Back again , Relapsed after 1 year of success

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Moore0

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As the the tittle suggests , I fought this demon for a year after I noticed early signs of PIED, I was successful, I felt good and over the moon that I overcame this years long addiction, in the last 6 months this has now reared its head again and no matter how much I tried I failed .
I do not have PEID anymore but the nervousness around sex performance has still not completely gone away , now this addiction reared its head again . TODAY I am taking accountability and being back here where it began . I can do this …
 
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Moore0

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Day 9– I missed journaling in the last few days due to life and family . The last few days has been tough particularly day 7 and Day 8 and today of course , I am fighting on after making it to one week after a long time . My brain is fighting back , I know this but I’m not going to give in despite the allure of provocation on the internet . Here is to never 🙏🏿
 
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Moore0

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Day 12- going strong , urges as usual but nothing I’m actually giving into , looking forward to actually having sex with my wife but been a horrible thanksgiving as we are all sick with a flu .
 
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Moore0

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Day 15- happy that I have finally made it to two weeks without PMO, me and the wife had sex on day 13 , actually been looking forward to that for weeks . I would say this , porn really really fries your brain , I have not been getting that high from porn anymore and the unbelievable sexual attraction that I have with my wife is crazy , I literally stare her down whenever she walks by .
Here is to never again ….
 
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Moore0

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Day 18- few triggers on the internet that had me peek for a few seconds before I caught myself . I’ve been doing this a while now to come to the conclusion that the internet is your enemy if you are fighting this addiction.
You can use every tool to avoid it , re build your algorithm, get apps that help block certain things , one a trigger will appear on your screen as long as you are using the internet and it kind of makes me sad because the game is rigged against you . Anyways onwards and fighting
 
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Moore0

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DAY 25- Life has been Lif-ing these last couple of days, me and the family took a trip this weekend that had me occupied , good thing yeah? However I nearly failed , again as with my Journal on day 18 , the triggers , the triggers come on I peak for a couple seconds and catch myself . The goal for me has been not To PMO and on that I have not failed , I have remained steadfast and I am fighting. It gets tougher but hey! Let’s do this …
 
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