Day 7/30
Writing early today because I need to. I woke up with morning wood (good) and feeling PMO urges right away (bad). I'm writing to remind myself of how important abstaining is, and how the discomfort of the urges is actually a sign of healing. The only way out is through
On a different note, it's been 1 week of my "goal chasing" challenge. So far it's gone fairly well. I think I imagined I'd be more productive than I actually was, but I still made WAY more progress than I was before. For example, I only made it to the gym twice this week, but for a couple of months I wasn't going at all. That's still a big improvement. Plus I had a valid excuse in that I was out of town for a work trip for a few days, so I was unable to do some of my goals like working out or drawing.
This first week felt difficult, like I was forcing myself to do the things I want to do, but towards the end of the week I felt more excited to do them. It took a whole week for motivation to finally kick in. Hopefully it stays, but I'll keep moving forward regardless.
Oh, and I didn't miss a day with writing in this journal.
Proud of myself
-Clouds&Dirt