Determined18
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My name is Matt. I've been addicted to pornography for 13 years since I was 17, and I'm 30 now. The first time I masturbated was to porn (at 17 a late bloomer). I was instantly hooked. I can go into much greater detail but what's the point. This addiction has affected my behavior and personality and led my life in a certain direction. As odd as it is I feel like I'm finally learning to be a human, to feel love and compassion. Porn left me feeling like a soulless animal and I'm done with it. My wife is 6 months pregnant and it's time to grow up. I don't have intimacy with my wife and need to think of pornographic images to reach orgasm. This is pathetic and disturbing to me.
Hopefully this is a helpful journal. I'm only on day 3 of complete porn abstinence and masturbation (that parts easy because I only used porn). I am determined to never do this again in my life so I can reform relationships, heal, and be a human being full of love and joy, all of which has escaped me since my early teen years.
Thanks,
Matt
Hopefully this is a helpful journal. I'm only on day 3 of complete porn abstinence and masturbation (that parts easy because I only used porn). I am determined to never do this again in my life so I can reform relationships, heal, and be a human being full of love and joy, all of which has escaped me since my early teen years.
Thanks,
Matt