I’m 51 years old and this is my second attempt to kick this addiction. I’ve tried to convince myself that I didn’t have a problem whilst all the time I knew I did. I kept this from my wife for the last 20 years or so I thought, all the time she had suspected what was going on when she wasn’t around or in bed whilst I sat downstairs, and now my marriage is in tatters. I admitted to my wife that I have a problem and I’m lucky she hasn’t left me or kicked me out, but I now know the damage this has been having on both our lives. So here I am 51 years old trying to figure out how to kick this addiction I have and convince my wife that I can kick it. Apologies for this post it’s probably something you’ve read before but I hope by being on here and writing these things down will help me.