Hello All, first I just want to say that this is a great website, and I'm glad I ran into it on the net.
My story dates back to when I was 12 years old when I discovered a porn magazine lying on the road nearby my house. Intrigued by the cover I looked around to see if anyone was watching and when I saw no one looking, I quickly hid it under my shirt. It was very thrilling and I had an exciting time masturbating to it when I got home. This is where my porn journey began. Soon enough I had access to the internet and the day I got it a buddy and me looked for pictures of nude girls.
As time went by I was hooked and was looking for more and more. The porn watching continued and has been a problem now for nearly 20 years. The porn watching has decreased as I get older, but it hasn't completely gone away. I am now 31 years old married but don't have children at the moment.
Ultimately I blame porn for my desire to watch more porn although luckily I didn't get into extreme porn watching. I was never really into the sick stuff I guess. However, porn did escalate into real life situations where I started to search for hookers/prostitutes/escorts. By the time I was 24 I lost my virginity to an escort in a massage parlour. To this day I still feel shameful for having lost it with a prostitute and not a real woman like my wife. Unfortunately, I suppose it was meant to be.
I kept on watching porn throughout the years and I also met up with escorts from time to time. I think I've probably spent at least $5,000 if not more in the past 5-6 years alone. Unfortunately this problem didn't stop after getting married, although decreased somewhat. I still continued to look for other women/escorts after getting married! Again something I'm not really happy about.
I've tried from time to time to give up on porn, but have relapsed quite a few times. I'm at this stage now where I'm really serious about quitting and so far this week has been good. I'm particularly worried as I'm showing ED symptoms and my erections are not as strong as they used to be. I also want to have kids in the future and want to have a healthy sex life in the future. I want to give up porn for good! It is evil and I really wish it weren't so easily available on the internet.
Jazzy
My story dates back to when I was 12 years old when I discovered a porn magazine lying on the road nearby my house. Intrigued by the cover I looked around to see if anyone was watching and when I saw no one looking, I quickly hid it under my shirt. It was very thrilling and I had an exciting time masturbating to it when I got home. This is where my porn journey began. Soon enough I had access to the internet and the day I got it a buddy and me looked for pictures of nude girls.
As time went by I was hooked and was looking for more and more. The porn watching continued and has been a problem now for nearly 20 years. The porn watching has decreased as I get older, but it hasn't completely gone away. I am now 31 years old married but don't have children at the moment.
Ultimately I blame porn for my desire to watch more porn although luckily I didn't get into extreme porn watching. I was never really into the sick stuff I guess. However, porn did escalate into real life situations where I started to search for hookers/prostitutes/escorts. By the time I was 24 I lost my virginity to an escort in a massage parlour. To this day I still feel shameful for having lost it with a prostitute and not a real woman like my wife. Unfortunately, I suppose it was meant to be.
I kept on watching porn throughout the years and I also met up with escorts from time to time. I think I've probably spent at least $5,000 if not more in the past 5-6 years alone. Unfortunately this problem didn't stop after getting married, although decreased somewhat. I still continued to look for other women/escorts after getting married! Again something I'm not really happy about.
I've tried from time to time to give up on porn, but have relapsed quite a few times. I'm at this stage now where I'm really serious about quitting and so far this week has been good. I'm particularly worried as I'm showing ED symptoms and my erections are not as strong as they used to be. I also want to have kids in the future and want to have a healthy sex life in the future. I want to give up porn for good! It is evil and I really wish it weren't so easily available on the internet.
Jazzy