And we are at it again... trying to quit after 28 years

[Dj Rascasse]

Day 40: Waouw long time I haven't been on the forum ! So many things have happened, traveling abroad, a lot of work. There was one small hickup in the hotel room one morning, mainly M with watching some soft porn. No very happy with this one, but it is the only one. It was also a recall that the fight is just begining, and that I have to be strong in the next months. If I manage to reach summer...
The sexual activity with my wife has been very good, and I seem to enjoy more making love to her a bit than just sex ejaculation done that might sometimes have happened before. Very happy about this.
For some minor medical reasons (start of arthrosis), I also had to change my diet the last 10 days -> no sugar and low-carb. Nothing related to PME or porn addiction, but my mind is getting super challenged these days.
And believe it or not, I feel super good, both at home and at work.

 

[Dj Rascasse]

Day 56: one M relapse. Had two moments of Youtube yoga watching ... And then one M as a consequence of that. But no porn for 56 days, this is I think a first time since I am 13 years old. Mood is up, sex is good with my wife. I really see that some of the habbits I had (morning chag before work) are now gone, or at least less pressing. Trying to be strong and acknowledge the temptations, but not folllow them.
Change of diet also has done sthg extraodinary with my body. If this has any influence on my addiction brain networks, no idea. But the combo seems to generally make me more focus and rational in the decision I take, both work and home.