Well, you've got to decide whether you want to fight it and overcome it or not.
I know you want to, it just sometimes seems like it's impossible and it might be the only thing that makes you happy...but you know it's just temporary... Let me tell you something, stopping is hard, but it's not impossible, giving up is easier, but if you give up, you'll eventually end up in this situation again...so get up on your feet and don't look back!
Trust me, I've been there..I am being there...
I think the advantages of not watching it surely outweigh watching it. My life is happier and I am findig joy in everyday things...While it's still only my 25 th day being PMO free.
And feel free to write more about your problem, it could help others give you appropriate advice.
(Sorry for my poor english, I hope you could understand what I was trying to say)
Stay strong!