Will Stalwart
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Day 4
War of the cycle
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Will Stalwart
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Day 5
I’ve cleaned up some apps from my phone that were causing me to pick it up and mindlessly scroll. They had nothing to do with porn, but I realised when I picked up my phone I would never go straight to porn. Instead, I would open up something else and drift to it, almost like an excuse.
I’ve already felt how much easier it has made things, with the added bonus of freeing up a lot of my time that I wasted on staring at a screen.
I’ve cleaned up some apps from my phone that were causing me to pick it up and mindlessly scroll. They had nothing to do with porn, but I realised when I picked up my phone I would never go straight to porn. Instead, I would open up something else and drift to it, almost like an excuse.
I’ve already felt how much easier it has made things, with the added bonus of freeing up a lot of my time that I wasted on staring at a screen.
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Day 6
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Day 7
Porn is something that still bring me a lot of frustration and shame, and it is something that has consumed too much of my life already. Even the slightest slip or stumble leaves me feeling miserable for days after, and that is on top of the constant underlying self loathing for allowing myself to get sucked into it at all. I don’t think I can ever shift that feeling in my stomach until I have left this behind for good.
But overall, I am now feeling more positive about this than I have in the past. Not the false positivity I try to tell myself to get myself through, but a genuine feeling that I am getting somewhere. That I have improved, and that there is hope.
It has been a long journey of ups and downs to get here, including instances of totally giving up on myself. But I keep coming back, and even though I have failed time and again, I am starting to see the light at the end of it all.
Does this mean I’m cured and will never watch porn again. Probably not, despite my desire for it to be otherwise. But if I do fail, I know I can come back here and try again until I succeed for good.
Porn is something that still bring me a lot of frustration and shame, and it is something that has consumed too much of my life already. Even the slightest slip or stumble leaves me feeling miserable for days after, and that is on top of the constant underlying self loathing for allowing myself to get sucked into it at all. I don’t think I can ever shift that feeling in my stomach until I have left this behind for good.
But overall, I am now feeling more positive about this than I have in the past. Not the false positivity I try to tell myself to get myself through, but a genuine feeling that I am getting somewhere. That I have improved, and that there is hope.
It has been a long journey of ups and downs to get here, including instances of totally giving up on myself. But I keep coming back, and even though I have failed time and again, I am starting to see the light at the end of it all.
Does this mean I’m cured and will never watch porn again. Probably not, despite my desire for it to be otherwise. But if I do fail, I know I can come back here and try again until I succeed for good.
Will Stalwart
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Day 8
Will Stalwart
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Day 9
Worried about tomorrow as I post this after drinking (a lot). A consistent weak point of mine, I need to acknowledge the reality so I can avoid it when I wake up feeling like shit.
Worried about tomorrow as I post this after drinking (a lot). A consistent weak point of mine, I need to acknowledge the reality so I can avoid it when I wake up feeling like shit.
Will Stalwart
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Day 1
Felt like shit after a night drinking with some friends. Gave into it. Nothing more to it than that.
Felt like shit after a night drinking with some friends. Gave into it. Nothing more to it than that.