Day 15 and want an escort

davebo99

New Member
Hi guys, I am looking for a bit of support. I have been doing no fap for 15 days and have already seen improvements, mainly a mass of motivation to go to the gym, I am more sociable with people etc. I had a summer stint of going to high quality escorts last summer to fulfill my needs. I believe I have had porn enduced ED my whole life (now 33). I have never had a proper sexual relationship with a girl mainly due to the fact that in my twenties I could not perform many times and eventually lost my virginity with a girl i met when I was 31 (I needed viagra to help me!!) I took viagra each time I visited an escort. I went 7 times and have not regretted it as it was good experience for me and I wanted to make up for all those girls I could of banged in my twenties but could not due to my ED. I know that if I stop no PMO It will probably go a long way to stopping my ED. I am getting more looks from women etc (I am 6ft 2 dark hair athletic good looking) but always had anxiety around women - I have certainly noticed my anxiety going now which is good. I just had the temptation to book an escort last night. I won't do it as I know its a dangerous road to go down, probably even worse than wanking on the internet to porn. Is anyone else going through a bit of a rough time?

Thanks for your time

Davebo
 

Viper

Well-Known Member
Davebo,
welcome to this portal. You've arrived at a safe place to discuss these issues. All of us have a story and I'm glad you are sharing this.

Just want you to know, I had tremendous anxiety around girls growing up. I knew I wanted attention from them
but I would get so nervous and ruin it for both of us. People who meet me for the first time would not believe the
story I just told you because of course I'm a lot older now and I have enough balls to chat up a gal any time, any place.
But it had to start somewhere. Oh, and when I lost my virginity, I was literally shaking so much because of how many
insecurities and anxiety I had and since we both had mutual friends and such.
I'm reading what you wrote in terms of how you felt around women and I can relate. At least when I was a younger teenager.
What separates us is the whole 'escort' thing.
This leads me to ask are you more interested in overcoming PIED or the desire to hire a pro?
 
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