noises1990
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Hello there!
My name is Adrian and I'm 24 years old. I guess this is my story and the start of something that could be really beneficial for me.
I don't really know if I'm a porn addict or not, but I really want to give this thing a try. My "porn addiction" if I can call it that, started when I was about 13-14 years old... Yeah... 10 years... if only i'd knew it had the potential to harm me so much.
Hear me out why I don't know if I'm suffering from porn ED: My first serious relationship that included lots of sex started when I was about 18 years old and lasted about 3 years. No problems there, erections were ok, sex life was good and as I've said above I was already using porn and masturbating on almost a daily basis.
The first time I had trouble with ED, I guess it was about 2-3 years ago with another girl I moved in with. Again, don't really know if it's Porn induced ED or just Performance Anxiety but it happened... We got on and I wasn't up to the task. Happened a couple of times but after moving in with her and getting pretty calm (instead of being anxious) around her helped somewhat fixing the problem. My erections were still not full but it might have been due to the fact that she was kinda masculine and I don't really know if I liked her so much (physically speaking - she was 9 years older than me).
We broke up and there were a few months (actually many) before I had a girlfriend again. We moved in together, started to have sex and everything was ok. Broke up again and now we're getting to the present.
Let me tell you something about my diet and work-outs (maybe you can find a pattern and it's a different problem like nutrition and exhaustion - still want to quit porn though!!)
Well, the last few years I've been putting on a lot of weight (almost 98 KG on a short guy 1.70). The last fall I started a Herbalife diet that I'm still on and I managed to reach 68 KGs. Well, a herbalife diet means that you take lots of pills and replace 2 meals per day with their shake beverages (so not such a healthy nutrition diet - considering the fact that I'm prolly puttin in just 1500 calories a day or even less).
This wouldn't be a problem if I was not hitting the gym. I run about 8-9 KMs a day then lift weights. This might cause exhaustion due to my diet and cause the ED problem. I'm not really sure and I can't really afford to do some medical check-ups (I live in a under-developed economical country and have shitty paycheck).
Well, it's been two months since I'm in a relationship with this beautiful and amazing girl (she really is an angel) but she studies in a different country so we see together from time to time when she comes home.
We get along very well and I think she understands me. I told her about my problem (guess she noticed it first-hand anyway) and she seems very ok and relaxed about it - this really helps me.
Now to the naughty part: The first time we had sex two months ago it was kinda weird because I was scared shit-less due to performance anxiety, wasn't really up to the task but after aprox 20 minutes got hard and had a really nice one (no problems then). Now she got home again almost two weeks back. The first time we tried sex again, it was ok, not perfect but really ok. The second time was during a work break I had (I live very close to my work-place) and I couldn't get it up. Don't really know if it was from the stress but i was really trying to get an erection but POW! GONE!
After that there was an occurrence a few days back when I couldn't get hard (prolly due to stress) but after she started touching me we were good to go.
The most recent time (thursday) we were able to get somewhat of a few erections (3 times actually ended in sex) but I felt like I was going down and i forced myself to finish very fast... But some improvement was present (also that was after quitting porn for about 4 days).
Now my fear is this... although she seems very comfortable with this and she understands me, i really fear that due to this problem our relationship will end... I don't want this to happen, she's awesome and I really waited for a long time to be with her. I want to make her happy, I want her to have it all but I feel that this issue is gonna really blow a huge black hole between us
So here it is... although I'm not sure I've got porn addiction ED and I've already started the rebooting process, this will be known as day 1! God bless us!
*PS: I've been smoking pot for almost 3 years on a daily basis. But also quit about one week ago... Hope the info helps
My name is Adrian and I'm 24 years old. I guess this is my story and the start of something that could be really beneficial for me.
I don't really know if I'm a porn addict or not, but I really want to give this thing a try. My "porn addiction" if I can call it that, started when I was about 13-14 years old... Yeah... 10 years... if only i'd knew it had the potential to harm me so much.
Hear me out why I don't know if I'm suffering from porn ED: My first serious relationship that included lots of sex started when I was about 18 years old and lasted about 3 years. No problems there, erections were ok, sex life was good and as I've said above I was already using porn and masturbating on almost a daily basis.
The first time I had trouble with ED, I guess it was about 2-3 years ago with another girl I moved in with. Again, don't really know if it's Porn induced ED or just Performance Anxiety but it happened... We got on and I wasn't up to the task. Happened a couple of times but after moving in with her and getting pretty calm (instead of being anxious) around her helped somewhat fixing the problem. My erections were still not full but it might have been due to the fact that she was kinda masculine and I don't really know if I liked her so much (physically speaking - she was 9 years older than me).
We broke up and there were a few months (actually many) before I had a girlfriend again. We moved in together, started to have sex and everything was ok. Broke up again and now we're getting to the present.
Let me tell you something about my diet and work-outs (maybe you can find a pattern and it's a different problem like nutrition and exhaustion - still want to quit porn though!!)
Well, the last few years I've been putting on a lot of weight (almost 98 KG on a short guy 1.70). The last fall I started a Herbalife diet that I'm still on and I managed to reach 68 KGs. Well, a herbalife diet means that you take lots of pills and replace 2 meals per day with their shake beverages (so not such a healthy nutrition diet - considering the fact that I'm prolly puttin in just 1500 calories a day or even less).
This wouldn't be a problem if I was not hitting the gym. I run about 8-9 KMs a day then lift weights. This might cause exhaustion due to my diet and cause the ED problem. I'm not really sure and I can't really afford to do some medical check-ups (I live in a under-developed economical country and have shitty paycheck).
Well, it's been two months since I'm in a relationship with this beautiful and amazing girl (she really is an angel) but she studies in a different country so we see together from time to time when she comes home.
We get along very well and I think she understands me. I told her about my problem (guess she noticed it first-hand anyway) and she seems very ok and relaxed about it - this really helps me.
Now to the naughty part: The first time we had sex two months ago it was kinda weird because I was scared shit-less due to performance anxiety, wasn't really up to the task but after aprox 20 minutes got hard and had a really nice one (no problems then). Now she got home again almost two weeks back. The first time we tried sex again, it was ok, not perfect but really ok. The second time was during a work break I had (I live very close to my work-place) and I couldn't get it up. Don't really know if it was from the stress but i was really trying to get an erection but POW! GONE!
After that there was an occurrence a few days back when I couldn't get hard (prolly due to stress) but after she started touching me we were good to go.
The most recent time (thursday) we were able to get somewhat of a few erections (3 times actually ended in sex) but I felt like I was going down and i forced myself to finish very fast... But some improvement was present (also that was after quitting porn for about 4 days).
Now my fear is this... although she seems very comfortable with this and she understands me, i really fear that due to this problem our relationship will end... I don't want this to happen, she's awesome and I really waited for a long time to be with her. I want to make her happy, I want her to have it all but I feel that this issue is gonna really blow a huge black hole between us
So here it is... although I'm not sure I've got porn addiction ED and I've already started the rebooting process, this will be known as day 1! God bless us!
*PS: I've been smoking pot for almost 3 years on a daily basis. But also quit about one week ago... Hope the info helps