Day 258 and 0 again.
I had a big fight against porn today because I'm so frustrated that sex things haven't worked out with my wife despite the long reboot.
the only thing that saved me was the firewall and the protections of all the devices which codes I didn't remember when I deliberately made them so that I don't know them.
I think that i am stressed sex so much that my brains are in wrong mode to feel pleasure or enjoy to be with my wife.. some text from book
https://www.blinkist.com/books/why-zebras-dont-get-ulcers-en
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For men, stress leads to premature ejaculation and difficulty achieving an erection. The process of getting an erection is managed by the parasympathetic autonomic nervous system, which, as you recall, is responsible for slowing the body down. One has to be calm and relaxed to get an erection – that is, the opposite of stressed.
Orgasms, on the other hand, occur only after the heart and breathing rate increase through the sympathetic system. As such, sexual therapists recommend taking deep breaths to avoid climaxing early, as expanding the chest muscles produces a signal that promotes parasympathetic activity.
Erectile dysfunction and premature ejaculation are also major causes of stress, and since they typically occur during times of stress, this can cause men to become trapped in a vicious cycle of performance anxiety.
In women, stress decreases the production and secretion of the hormone estrogen, leading to irregular menstruation cycles and a loss of libido.
Estrogen plays a crucial rule in women’s sexuality by increasing the sensitivity of the genitals and other parts of the body. What’s more, the hormone also gets picked up by receptors in regions of the brain that are active during salacious thoughts.
Usually, estrogen is produced by converting another hormone called androgen. Under chronic stress, however, this conversion process comes to a halt, and androgen concentrations build up, inhibiting numerous steps in the reproductive system.”