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Crumble

Crumble

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Hello everyone,
three years ago, I posted my first message here.
I actually wanted my account to be deleted, but when I checked tonight, it was still there. I took that as a sign of fate, so I'm writing here again after all this time.

A lot has changed in my life since then, and I feel like I'm on the right track for the first time in a long time, but I'm still missing that little piece on the path to ultimate freedom. I hope to find that little piece through this diary and the support of the community that I experienced here back then.

I'm on my third day away from porn – it feels good to be back here.
 
Crumble

Crumble

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Day 4

My biggest challenge at the moment is lack of sleep.

Since I have to commute 1 1/2 hours to work every day, I get up very early and I can tell from my health that I need to sleep more, because I often have colds.

Sometimes I wonder if this is still the right job for me – on the other hand, I (often) enjoy my work, despite the stress. Financial security is also a factor, of course.
 
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Day 5

My biggest struggle at the moment is with afternoon naps – I already wrote yesterday that my lack of sleep is causing me difficulties, but I also have a way of compensating for it.
As soon as I lie down for a little nap at lunchtime, my autopilot kicks in. All my defence mechanisms shut down because I'm tired, exhausted and feel like, "Now I can relax" – and relaxation is not yet a healthy behaviour for me.

So for the future, even though it's difficult for me, no afternoon naps for now.

Have a good day with lots of healthy relaxation!
 
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