Zero to One -Daily journal

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Clouds&Dirt

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Day 3

Yesterday I had the thought of "maybe I can check if there is anything new real quick. I won't actually watch it, I can just check so that I'll stop wondering."

I caught myself having this thought and chuckled at how stupid the logic is. The crazy part is that I've fallen for this before. The only way to beat this addiction is to not negotiate with it at all. Not even a little bit.

-Clouds&dirt
 
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Clouds&Dirt

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Day 5

The idea of "Breaking a bad habit is more impactful than starting a new good habit" has really been helping me.

I'm always trying to keep up with my good habits of working out, eating right, making time for creativity, making time for socializing etc. And I feel bad when I waver in those habits. Recently I've been trying to fix my sleep schedule by forcing myself to go to sleep early and wake up early. I have a blocker on my phone that I use for porn, but I can also use it for other apps. So I've blocked all of the scrolling apps until 1PM and then again after 9PM so that I don't fall into doomscrolling early in the day or before bed. I've also tried to fill that idle scrolling time with reading, which is a much more intentional form of entertainment.

I mention all of this because I put so much effort into good habits that the perspective of "breaking a bad habit is more impactful" really helps me take this seriously by comparison. I put a lot of effort into going to the gym, and you're telling me that this is more impactful than that? Dang, that really puts into perspective how important this is.

Anyway 5 days in. Onward


-Clouds&Dirt
 
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Clouds&Dirt

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Day 5

My last few relapses have been around the 1 week mark. And right on schedule I have started to feel urges creeping up on me. I am on my guard. No peeking no matter what

-clouds &dirt
 
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Clouds&Dirt

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Day 2

I've been stuck in a cycle of relapsing over the weekend. For the past few weeks I've pmo'd once a week. I hadn't put my blockers up on my computer and had been trying to rely on willpower, but I clearly need the extra help, so I've restored the blockers to my computer and phone.

-Clouds&Dirt
 
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Clouds&Dirt

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Day 1

Still stuck in that ~1 week cycle, damn it. I need to change something about my routine because this ain't cutting it

-Clouds&Dirt
 
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