Low libido and unreliable erections

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zackergeet

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Day 60!
2 months already, I watched the videos of Gabe the creator of this page. And he started that for healing completely he spent 9 months. I wonder if it will be the 9 months for me, perhaps more since I started very young. I cannot remember anymore exactly how old I was but I do remember that everything started with the brand new computer. I did not even have a internet but a “friend” lend a xxx video and man it was like an explosion in my mind and at that age I did not have refract
 
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Day 77!

I am working towards my goal to be 200 days free or PMO. I have not relapsed and I think I am building a stronger will to keep my away from any temptation. Also I think my low libido helps me to make this easier but I really hope to get my libido back. Right now I don’t feel tempted to PMO but I feel down very unhappy. I fight with my wife a lot and we don’t understand each other. I wish she understood the effort I put for providing and our current situation but it seems like she does not get it. Anyway, PMO has been an outlet all this time whenever I felt overwhelmed and even thought I don’t have any desires to PMO. It is like my mind reminded me to go for that path, I was trying to calm thinking what can I do to make this better about my family problem but brain just threw the PMO option it was like, it was somebody else suggesting me stuff.i realized PMO has been my scape to handle difficult stuff but no more. I have to man up and face my issues, my unhappiness the correct way and not in a way that has given just negative results.

Thanks you porn.

- I developed ED
- I started to hate porn actresses (a certain way of hate an attraction) cause they have “sex” they get paid, they are beautiful and it seems society thinks they are kind of a celebrity. And for many years I could not get girls and now that I can I have ED. What a twisted irony is that? That seemed to me so unfair, but life is not.
- I don’t know how to handle stress efficiently
- I see attractive girls like I wish I could have them
-so many hours wasted jerking off in front a computer when I could have been reading or building a better me.
-etc

Well I am here to declare that I am already a free man of PMO and I am not going back never. I want to heal my ED, my brain and also my way of thinking, and become stronger in every way. 123 more days to reach the first main goal.
 
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zackergeet

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Day 80!

PMO has always been my way to go whenever I felt stressed, somehow my body and mind remembers this habit and I feel a small trigger. Luckily that sensation is like a flash and I don’t feel the biologically urge to to PMO. I remember when I was 15 I used to fell this strong urges, I felt this heat in my mind that I was to watch some P and do MO. At sone point from that time to very recently (80 days ago) i forgot about how to feel aroused or horny, and start PMOing like it was a hobby , or to not be bored or because I had free time. Anything and everything was an excuse to PMO. I killed my feelings by doing it multiple times a days and many days a week. Now I want to heal, and I am healing but the process is slow. I hope someday I wake up and feel alive, feel that I can perform sexually, that I can feel how impressive is sex when you brain and body are healthy and in a correct harmony. Looking forward to meet this new and healed version of me, who will never look go back to P.
 
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Day 83! No libido I am going to the doctor today to check my testosterone levels. And also get some help. Today I was so bored and stressed that I really really wanted to see sexy chicks pics but I realized that what I want to achieve is to perform sexually, I don’t want see women through a screen, I want the real deal. I really want to be cured, I am stressing a lot today.
 
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Day 90! 3 months free. My mind is regaining its clarity, I feel my brain thanking me cause it does not feel dirty and heavy with all those P images, my body also feel lighter and with more energy. It makes me think why I ever went to P. I should have stayed to real chicks and NOT to just images or videos which made me lazy to get girls. Let’s go! 110 more days to be Free(er)
 
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