Day 455 and 6. I add routines that lead my life in a positive direction to my everyday life. A short morning routine that prepares me for the day and reminds me of good things, and an evening routine that ends the day, lists my goals for the next day, and calms me down for sleep and rest.
Brother in this battle - My path to freedom
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Day 456 and 7. A terrible night, I woke up after a couple of hours with a neck pain and couldn't sleep. In the dark, tired, the devils whispered all the stories of failure about me in my ears. I listened to them and suffered. In the morning, in the daylight, the world seemed a little better, although the neck pain didn't go away right away. My wife massaged my shoulders and I felt a little better. I survived the day's challenges and concluded that you shouldn't believe the devils at night, they lie.
Day 463 and 14. hard to imagine that 463 days means a long joyrney. good days of fighting. Hard times. hope the brain fog has eased and I can focus on things a little at a time. one task at a time, take a break, strain and rest myself. focus and dare to be an genuine not always perfect person. Me. Little better version of me. Little more genuine version of me. Awesome.. i am so tired. Good to have little rest. Then focus on good things. Great!
Day 485 and 0. I have done hard and good work and excersice also. Now somehow when I take a little slower tempo I immediatelly start to go for a old habits.. 
I mastubate but even bigger than that is my way to try solve discomfort with it. Its not who I am anymore.
I focus on the good, I believe in myself and tomorrow. Failures in battles are part of the nature of war and I focus on overcoming myself for the good. There is nothing but the present. I cannot change yesterday and I cannot live in advance of tomorrow. I live now, I choose the right more often and I am grateful for every moment.
I mastubate but even bigger than that is my way to try solve discomfort with it. Its not who I am anymore. I focus on the good, I believe in myself and tomorrow. Failures in battles are part of the nature of war and I focus on overcoming myself for the good. There is nothing but the present. I cannot change yesterday and I cannot live in advance of tomorrow. I live now, I choose the right more often and I am grateful for every moment.
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Day 495 and 0. I still easily escape hard work and discomfort. And you might guess that where i escape is to masturbation. Or some other way to escape that fear. Drink beer or running. It's hard to be in the reboot phase, even though I've stayed away from porn, my attitude isn't quite right. I've done a lot of good, but the attraction to bad is in the background. I am little sad, even i have done great work to get back to worklife and done lot of good. Still i am addict, its there backround. I will continue this reboot, life is better that almost 500 days ago so its worth of that! 
Day 496 and 1. This is it.this is life! I don't have to exercise every day, but I do it because my lifestyle is sporty. I don't focus on the stress of the work, but I motivate myself to do my best and visualize a successful outcome. I'm not a jerking guy who avoids doing it, but I realize that it's no longer my coping strategy for the difficulties. Be strong, keep going and have mercy for yourself! (I motivated myself with these writings, and i feel its more meaningful if i think that somebody else might read these also)
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Day 498 and again 0. What to say, my life is quite normal but I live it sometimes hard way.
My goal is perfection and i never get there.
the pursuit of perfection comes from uncertainty and fear of failure. And when i fear, i escape to masturbation. Fear is normal for human, i need to accept it. I am okay even though I am afraid. I am accepted and loved just the way I am.
A person can never have enough of what they don't need.
A person endlessly strives to satisfy their desires. It doesn't work. Restlessness arises from satisfying desires.
Peace arises when one is aware of their true needs. Those related to love. Matter only calms down when spirit appears in matter.
Humility makes room for spirit.
Fuckkng awesome! Have a nice day with these weird thoughts
My goal is perfection and i never get there.
the pursuit of perfection comes from uncertainty and fear of failure. And when i fear, i escape to masturbation. Fear is normal for human, i need to accept it. I am okay even though I am afraid. I am accepted and loved just the way I am.
A person can never have enough of what they don't need.
A person endlessly strives to satisfy their desires. It doesn't work. Restlessness arises from satisfying desires.
Peace arises when one is aware of their true needs. Those related to love. Matter only calms down when spirit appears in matter.
Humility makes room for spirit.
Fuckkng awesome! Have a nice day with these weird thoughts
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Day 500 
and 2. This has been a long journey to this point.
I am currently learning to face my fears and insecurities. I still have an addictive mindset, when challenges come my mind immediately thinks of avoiding and escaping. However, I am learning to face difficulties.
This community has supported me for all these 500 days, a big thank you to all of you @GBS , @Blondie , @DIMA-NBA , @Scottie_B and all other ! Let's continue forward together!
and 2. This has been a long journey to this point. I am currently learning to face my fears and insecurities. I still have an addictive mindset, when challenges come my mind immediately thinks of avoiding and escaping. However, I am learning to face difficulties.
This community has supported me for all these 500 days, a big thank you to all of you @GBS , @Blondie , @DIMA-NBA , @Scottie_B and all other ! Let's continue forward together!
Proud of you @Freerider , great job buddy.
Blondie
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This is fantastic, @Freerider! Congratulations.
This is truly what it's all about. Learning to face life head on with pride and dignity. I'm so happy for you.
