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[christianvirgin]

DAY 21 • Progress Through the Rain​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0,5
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0,5
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 0,5 (lascivious texting attempt)
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0,5
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

sun, perhaps some eye contacts as usual, progress in practical work session, memorizing road between that supermarket and housing, even changed an electric component inside the power cabinet necessary for the testing of the practical work
disturbing erotic dream (*almost* reached an orgasm), nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, rain, I think the fat librarian guy cut down the computer on me before 7 o clock pm as I was entering data for a job
A gain in charisma and assurance with people happens gradually as I abstain.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 22 • Miserable Monotonous Maze​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0,5
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0,5
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 0,5 (lascivious texting attempt)
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0,5
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

little bit of sun, progress in practical work session, memorizing road between that supermarket and housing, entered data for a job website, feeling handsome, some personal assurance building up as usual, briefly just saw that young very pretty girl employee at the supermarket
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, cloudy day, social anxiety (some fat small guy said I was "crooked" as in weird), stuck kinda left behind in incomprehension with the electrical drawing part at the practical work session at first (especially with that stupid vile vexing pig talking out loud) but then it eventually made more sense as I applied practically
I would have to buy a ChatGPT subscription to study electrical drawings and their applications in reality.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 23 • Piercing Through the Cables​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0,5
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 0 (involved in some textual sexting)
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0,5
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

some sun despite the cold wind, progress in practical work session, weekend nightshift job opportunity being now confirmed through email for potential hire, feeling pretty handsome, some personal assurance building up as usual, eye contacts getting clearer and more insistent especially from some cute girls (so I have my chances for marriage then), little friendly natural chitchat in group at the break (though I ended up casually on my own as usual), ended the conversation with the sexting woman
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, stupid annoying noise from inconsiderate wicked people, listened to some garbage instrumental music, some textual sexting, moderator censored my DAY 8 post on NoFap for no valid reason
Keeping myself pure gives me a natural, even pleasant, sense of the effort. The drive to pierce through difficulty in progress, although clumsy perhaps, but figuring out more overtime.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 24 • Back To the Wicked Town​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0,5
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 1
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0,5
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

sun, feeling handsome, asked the pretty cashier for the discount card, lunch with mom, eye contact with a pretty girl who was on the phone, could've talked to another one who was sitting alone, took some sun at a lake, got an idea for a bible drawing
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, stupid annoying noise from inconsiderate wicked people (nightclub in the daytime in a public park), listened to some garbage music, worried about the car with such road taken (from big city to old small town to another town and back) knowing I don't know how to change to oil that I must change, frustration or despair as I didn't talk to the girl sitting alone due to anxiety
Keeping my immediate environment clean and clear and organized is extremely important for my well-being. Otherwise, I get sick, tired, dirty and dissipated into some wicked mire. Clean up your mess!

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 25 • Time Lost Once Again​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0,5
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 0,5 (little lascivious texting)
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

some sun
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, stupid annoying noise from inconsiderate wicked neighbors, stress of tomorrow
Maintain a good night sleep cycle, or you will lose precious time during the day (and health too).

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 26 • Back To the Sunny City​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0,5
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0,5
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 1
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0,5
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

sun, progress in practical work session, stunning girl looking at me from the bus stop while I was at the stoplight, some textual support for an online friend (also posted a call for prayers for her online), studied a little bit with ChatGPT, cut my hair, some little eye contacts with cute girls even, assurance growing, talked to a girl in the kitchen of the training center (not my type but for the reboot)
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, stupid annoying profane out loud babblings from inconsiderate wicked classmate, social awkwardness (don't know how or what to reply when complimented on my hair), wasted money on some poor food, car losing gas fast (and must change the oil ASAP still), porn fantasies
I must replace the dissipating distraction (in the evening especially) with the interactive study on ChatGPT.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 27 • Discouragement, Devils and Despair​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0,5
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 1
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

sun, some humility
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, stupid annoying profane out loud babblings from inconsiderate wicked classmate, 2 mocking fat ugly brutish classmates, social awkwardness, out of step behind in practical work session, wasted money on some poor food, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still)
Pervert pleasure deprives you of marital happiness.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 28 • Piercing Through the Cables, Part II​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 1
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0,5
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

sun, progress in practical work session, applied to weekend job opportunities, feeling pretty handsome, some personal assurance building up as usual, some eye contacts, little friendly natural chat initiated by girl in a group at the break and got invited to eat basically with the group (despite my usual little social awkwardness), girl initiating talk at other little break at the end (eye contacts also, smile, little encouraging comment), some humility (and reflecting on my past failure as a pervert), meeting a group of young people at night although some were drunk idiots
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, stupid annoying profane out loud babblings from inconsiderate wicked classmate, little social awkwardness, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), antichristian censorship on the forum, couldn't put gas because I'm broke, car broke down (I stopped as I heard a whistling sound and parked it at a nearby garage), nocturnal hitchhiking (at least like 10 cars before the one that stopped), walked in the night on the road with my bags for 1H+, stress regarding my next trip to the city for my job training, stupid drunk young people at night
Prioritize the essentials with your budget (car, bills, food) without excess. Take care of your car. It's better to be safe and humble than to be in distress and misery.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 29 • Dangerous Dabblings​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0,5
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 0 (interactive textual P w/o M nor O, heard some sneak audio of her moaning, and looked at some P-sub pic on a chatting app)
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

figured out the bus trip from this town to the city at the training center, didn't give in PMO despite the heavy temptations, opportunity to connect with some stunning girl on some chatting app
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, stayed in the dirty cheap studio apartment all day, neglected, noisy annoying neighbors outside, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, indulged in sexting,
Stay clean and dress well, even (and especially) at home by yourself to be in a good productive mood and serenity. Of course, clean up your mess too! Make yourself and your housing as impeccably inspiring as you can to keep your mind focused (not dispersed in the mess) on succeeding at life and reaching your goals.
A stunning gorgeous girl interested in you can be found on some chatting app actually. Don't neglect that hidden blessing.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 30 • Handsome Style​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0,5
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 1
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0,5
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

got just enough coins to pay for an important mailing and Monday bus trips hopefully, got a new stylish spring outfit, feeling pretty handsome, some middle-aged woman looking and smiling at me at the cashier, put the car key with the note in the mail for the mechanic, took a little bit of fresh air in the park, little bible study, sun, cool breeze
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, neglected, noisy annoying neighbors outside, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, didn't do the homework, kinda stressed out for Monday bus trips with my 5 something euros in coins, no more water in bottles
Always keep some cash or coins to be able to take the bus in your region just in case.

​

Purity, discipline, and intentional living—through resisting temptation, managing time and environment wisely, nurturing personal growth, and preparing for that meaningful relationship—are essential for long-term peace, success, and fulfillment.​

GOALS:
_Get a steady decently paying job on the weekend
_Get into that specific job training (also to do so then)
_Clean up dirty cheap awful studio apartment
_Get car fixed (or change it)

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 31 • Perilous Player, Censored Christian​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 0 (interactive textual lasciviousness w/o P, M nor O)
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0,5
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0,5
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

took the sunlight and some fresh air, read something about nutrition and health, some opportunity with some stunning girl on some chatting app, could've talked to that girl but just sent her a "cute" snap (her word) of holding two little flowers, people saying hello to me
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, indulged in some sexting, couldn't get back to that stunning girl who liked me back due to the crooked app system, exhausted after being outside and slept for like 4H and woke up around 9pm, didn't eat except one banana, didn't drink water, Christian signature censored by sick disgusting wicked NoFap moderator I suppose as usual, NoFap journal moved right away in the 30-39 section whereas I wrote at the end of July at that time only, so being messed with by some disgusting psychopathic slob online it seems (huhh), puzzled by the little invitation to eat with the wicked classmates (annoyed by the anxious vibe of not leaving me in peace)
1°) Get saved. 2°) Get rich. 3°) Get swole. 4°) Get married.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 32 • Buried In the Hourglass Once Again​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 0 (interactive textual lasciviousness w/o P {but P-sub}, M nor O)
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

ate one good enough meal
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, indulged in some sexting, couldn't get back to that stunning girl who liked me back due to the crooked app system, tired due to malnourishment, didn't drink enough water, puzzled by the little invitation to eat with the wicked classmates (annoyed by the anxious vibe of not leaving me in peace), spent the whole day in the cheap dirty studio apt, didn't do homework
Time discipline is life in serenity. Time consuming distraction is worry and exhaustion.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 33 • Struggling Start, Better End​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 1
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 1
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0,5
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

ate one good enough meal, perhaps learned some itinerary in the city, nice rhythm at the practical work session
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin (I think, but cool nonetheless), anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, couldn't get back to that stunning girl who liked me back due to the crooked app system, tired due to malnourishment, didn't drink enough water, puzzled by the little invitation to eat with the wicked classmates (annoyed by the anxious vibe of not leaving me in peace), bus ticket more expensive than expected so I had to walk nearly one hour in the rain in the big city to the training center
Dissipations in lust lead to unpreparedness and stressful misery.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 34 • Numbers & Miles​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0,5
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 0,5 (lascivious texting attempt)
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

sense of assurance building up as usual, numbered the cables in my electric cabinet, bought some food and water, withdrew 20€, found an important video on YouTube I thought was completely censored and put it back in my original post (NoFap)
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin, anxiety, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, couldn't get back to that stunning girl who liked me back due to the crooked app system, tired due to malnourishment, didn't drink enough water, exhausting walk between room and supermarket in the city
The inner personal assurance of quiet humble success feels good, as an invincible irresistible shield of amazing aura.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 35 • Shining Salt​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0,5
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 1
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0,5
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

sense of assurance building up as usual, handsome (skin and eyes more vivid, even despite sleepy eye bags), saw a Gospel street sign holder handing out tracts while passing by in the bus (got inspired to perfect my Gospel sign project), consistent eye contacts in bus (perhaps magnetic aura increasing), helping gesture to a mother (then one of her daughters naturally started to extend her hand to me as I was getting back in the bus), got an easy bus itinerary (2 stops) figured out, still no wet dream so far thankfully
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin, abominable heartbreaking anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, couldn't get back to that stunning girl who liked me back due to the crooked app system, some fat fool trying to infantilize (perhaps offend) me in the practical work session, cold and cloudy, tempting girls and lustful porn fantasies
I always must choose creative sublimation rather than passive distraction, and caring discipline instead of dissipating leisure. It's way more fulfilling, healthy, clarifying, joyful and exciting.
Passive distraction like some anime leaves the mind polluted with cluttering pointless annoying thoughts, and the face wounded by sleepy eye bags.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 36 • Death By Distraction​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 0 (lascivious chat w/o P, M nor O)
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

ate strawberries, bible study
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, lustful porn fantasies, lascivious chatting, wasted money on bad food
I must break through the wall of distraction and outsmart the generalized complacency.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 37 • Noisy Bums, Sweet Lady​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 1
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0,5
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

took sunlight in a park with some nature, found a golden like ring, talked through the phone to a virgin sweet lady
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, lustful porn fantasies, noisy bums
I don't miss out on the fornication & distraction bullets I dodge. But keeping on dancing between the lustful & deceitful mines is utterly a waste of time and energy that always leads to frustration, cluttering confusion, regrets and misery. I want to feel instead the joy of a clear conscience, the advantageous power of purity, the bliss of serenity, the thrill of success and the peace of prosperity. So I must push as hard as I can towards my own integrity, snowballing into total triumph to taste the delicious exponential pleasure of freedom, independence, calm and that bright exciting idyllic happiness. Discipline through discomfort leads to diamonds.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 38 • Tempting Girls, Sexting Lady​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0,5
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 0 (strong P-subs {vile nudity in some comics at the library}, sexting involving lascivious and nude pics and audio, w/o P website, M nor O)
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0,5
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

took sunlight in a park with some nature, supporting message through the phone to a girl who's dealing with some challenging situation
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, lustful porn fantasies, noisy bums, sexting with the sweet lady (so defilement obstructing opportunity to witness about the Gospel), wasted money on bad food
Pornographic fantasies (and whorrish girls) enticing for the flesh are dangerous attempts from the enemy to deprive me of power, freedom, intelligence, enthusiasm, honour and life. DON'T GIVE IN. Sin never leaves you any better than it finds you. Better flee fornication and get rich (like Joseph). Think on virtuous things with godly praise. Taste and see how the Lord is good rather.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 39 • Time Won Once Again​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 1
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0,5
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

took sunlight in a park with some nature, got a call from an old christian sister
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin, anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, lustful porn fantasies, noisy people
The thing is to sacrifice my pernicious immediate self-gratification on the altar of the exponential abundant living.

 

[christianvirgin]

DAY 40 • Forgotten Keys, Broken Down Car​

•Sleep before 9pm last night: 0
•Workout 1H: 0
•Eat 3× meat, vegetables & fruits / Fast: 0
•Apply impeccable hygiene: 0
•Clear up, clean up housing: 0
•Pray 2H fragmented: 0
•NO P,M,sexting etc.,fornication: 1
•Execute my own business/investment: 0
•Read/study/learn sth new: 0,5
•Memorize scripture or lesson: 0
•Draw/write/make song/walk in nature: 0
•Witness to people about the Gospel: 0

took sunlight, got temporary replacement keys for my room, could buy a cheap car, useful online tool to search companies, could put some oil in the car and park it locally perhaps before I sell it, natural magnetic reassuring aura increasing perhaps despite some shyness or social awkwardness, new trainer less vulgar
nightmare of neglect (messy dirty studio apt) in the town I left, sleepy eyes bags, didn't sleep well enough, too thin, disgusting anti-white invasion, perhaps some paperwork online I still must take care of and didn't get a company for my internship yet (latent annoying worry due to procrastinating), wasted time online and went to sleep late, didn't study electrical maths or drawings at home, disorder in my papers (lessons and exercises), must watch out financially, must put gas (and must change the oil ASAP still), no car at the moment, lustful porn fantasies, forgot the keys of my room before leaving, broken down car (cost of repairs too high
Abstain from lust and you gain in trust.