1(night)
Another day without porn
-Clouds&Dirt
Another day without porn
-Clouds&Dirt
chap
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great job @Clouds&Dirt restart and keep ur eyes on what’s important and stay occupied. let’s get another day?
Clouds&Dirt
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Day 2
I don't expect much temptation today. For me, porn urges don't start getting intense until after the 1 week mark. I should note that that wasn't always the case! It used to get really tough around day 3. Baby steps
-Clouds&Dirt
I don't expect much temptation today. For me, porn urges don't start getting intense until after the 1 week mark. I should note that that wasn't always the case! It used to get really tough around day 3. Baby steps
-Clouds&Dirt
Clouds&Dirt
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Day 2 (night)
Another day without porn
-Clouds&Dirt
Another day without porn
-Clouds&Dirt
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Day 3
Feeling good today
-Clouds&Dirt
Feeling good today
-Clouds&Dirt
Clouds&Dirt
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Day 3 (night)
Smooth sailing
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Smooth sailing
-Clouds&Dirt
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Day 4
Decent day today. Keeping busy. I have some stressors coming up this weekend and I know stress is a trigger for me, so I need to stay focused and be careful
-Clouds&Dirt
Decent day today. Keeping busy. I have some stressors coming up this weekend and I know stress is a trigger for me, so I need to stay focused and be careful
-Clouds&Dirt
Clouds&Dirt
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Day 4 (night)
Another day without porn
-Clouds&Dirt
Another day without porn
-Clouds&Dirt
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Day 5
I always feel good on Fridays
-Clouds&Dirt
I always feel good on Fridays
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Clouds&Dirt
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Day 5 (night)
All good today
-Clouds&Dirt
All good today
-Clouds&Dirt
Clouds&Dirt
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Day 6
Today will be a good day.
I've started to feel that extra energy (horniness) that comes with not MOing for a while. Sexy images appearing in my dreams, morning wood, horny thoughts.
This is NOT tempting me to PMO, I'm just writing it down to get some of it out of my head and onto paper.
Today will be a good day
-Clouds&Dirt
Today will be a good day.
I've started to feel that extra energy (horniness) that comes with not MOing for a while. Sexy images appearing in my dreams, morning wood, horny thoughts.
This is NOT tempting me to PMO, I'm just writing it down to get some of it out of my head and onto paper.
Today will be a good day
-Clouds&Dirt
Clouds&Dirt
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Day 6 (night)
Today was a good day
-Clouds&Dirt
Today was a good day
-Clouds&Dirt
Clouds&Dirt
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Day 7
Busy day today, have a lot of work to do
-Clouds&Dirt
Busy day today, have a lot of work to do
-Clouds&Dirt
Clouds&Dirt
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Day 1
Watched some P yesterday morning. Took a peek and got sucked in. It happened in that hazy state when I'm first waking up. I use my phone as an alarm, which means that as soon as I wake up, it's in my hand. I'm gonna get an alarm clock instead, that way I can keep my phone out of my room when going to sleep. I'm not placing any blame on my phone, I take full responsibility, I just don't want to repeat this mistake
Lesson learned
-Clouds&Dirt
Watched some P yesterday morning. Took a peek and got sucked in. It happened in that hazy state when I'm first waking up. I use my phone as an alarm, which means that as soon as I wake up, it's in my hand. I'm gonna get an alarm clock instead, that way I can keep my phone out of my room when going to sleep. I'm not placing any blame on my phone, I take full responsibility, I just don't want to repeat this mistake
Lesson learned
-Clouds&Dirt
PrometheusUnbound
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Good idea about the alarm clock and keeping the phone out. It's something I've tried but want to go back to also.
Back in the saddle - you got this!